People have nothing better to do on here then give me ones then have the friggen nerve to stalk me.. talk about a loose screw or 10....
oh wait, that must be "my baggage" talking...
nope, never mind.. that's completely normal, what people are doing...
oh well, there's always at least 1 in a group...
I take it with the way this person is continuing to give me 1's they don't realize that when they rate me a 1 the first time, they don't have to keep doing it, to give me an even lower rating. It really doesn't count after the first time.... Maybe that's the reason I didn't re-rate... because I RATED THEM A 10 A LONG TIME AGO.... rating again is pointless!
Wow... I don't even know where to begin. My dad... after being married to my mom for over 38 years is leaving us for some desperate devious home wrecker ho that he was in love with 40 years ago. My mom, who is so poor in health and can barely walk, and has so many problems, who has always been dependent on him is not taking this too well. He made a mess of the house and now I have to be the one to clean it all... It's gonna take at least a year... There is only me to do this. Sure he had a crappy life when my moms sister was alive, but she died over 10 years ago... He told my mother she was a rebound from the ho i mentioned above. He said he doesn't care for me or my mom.. Apparently this ho is some big professor up in Montana with a hummer, 2 Avalanche pick-ups, 250 acres of land and a huge farm. Well, I learned a long time ago, you can't trust anyone, and this confirms my theories to the T... I really am surprised its coming to divorce, cause he swore up and down that he meant the vows he said. I am so hurt and pissed. Almost 40 years... I can't wait until everything gets changed over to my name, because I have some words to say to this ho, Maureen... I can do enough mental damage to her to make me happy, yet not get arrested for slander or whatever because they say if you have examples and proof of whatever you call them, they can't touch you. Yes I have proof she is a desperate devious home wrecker ho. He has the nerve to talk to her via email on MY computer in MY room. Actually, she dumped him 40 years ago, I hope she does again and they both die alone. I guess she is coming here to visit her in laws for Thanksgiving (her husband supposedly died of brain cancer) and my dad is supposed to go out with her, then come back home for the night. How is that for messed up... He is telling my mom all of this... Actually once he leaves, I will clean up everything and try to fix as much of things as I can. It sucks that there is only me and there is a lot of heavy crap in the basement to bring up... This is gonna be tricky... Anyway, my mom told him if it doesn't work with her don't expect to be taken back... And he said "oh, ok, I guess I won't ask then" He expected her to let him cheat on her, then take him back if it didn't work out.. How's that for screwed up.
There is a lot more to say about things that were said, but the above is just what I have been dealing with the passed week. I might not be on a lot, but those that are worried, don't be I am not suicidal or anything... I have to be here for my mom. It sucks that with her failing health and that I have to work, but I can't put her into a nursing home.... Those places suck. As long as she has her mind, then I will do my damnedest to do what I can. I was planning on moving out and starting my own life, but again that has to get put on hold. I saved up quite a bit for a town house but so much for that. My father who I am very tempted to just call William now, because if he has no respect for us, then 2 can play this game. I really thought people who were older had some form of morals. Nice to know that I have more morals then them. All hope wreckers need to be tarred and feathered. I said that a long time ago. I never thought it would happen in my family. If he dies before her, and she contacts me, I honestly do not know what I do, because if she sets one foot within sight distance I will punch her in her face. I was raised to respect my elders, but all bets are off with her...
I had trust issues before, but this takes the prize... I will never get married... I can't afford to trust someone just to have him leave me when I am old and can't fend for myself. This is the worst thing that he could have done... I hope with the slob he is she will toss him out and they will both die alone... Hell I know this will bite me in the ass, but I have been a good person and always got screwed, as Karma apparently has it out for me anyway so forget it.
Ok... I am not sure where this is coming from.. whether it's this beautiful song I am listening to or what, but I am rather sad... Probably why I opened up on some poor unsuspecting soul when asking a question... I have no one in my life, which is less hurtful and stressful, but I guess as I am only human. I would love someone to hold and comfort me, love me and share everything with me... Though to me that is a scary notion... My parents have been married for almost 40 years and are not doing good at all... I was scared of marriage before, but after what is going on in my household, there really is no one out there you can trust, is there... You can dedicate your whole life to someone and it doesn't mean a damn thing because everyone is out for themselves and could care less about someone else... Please do not ask yourself how I can be so cynical, I started at a very young age... experience can be a wonderful thing... Though as I told this person I ranted to earlier, I have trust issues... Though I will trust someone with my life, but trusting someone with my heart and mind, I just don't know if I can afford to anymore... What happened in my last relationship, I really didn't expect because I trusted and not I am worse for wear... The one thing I prayed that it would not end like, was exactly what happened... I am really tired... If it wasn't for my job, I don't know what I would do... I really have nothing else... Least the right season is coming and I will be able to blend in better and keep a lid on my emotions as they go numb from the bitter cold...
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