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I hate how people keep doubting me because they don't know shit about a topic. College for example, my dad "thinks" he knows what he's talking about because he attended college for half a semester back in like, 1970. I did the research and I know that I need, NEED a total of 24 elective credit hours to get my AA degree. So taking classes like art apprecation and computer business skills is a logical choice since they give me 6 elective credit hours! Why is that so hard to understand? My god he wanted me ot get online, drop all my classes and get things like Trig, the 3rd level of chemistry and all this shit. He doesn't even understand that it's not like highschool. There's not multiple difficulties of the same class.



You know how it goes in highschool, math for example. You got special ed, regular, advanced and honors, and i guess AP for the same math class.



In college Algebra 1 and let's say Algebr 3 aren't higher levels of the same class. You can't take 1 and jump to 3 but he doesn't understand that.



I know exactly what classes i need to take to graduate and to get my teaching degree, he doesn't. He might like ot think he does but even when i prove him dead wrong he doesn't aknowledge that I know what I'm doing. I'm always wrong, taking the easy way out or some BS. Just because i make it look easy...doesn't mean it's fucking easy...



I wish stupid people weren't allowed to talk. Just cut their tongue out already.



I swear I have to be adopted because there's no way in fuck I was born into a failure of a family like this.

Today's gonna be a good day I can already tell. Woke up to a nice message from Kristen this morning, wasn't exactly cheery but it was an honest message, if that makes sense, an I prefer that type of message to cheery any day. hahaha Yesterday and the day before was kinda shitty but thanks to that I'm in a semi-perminant good mood today. The only thing that could bring that mood down is if i somehow failed the math test i took last week. Or if my laptop breaks come to think of it, that'd also do it but anyway....in a good freakin mood today!

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Marahlynn
16:05 Dec 01 2009

grats on the good mood *high five*

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I've been hearing strange noises the past few nights, kinda annoying me. I would almost say it's whispering but it comes and goes too quickly and too randomly for me to listen closely enough. Just went out to get a soda from the kitchen and I heard something in the living room. The light was off but even if it was a person they'd have to cross the kitchen to get out of sight, light turned on and no one there.



Either I'm going bat shit crazy or I somehow got the attention of the ghosts in this house. Sadly both situations are possible. hahaha



I find it kinda amusing but I just do not expect it at all when it happens so each and every time it shocks me.



Oh! One sound that did scare the shit out of me earlier today. Has anyone ever seen the movine One Missed call? If so, you know the inhailer noise that the people hear just before they die? I heard that in my room earlier today out of no where and was like "what in the fuck was that?" I'm still alive though, i think, for now. hahaha So all's good. I'm just confused as well. hahaha Cofused but interest....holy fuck. Well at least the ghosts know to knock before they enter the damn room, wish my dad would learn that. hahaha *gets up to shut and lock the door* I'm liking this house more and more.

These are just some videos i've been watching to pass the time.



First is Snake and Ocelot's last duel from Metal Gear 3, wish i had my ps2 in this house, wanna play this again.



https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ttk0i4g-H3Y



This one is from the mgs 1 remake, it's the ninja killing a bunch of soldiers, gotta love the ninja.



https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7AzVGy6G9CM



Same game, ocelot and the ninja's formal introduction. As well as the fight between snake and ocelot that's supposed to be a....lot longer then the one in the video....kinda made it look like a joke but still, it's cool.



https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lXISD1jXDjU



The fighting ends at 6 minuets in, the rest is just conversation, interesting conversation, at least to me, but conversation none the less.



This one is from devil may cry 4, dante getting his sword back and kicking ass with it. Dante is and alwayse will be a bad ass.



https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d4ty-91HSbE



More of dante kicking ass.



https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tVe32jtbBAc&feature=related



Dante having fun with Pandora's box.



https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kb76eVRZwPM&feature=related

finished my history "project" so now i'm bored as fuck yet again. I would kill for something interesting to happen!!! Anything! Can't believe I of all people am going stir crazy. *bangs head against keyboard* bored........



C'mon imagination.....work.....turn on....hahaha At least the simpsons are comming on soon. Damn i really must be bored.....think i'm just gonna make my profile longer...and fix the 100s of speling errors. hahaha finally.

Got a damn virus on my pc somehow. Damn thing actually uninstalled my wifi. Thank god for system restore, windows XP kicks ass! Also glad i didn't go my projects. hahaha We reset the date to thursday so anything done between then and now went away, thankfully nothing was done between then and now. hahaha

I've been bored today so I started to talk to random people on all the sites i'm on. There's this one called Okcupid.com. It's supposed to be a dating site but it's also where i find my awsome tests! And for some reason I'm finding more people that I actually recagnize from school than I am on facebook or myspace. hahaha They've all been reluctant to talk to me at first but they're warming up. It's kinda like "why is the creepy kid talking to me?" Then "The creepy kid ain't half bad."



That site hekps to further justify to my parrents though that the girls around where i live are horrible. hahaha While i was looking around i stumbled onto 8 profiles of girls i recagnized in highschool and all of them did drugs. 6 of them smoked and they all also drank. Not to mention their views on relationships are as fucked up as i thought. hahaha I pointed this all out to my father earlier today and was like "This is why I like long distance! So don't say anything negative about Kristen." He has never said anything negative about her but just in case. hahaha He actually likes her. Showed him her picture and he said she's very pretty and i showed him a little of her and I's conversations. Feels nice to actually have my family support me for once. Kristen is awsome! hahaha



Great thing is i got to brag about Kristen on there! That's always fun. She's probably made an account on there with all of the tests i gave her. hahaha I should ask. I WILL ask! hahaha I'm hyper. Thinking about her got me in such a good damn mood! It always does. Gonna try and send her a picture before bed, something to make her smile. As well as find more tests for her to take. Although I think i gave her all the good ones. hahaha We will see!

Finally got ot talk to Kristen! Only for like 5 minuets but it was worth the 24 hour wait. hahaha Yes that is kinda stalker-ish but whatever. It was well, well worth the wait. Hope her and I get to talk tomorow too!

you know you;re tired when you start seeing shit. Yay for mystery shadows!

Been playing more of modenr warfare 2, played against a team that was so fucking stupid. I alone killed every one of them at least twice. After the match they accused us of "camping" too much. Camping meaning staying in one spot for more than like, 5 seconds. I've heard people bitch about this time and time again and it just annoys me.

1: Camping is a great tactical move. Securing hallways and passages can turn the tide of battle and prevent you from being flanked, provided your teammate has good shot.

2: Since fights spread over the whole length of the battlefield, if someone sits in just one spot the whole time they're hardly gonna get any kills at all so most "campers" still move around as the battle progresses.

3: Campers are easily killed if you THINK. You have flash grenades you can use, stun grenades, FRAG grenades or flanking meneuvers. If you just storm head first into a hallway without taking in your surroundings you deserve to die.

I hate how people blame their lack of intelligence on the people who kicked their ass. Maybe they should learn a thing or two from the ones who know what they're doing instead of running around the map liek a chicken with its head cut off. Grant it i do run around maps like that when i'm using my ninja character but i don't do it haphazerdly. I stick to either the shadows or on rooftops to flank the enemy. Rarely will you see my just spring like a mad man into a random hallway.

posting this link to the ncis shows so i don't gotta keep unting through my messages for it.



http://www.casttv.com/shows/ncis



Who needs TV when sites like this have all the shows you'll ever watch. hahaha

http://www.okcupid.com/tests/the-how-long-could-you-run-from-the-law-test



Caught after 5 years. Good job. Sure you were eventaully caught, but only because you were bragging to everyone about how good you were at being a fugitive.

eh.....



http://www.okcupid.com/tests/the-past-life-regression-test



Your result for The Past Life Regression Test ...



The Teacher

88% Teacher, 0% Explorer, 0% Pirate, 14% Engineer, 27% Philosopher, 13% Clergymen, 14% Doctor, 40% Artist, 11% Warrior and 64% Author!



You were once an excellent teacher. You are a very kind hearted, loving person. You would love to make the world a better, more educated place. You have a way with words that can enlighten anybody on a certain topic.

Love this test.



http://www.okcupid.com/tests/the-personality-defect-test



Your result for The Personality Defect Test ...



Sociopath

You are 86% Rational, 0% Extroverted, 71% Brutal, and 100% Arrogant.



You are the Sociopath! As a result of your cold, calculating rationality, your introversion (and ability to keep quiet), your brutality, and your arrogance, you would make a very cunning serial killer. You are confident and capable of social interaction, but you prefer the silence of dead bodies to the loud, twittering nitwits you normally encounter in your daily life. You care very little for the feelings of others, possibly because you are not a very emotional person. You are also very calculating and intelligent, making you a perfect criminal mastermind. Also, you are a very arrogant person, tending to see yourself as better than others, providing you with a strong ability to perceive others as weak little animals, so tiny and small. You take great pleasure in the misery of others, and there is nothing sweeter to you than the sweet glory of using someone else's shattered failure to project yourself to success. Except sugar. That just may be sweeter. In short, your personality defect is the fact that you could easily be a sociopath, because you are calculating, unemotional, brutal, and arrogant. Please don't kill me for writing mean things about you! I have a 101 mile-long knife! Don't make me use it!



To put it less negatively:



1. You are more RATIONAL than intuitive.



2. You are more INTROVERTED than extroverted.



3. You are more BRUTAL than gentle.



4. You are more ARROGANT than humble.





Compatibility:



Your exact opposite is the Hippie.



Other personalities you would probably get along with are the Spiteful Loner, the Smartass, and the Capitalist Pig.

I don't know what compells me ot take tests in which i already know the answer. At any rate, gonna be posting the results to these random tests i take, as well as the links to them because i'm bored out of my freakin mind.



http://www.okcupid.com/tests/the-3-variable-funny-test



Your result for The 3 Variable Funny Test ...



the Ham



(43% dark, 42% spontaneous, 32% vulgar)



your humor style:

CLEAN | SPONTANEOUS | LIGHT





Your style's goofy, innocent and feel-good. Perfect for parties and for the dads who chaperone them. You can actually get away with corny jokes, and I bet your sense of humor is a guilty pleasure for your friends. People of your type are often the most approachable and popular people in their circle. Your simple & silly good-naturedness is immediately recognizable, and it sets you apart in this sarcastic world.



PEOPLE LIKE YOU: Will Ferrell - Will Smith

In a much better mood all of a sudden. All I gotta do is think of my girl and poof, bad stuff doesn't mean shit for a while, almost like magic. hahaha Now I just wish i could daydream like this for a good few hours.

I hate thanksgiving. Suuch a useless holiday. All we do is eat, we can do that any day! I don't even like turky. hahaha



And every single year something bad always happens on thanksgiving. One year my cat got hit by a car, then another year we got in a huge family argument. Actually that happened quite a few years. hahaha



Thanks for Giving me stress, asshole. hahaha

Yes thsi is video game related.



It's so much damn fun to be abel to do shit you're just not supposed to be able to do. hahaha Like take on 5 skilled soldiers on your own with nothing but a knife.



I was playing Domination on modern warfare with just a bunch ofrandom people. We had control of point C and were working on point B. Somehow a squad looped around and got point A as well. I learned from expreiance that my team does not know how to coordinate to save their lives so I knew that, while nothing showed up yet, that some enemies got behind us and were working on capturing point C. So, I doubled back around using the trees for cover and sure enough we got the alert that C was being captured. I went around the corner and thsi soldier was standing not 2 feet from me, so he got stabbed. Then this squad of 3 came around the right side of this storage crate and opened fire. I ducked to the leftand flanked around the storage crate, since i'm faster than them i hit them while they were circling it and knifed 2 in the back. The thrid guy started turing toward me so i circled around him and got him in the back. Finally the last guy who was getting into position opened fire on me. I crouched and ducked behind this car, i guess he figured he could shoot through the car because he just As soon as the gun fire stopped i jumped up and sent a throwing knife at him, nailed him in the head. Then i walked over to my knife, picked it up and then, finally, a squad of my own team rushes into the area and just sees me surrounded by all these corpses. hahaha

Sister left so the computer is back where it belongs. hahaha Now I just gotta wait for Kristen to get on and today will be great!

I hate stupid people.....My parrents are probably at the top of that list. Everyone knows I'm under a shit load of stress but they keep pushing, and pushing, and pushing....then they act all suprised when i finally snap on their asses, like they didn't see it comming. Got in an argument with my dad today about freaking brushing my hair after a shower, which i did. However i took a nap like an hour later which messed it up again. He didn't take this into account even though i said it like 3 freakin times. Fucker followed me from my room to the kitchen and from the kitchen to the other side of the house, i was trying to avoid the damn argument but no...he had to keep fucking going. Finally i couldn't take it and threw a 2 leeter bottle of soda at him. Plus side - made me feel better for that moment, bad side - gonna be worked to freakin death over the weekend so all of my weekend plans are more or less fucked. I know I'm at fault here, not saying I'm not but i wish people would fucking think about my situation before they get on me about bull shit. Need a fucking vacation....Oh yeah, nother bad side, my sister who hasn't talked to me for a while came over and instead of having a good time she ends up pissed at both dad and me. hahaha

This is what happens when I have absolutly nithing to do witth my time...I look up crap like this.



My sign is Sagittarius. While I don't take any of it to heart, I do have a lot of the traits described which is kinda funny.



Your element: Fire



Your ruling planets: Jupiter



Symbol: The Archer



Your stone: Turquoise



Life Pursuit: To live the good life



Vibration: Overly expressive - frequent burnouts



Sagittarian's Secret Desire: To make a difference in the world









Description:

Ruled by the benefic planet Jupiter, Sagittarians possess a natural exuberance, sense of adventure and love of life that makes them one of the most optimistic zodiac signs of all. Like their astrological symbol - the Archer - Sagittarians are renowned for aiming their sights towards whatever it is they find alluring - a love partner, dream job, vacation - and making it their own. They believe that anything is possible - and because of this belief system, Sagittarians are adept at seeking out their very own pot of gold at the end of the rainbow.



But sometimes trying to tie down these free-spirited individuals is frustrating for those around them. Sagittarians are happiest on the move - exploring new cultures and ideas and many are attracted to occupations related to travel, the media, outdoor work and philosophical pursuits. In love, their catch-cry is "don't fence me in". But once they find a partner who understands their need to retain their own sense of self and identity, Sagittarians can be the most big-hearted, generous and fun-loving companions of all.



Freedom loving, optimistic and honest, Sagittarians are ruled by Jupiter, the planet of abundance and higher learning. The wisdom of Jupiter imbibes Sagittarians with an inherent need to develop their own unique philosophy of life. The Centaur is their astrological symbol, and it gives many insights into the Sagittarian personality. The higher-evolved Sagittarian learns to integrate the two ends of the Centaur (half-human, half-beast) in order for their arrow (another Sagittarian symbol) of higher aspirations to be more on the mark. Although they are intellectually and spiritually advanced, Sagittarians are notorious for their lack of tact. In relationships they demand independence, but when in love, it can't be denied that they are one of the most big-hearted signs of the zodiac

Just got back the long awaited science term paper and got a 98 A! Would have gotten a 100 but this damn printing error that i couldn't fix screwed that up. Still, I put hardly any effort into that paper at all, spend just a few hours a few nights before it was due working on it and I aced it. I even made shit up. I made shit up, on a college level class and got an A! Damn I'm awsome. Don't mean to brag or...wait yeah i do, fucking awsome!

There was this trophy I got waaayyy back, when I lived in DE. It was at this camp for visionly impaired kids. Anyway, it says I got the trophy for expressing my opinions, but it doesn't say how colorfuly those opinions were expressed. hahaha I was and am still such a freakin smart ass. Love that trophy.

Read this awsome joke on a site called funnyjunk.com. Figured I'd post it, damn it's awsome.



"I just got into an argument with a girl I know. She was annoyed how it's unfair that if a guy fucks a different girl every week, he's a legend, but if a girl fucks just two guys in a year, she's a slut. So in response I told her that if a key opens lots of locks, then it's a master key. But if a lock is opened by lots of keys, then it's a shitty lock. That shut her up."



Fucking awsome joke! The site's full of a bunch of funny crap, forgot about it for like 5 years and it just poped into my head out of no where.

why is it that every day my classes let out eary my ride is supposed to be an hour to two hours late? Freakin sucks!

Damn cut from yesterday opened back up in the shower. Didn't even feel it. It's like "why in the hell is the water red? .... oh....that's why...." Gonna have such a cool scar after this though! It's the same hand i got that mystery cut on a while back so it's gonna look like an X. Such a cool scar for such a stupid reason. hahaha



And who keeps bleach in the freakin bathroom? I had to sit down because of the dizzy thing and saw a galon of bleach tucked in this corner by the toilet. Solves part of that problem. hahaha That's both comforting and ackward at the same time.

today should be a fun day. Gonna take a math test going off of 4 hours of sleep and a little bit of extremely late night studying. It's on probability though and I've always aced probability, so, whatever. Probably should spend the morning studying but instead i'm gonna spend it playing Oblivion. Much better use of my time actually. hahaha Then after the test is finished and i wade through....whatever the hell i'm doing in english i get to come home and hopefully spend some time with my girl! Provided she's not too busy.



oh yeah, my sister's comming down today as well, sometime later on tonight. Shes gonna be disapointed when she finds out GTA4's no longer here. hahaha This also means i'll definetly have to share the pc today so i hope kristen can get onto the xbox over the internet without problems.



I have mixed feelings about today. Something in my gut's telling me not to go to school. Of course not going would result in an automatic 0 on the test so it's not for that reason. Guess i can't really do anything but wait and see how it all plays out. Wish i had more control over shit. I know it's college and all but i hate following other people's scheduels. and i always spell that damned word wrong...

Just went shooting with dad in the backyard. we were using these crappy CO2 pistols but damn he can no aim at all! And he's awving the gun all around while he's talking. Ever hear of gun safety? hahaha



We were using this Mcdonalds cup for target practice, had it on a tree branch about 15-20 feet away. He fired 6 shots and didn't hit the thing at all. He hands me the gun and in the first shot i knocked it off the branch. He's like "no more shooting for you." hahaha



I held the gun wrong though, held it with one hand and didn't tighten up at all. I know CO2 guns don't have any recoil but still, kinda impressive i made the shot. Gonna hold it the right way next time, see how well i do.

Damn i feel embarassed s hell. I was washing dishes, in particular this sharp as hell knife and ended up cutting the palm of my hand because i wa talking to dad and didn't pay attention to which side of the knife i grabbed, until it cut at least. hahaha



For the cut i lost a decent amount of blood, my hand was soaked. hahaha But compaired to my whole body it wasn't much. Still made me dizzy and almost pass out though. I'm fine with seeing other people's blood but when i know it's mine i always get dizzy. Need to bring up my tolerance on that i swear.



Sad part it i can almost taste Dr. Pepper in my blood. hahahaha

Told Kristen I love her, sent her a message anyway. Most people probably think it's too soon but whatever, it's how i feel. just telling her that made me nearly forget all the pain from today's bullshit. Why is it that whenever i leave the house for a day shit hits the fan? Hell today u guess the shit broke the fan because there was a lot of shit! hahaha



She makes it all better though, and she's not even home yet!



Best case scenario - she loves me too

Worst case - she doesn,t.



my gut says she does though so that's good.



on an unrelated note



Anyone who thinks i've "harassed" them in any way could you please send me a message. I don't know who you are or what i did but if i said anything offensive it was not intentional and i would like to apologize.



From what i gathered the harassment and the thing from...what was it...venompen, were two seperate but linked problems. DeirdreL doesn't know anything about the harassment but everyone else knows about the venompen message i supposadly sent.



Since i have no fucking idea what's going on i don't have any proof in my defense, and the revenge thing does give me motive for the venompen shit so it does not look godo for me. hahaha But i didn't do it so, yeah. Glad i didn't send the dog shit liek i was gonna or that'd spring up yet another problem. hahaha



*She read the message and she's still with me! Didn't say she loves me back yet but she didn't get weirded out by it so that's the...second best scenario. hahaha For the moment...life is good...life is vvery very good.

still not sure what's going on but apparently I "did" something to DeirdreL. Here's her and i's conversation. Read it from bottom up.



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Message To: DeirdreL



well everything was fine till today and everything was fine before i went to school yesterday so obviously something fucking up between then and now.



The only, ONLY thing i was thinking of doing was sending you guy a complamentary bag of dog shit, the thought of that alone made me laugh my ass off so i decided that was enough.



And yes i have called you a slut before, hundreds of times, what does that have to do with it?



And no im not calling you, already blocked your number and i'm not saying anything to you that's not documented.



On 21:34:57 Nov 21 2009 (-0 GMT) DeirdreL wrote:



yeah, who said that it was done yesterday or the day before that?

okay, i can't keep typing this shit out, if you want to know call me damn it. i need to go outside for a bit anyway.



On 21:33:37 Nov 21 2009 (-0 GMT) Ocelot wrote:



the 1 good reason is that i didn't do "it". I was at jon's from the time i got off school till an hour ago. I wouldn't even have time to do much of anything. I don't know what the fuck's going on but it's affecting me in the coven and i'm getting hate mail from people i don't even know. Tell me what i "did" so i can at least start getting to the bottom of it.



On 21:30:49 Nov 21 2009 (-0 GMT) DeirdreL wrote:



why should i tell you?

you should know already anyway.

besides...

it's not like my telling you would do anything. it's not like you'd feel bad for it, in fact, i'm surprised you didn't send it to other people.

so what's the point?

give me one good reason as to why and i'll tell and show you.



On 21:28:12 Nov 21 2009 (-0 GMT) Ocelot wrote:



fucking do what!?



On 21:27:38 Nov 21 2009 (-0 GMT) DeirdreL wrote:



i dont assume shit. you'd be the only one mean enough to fucking do it, and you HAVE been calling me a slut quite a bit lately so i KNOW it's you.



On 21:26:17 Nov 21 2009 (-0 GMT) Ocelot wrote:



ok, what in the hell do you assume i did?



On 21:24:02 Nov 21 2009 (-0 GMT) DeirdreL wrote:



yeah, you didn't do shit alright. gods, i know you're pissed off at me but that gives you no right to do what you did.

and no, i'm not pissed at you. i dont fucking hate you. and no matter what the fuck you do i never will.

even now all i want is for you to be happy and you throw shit back into my face and say shit like what you did.

THAT's what I get for being nice



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If anyone knows what the fuck is going on let me know ASAP. Feels like i'm walking into a trap or something.



*ok, finally figured out what's going on. Someone sent DeirdreL a message from a site called "venompen". Gonna check it out now i

guess.



**the site is a fucking joke. Sent a message to myself and it really does say after the message that the site is an anonimous message service. hahaha They really think i'd be dumb enough to do this? It was probably one of my friends who still is talking to me. hahaha i did tell a lot of people about her, some good, some bad but i never called her a "whore" to them. Maybe they decided to do the work for me? whatever the case at least i got something to keep me occupied. *cracks knuckles* time to get to work! hahaha

Spent the night over a friends house playing modern warfare. That was fun! He's pretty damn good at it too, gave me a run for my money. Almost as good with the knife as i am. hahaha



Figures i get home and something goes wrong though. Not sure what but somehow between friday and today i pissed lots of people off. Of course they all happen to be DeirdreL's friends so i'm guessing she's trying to fuck with me again. This is what i get for attempting to be friends with the woman. Should have figured something like this would happen. Waiting for someone to enlighten me as to what's going on but i doubt that'll happen seeing as how they all blocked me. I gotta stop hanging around crazy people.

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DeirdreL
21:11 Nov 21 2009

you try to be friends with me? ummm... yeah, no, i dont keep friends who call me a slut and a whore, saying i earned the slut or whore of the month reward for such.

and they did it on their own accord, they were tired of you insulting them. perhaps if you stop being so fucking snobby to people you'd actually keep friends you have.

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Ocelot
21:17 Nov 21 2009

what in the fuck are you talking about?

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DeirdreL
21:19 Nov 21 2009

dont play stupid matt i know you sent it. you know, i knew you could be cruel and hateful sometimes but this? and you used to say that i didn't know when to stop.

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Ocelot
21:20 Nov 21 2009

can't play stupid when i don't even knwo what the fuck's going on. unblock me so we can talk about this through actual messages. I didn't do shit.

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I heard a very interesting lecture about smoking in science today, thought I'd share it.



The lecture was primaraly geared towards women and stayed away from the fact that smoking is bad for their health since everyone already knows that and most don't care.



Instead the lecture focused on women who want kids. You know how mothers always say they'd do "anything" for their children? Well in most cases that only pretains to when their child is actualy alive. They don't realize that what they do their bodies as kids and teenagers could affect a pregnancy 10, or 20 years in the future.



Think about it, women are born with all the eggs they will use in their lifetime. What keeps these eggs alive in the overy? Blood from the bodie's circulatory system. What happens when you smoke? The chemicals travel into the blood stream and ultimatly affect every cell in the body, including those eggs. It may only be a small, small amount but every cigarete damages the eggs, little by little.



Then, while women are pregnant they usualy stop smoking "when" then find out they're pregnant. That could be 1 or two months after pregnancy started. During that time they could still be smoking and all those chemicals are going straight to the fetus while it's still in the early develepmental stages. If you want a still birthor what ever it's called that's one way to almost guarantee one.



This also goes for drugs and drinking too. People really need to pay more attention to what it is they put into their bodies. Yeah, it's their bodies and all but c'mon, think a little bit. Why kill yourself? Statistics shwo that around 400,000 people die each year from tobaco. That's more than how many people die in a fucking war. Like Nam. Around 70-100,000 people died in Nam and we had hippie protestors marching up and down the street. And what do they do after the march? Smoke! That's real smart isn't it?



Hell, more people die from smoking each year that by homicide. Homicides average is around 20,000. Suicide's around 30,000. Smoking even kills more people than disease does in the US including AIDS. Yet they're popularized all over the place and you're allowed to purchase such deadly chemicals at 18 years of age.



Why is this ok? Why do we have people who are anti war and pro gun control, who smoke? It's horrible and just out and out stupid.



Since most people are too self destructive to give a shit, i doubt this little lecture will do much of anything but if anyone has a thought on it or disagrees with it feel free to comment, i'd love to have a good debate.

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NajiAinila
23:32 Nov 24 2009

The one thing you've got to remember is it is a CHOICE... I choose to poison myself almost hourly. I know it damages me, I know that if I turn up with cancer in a few years, it'll be my own fault.



I'm okay with that. :) You won't hear me bitching if I come up steril or cancerous or dead... well one down, a few billion to go.





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How do you feel about 21 year olds getting alcohol poisoning on a nightly basis?

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Ocelot
03:46 Nov 25 2009

Now that is true. hahaha Drinking's evil too.

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Had a good day today. Nothing really happened school or home wise but I got to talk to Kristen!!! Only for an hour though, then she abruptly had to go but there's always tomorow to talk more. All the bad shit almost seems to go away when i'm talking to her, it's great! Haven't been this happy in such a long time. Still paranoid as fuck but that'll pass with time, hopefully. At leats she doesn't mind it. I'm trying my best to trust her, and so far it's working good. She's given me no reason not to trust her but paranoia can be a bitch. hahaha Hope my brain works tomorow so i can keep the conversation going. Thanks to her i can get a good nights sleep two nights in a row!

I am a fucking ninja! Yes this is video game related. hahaha



Had 3 of the best fucking rounds of call of duty ever! I decided to make my guy a stealth fighter so i got him the perk that makes him sprint non stop, the one that makes him move faster in general which is leveled to max so i get no fall damage as well and the perk that extends my knife range. I combined all that with a SMG weapon for even more speed and i got a throwing knife for my thrown weapon. God it was fucking amazing!!!



The first stage we played on was a cramped village with lots and lots of passages and buildings. Right from the start i sprinted past my team, winded down a few streets and found the enemy moving up. I jumped onto a car, jumped over the first one and hit him in the head with the throwing knife. When i landed i knifed the guy in front of me and ducked into an alley before the others could zone in. I went up the stairs to the second floor of the building, jumped out the window and landed right behind an advancing enemy and knifed him in the back. Then i got in a small fire fight with my SMG and gunned two down with one clip and knifed the 3rd guy as he was approaching. A little while later i ran inside this building where some enemy snipers were picking us off. The first sniper saw me and turned to shoot but he got a throwing knife to the head, then i knifed the second and 3rd sniper while i was running. Best part was one of our snipers saw all though through the scope and was like "what the fuck was that?" Then i jumped out of the window, laneded on a smaller roof and cleared na alley. While i was jumping i sent my throwing knife down and hit a soldier who was running below me. His buddy saw me and started to shoot but i was alreayd on the next roof before he could get a good shot. This sniper saw me and started shooting but i started to zig zag on the bullets and just before i was about to finally get shot one of our snipers plugged him in the head. Looked fucking awsome! AWSOME! Near the end of the match the other team was starting an all out offensive to try and pull out a win. I jumped off a roof into the middle of a crowded street and knifed the one in front of me, then i shot the two behind him, circled a shotgunner and kknifed him in the back and then jumped onto a box, then onto a car, then onto a roof and spinted off and did a falling knife onto the enemy sniper at the back of the street. That sadly wasn't the finishing kill but it was the last one i got.



The second match i was running around the perimiter of the map just stabbing away and using my throwing knife, damn i love that thing!



The 3rd match i switched to my silenced sniper rifle set up which mas a machine pistol because the level was a wide open one with lots of snow and only a few key buildings. From the start i advanced into the building with my pistol and secured it, holding it out from the enemies who were advancing. I was holding out against people with fully automatic rifles, shotguns and grenades with just a rinky-dink pistol. I got our UAV and UAV jammer from that and right awya gave the team a distinct advantage. Then i had to fall back to the other side of the building and prevent the enemy from advancing on that side, a shotgunner finally did me in when i ran out of ammo but my last shot killed him too. The same thing happened again and again with me holding out in that building. The last time through 2 enemies decided to rush me to take me out. i unloaded with my pistol and made them take cover for a few seconds, then i cocked a grenade and when they ran around the corner i threw it. They killed me but the grenade blew up and killed all 3 just after i died.



I dominated that match so freakin bad. I think the score was 26 kills and 6 deaths. something like that. The final score was 7500 - winning score - to only 3200 or somewhere around there. They had no hope of winning. hahaha



Damn it was amazing! Just freakin amazing!



Those displays of domminance nearly made the past few weeks events meaningless. Only thing that reminded me of them was getting on here so i'm considering deleting thsi account because of that. This site ruins my happy. hahaha I at least wanna tell kristen first so i won't be really considering it until she's on so i can let her know. No VR means no temptation to look into that individuals personal life and see how fucking happy they are and no temptation eliminates the anger and no anger means happy! I don't fit in here anyway so there's really no downside to it asside from it being harder ot talk ot Kristen. Although she does have my yahoo but i don't know how often she checks it, i know she's on here when she can though. Wonder if she'll play with me when i go to visit. hmmm, that'd be awsome!

I was playing COD 4 modern warfare 2, with a friend of mine online. We were doing one of the sneaking spec ops missios and this guy is such a show off. He kept killing 2 guys in a row with the sniper rifle and running up to enemies and getting quick knife kills. So, I had to one-up him. There was this squad of 3 hostiles talking in front of us, I told him to stay back and I crept up to them with my silenced pistol. When I was right behind one I stabbed him in the back with the knife and then shot the other two in the head before the first one even fell to the ground. My friend was quiet for a few seconds and then all he said was "asshole". Damn it was priceless!

i need a fucking vacation....

For the past few weeks its been one bad thing after the next. Nearly everything that could go wrong has gone wrong and it just fucking sucks.



Yesterday alone -

Nearly got hit by a car twice crossing the 1 damn street in front of campus because people LOVE to freakin floor it.



Then I come home to find my house broken into and, although the xbox was obviously safe, they took nearly all of my games and the noney i had saved up.



AND to just add insult to emotional injury, the paper i've been working on decided to get currupted so i had to re-write it today.



There was some other shit too but that's personal.



In the last few weeks my life's all but crumbled away. My mother and sister aren't talking to me becuase of family issues, my dad and grandpa think i'm retarded and sure as hell treat me like it. I had to "learn" how to turn on a light switch, open a closet, use a god damn toaster...I'm fucking blind not retarded!



I can't seem to get my head on straight with college so my grades are starting to slip. And everyone who knows the shit i've been through is still presuring me about my grades. I KNOW they're slipping, I'm the one doing the work, shut the fuck up!



And of course the big one that started this massive cluster fuck chain reaction is the realization that i wasted 2 years of my life. Don't know how many times i had to shake suicide from my head. Every passing day the sleeping pills look more and more appealing. I just need the world to stop for a day so i can have a fucking break. Of course that's impossible but fuck if i care.



Been in fucking horrible physical, emotional and mental pain for nearly a month now. It's what i get for trusting someone i guess. No matter who they are, you let someone get too close to you and they'll fuck you over. Wether it be friends, family members or lovers, once you let them into your shell they'll stop at nothing to cut you up. I'm never trusting someone that much again that's for damn sure. I heard a great saying from the modern warfare game "you have to trust someone for them to betray you" fucking right. From now on i'm treating everyone as the enemy. Gonna have a file on all of my new friends and business workers so i know exactly what i'm dealing with snd what to expect. Kristen and all of my current friends are excluded from that, just don't make me regreat it.



Speaking of Kristen, she's the only reason i'm sane right now. Everything around me is turning to shit but i found her. She's helped me a hell of a lot and I'm really greatful for it. I'm also scared shitless that she's gonna leave because of all the shit but i'm hoping that's just paranoia.



I can act like everything's fine in public, i've gotten good at that but when i'm alone i'm a depressed mess Wished i was fucking dead countless times....just need a fucking break. Don't have motivation for shit anymore.



I get to sit here and suffer while a certan individual is having the time of their life. That's fucking fair. After all the work I did...should have just left that trash in the dumpster where it belonged....glad they're way away though or i'd be going to jail for murder. And yes jail would be worth it. I hate said individual more than i hate anyone. Even took my precous gift away from me...the bastard......here comes the chest pains from hell....never fails.



I need to start taking up drinking or smoking or something. Yes its against my morals but what have my morals doen for me? made me miserable? My morals are what led me ot that 2 year mistake. I want to let my morals go but i can't bring myself to do it, damn logical thinking. Emotional thinkers are fucking stupid but i admire their happyness. Guess that's the trade off for intelligence.



I won't stay miserable forever though. Sooner or later that individual's little fantasy world will come crashing down and I'll just get to laugh and laugh. It's called karma, and karma's a fucking bitch. They'll get what's comming to them eventually, just wish it happened sooner rather than later.

Finished the game on the hardets difficulty. So, i got it on saturday and by monday night at exactly 2130, beat the game on the second hardest and the hardest difficulties. And i got all of the dumb killing acheivements on the way, now all i gotta do is hunt down the intel stuff and ace the spec ops missions and I'll of mastered the game just like I did the first one. Only thing that would make this day any better is if Kristen were to get on.



Life is good.....actually life sucks but at least the second half of the day was good. First half though.....i'd rather die then go through that again.

Class let out early! Sucky thing is my ride isn't gonna be here for another 2 freakin hours! I may not fit in here at all bt that doesn't stop this site from ebeing a damn good distraction and time killer So, now's time ot write whatever the hell comes to my head.



I got an A on a paper I wrote about a dream I had. Thank you silent Hill for giving me very interesting nightmares!



I don't know what they're doing but the writers for Family Guy are doing fucking great this season! I all but cried with the Arabian alarm clock in the last episode. Fucking priceless! Time hit 7:00, arab voice comes over the speaker and then BOOM, house blows up! hahaha One hell of a wake up call.



I'm playing modern warfare 2 over again, on the "hardest" difficulty this time. It actually asks if you're sure when you select the difficulty And it asks again even after that! hahaha It's not even that much harder than Hardened. The enemies can coordinate a little better and you take one or two less shots before you die but other than that, no differance. I'm actually finding a lot of the bonus stoff in the levels though, since i have to take different flanking positions in some areas so that's a plus! One thing that makes this game easy though is the enemies aren't grenade happy. In the last one and especially in World at War you're playing hot potato with live FRAG grenades in every single fight. In this one a grenade rolls your way every so often. AND, unlike the others they don't throw multiple grenades at once. I remember in World at War when like, 6 FRAGs fell around me in a circle. No where to run there. hahaha



I got to the mission where you're taking the Russian oil rigg before calling it a night. Gonna beat the rest of it today probably.



Doing better at the online aspect too. Got my scope! For all of my guns too! Damn iron sights are so freakin distracting I got a silencer for my sniper rifle too so now I'm stealthy, at leats until the enemy gets their AC-130, then I'm dead. Alone with like 10 others hahaha I'm still a god when it comes to sniping. Shot 3 people in the head while they ran through smoke grenades, and it wasn't a guess shot either, I timed it perfectly. There was one blind luck shot though that made me look awsome but i didn't mean for it to happen. I was trailing this one guy while we was running, he ran behind this small building before i could take the shot. I moved the scope to the other end of the building and just because i wanted to shoot, i fired a round just as the same guy was comming around the corner and hit him right between the eyes



I got a scope on my automatic pistol too, I swear I use that more than my rifle.



I wish they had the zombie thing from WAW on here too, I loved that! Spec ops is cool and all but I WANT ZOMBIES!



I'm apparently getting a PS3 for my birthday Only gonna play 2 games on it though. Metal Gear 4 and the Romance of the three kingdoms 8 game when/if i find another copy. That game is fucking old but fucking awsome!



Non video game related stuff now. hahaha



My friend and I were talking about the 2012 thing yesterday We came to the conclusion that if it happened, I'd either die in the first 5 minuets or be one of the last few alive, so great! If its as severe as people thing I'd probably die in the first 5 minuets hahaha I mean, who the hell can outlive a massive flood, massive hurricanes and volcanic activity all at once? If it happened one after the other I' have a good shot I think but not all at once.



I could probably survive a flood, even a massive one just because I'm determind when it comes to water. hahaha Hate the thought o drowning so I'll do everything I fucking can to stay afloat.

What will probably happen is i'll be smacked against a building and the preasure from the water alone with the surface of the building will keep me pinned in place under the water, but since i haven't actually expreianced that, I won't throw out the possability i could swim up. I'm like a fish in the water so that'll help



As for volcanic activity...I can run fast. hahaha And I can jump so that might possably help that.



The hurricanes would probably be the one to get me I'm fucking light as hell so now even a relativly strong breeze pushes me back. hahaha The wind from something lke that will suck me in no problem. I guess i'd have to hope my luck isn't on vacation then right? hahaha



I wanna see that 2012 movie hahaha I don't honestly believe the world's gonna end but it looks cool all the same. And those areas with the collapsing cities - scavenger's paradise! ruined buildings, nearly a completley changed landscape. Never know what you could find intact. I'd be in heaven there. hahaha



Damn it now i got nothing to talk about hahaha, i guess i could always sleep Hope Kristen actually gets on today! That would be nice.

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DeirdreL
19:26 Nov 17 2009

he added you last night...

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I got and dominated the modern warfare 2 game today. Best fucking war game i've ever played! It's more of a special opperations type of game, where as the first one was more foot soldier, infantry type of war game. Beat it on the second hardest difficulty so tomorow i'm gonna start it on the hardest, should be fun!



I suck at the online though, and I'll continue sucking until I can get a scope so i can actually see the enemy team. Of course that's gonna take forever since I only average 1-3 kills and like 5-15 deaths per match. hahaha I don't see how people can see as far as they do! I mean damn! If it wasn't for the "you are here" arrow on the kill cam i can't even see me yet the one who kills me is able to nail me in the head, lucky bastard. Once I can get a scope for my rifle I'll have a much better shot at taking these guys down, hopefully that'll happen sooner rather than later. A relativly good friend of mine, Eliwood )no not his real name) is gonna get the game in December so that'll be fun. I'll actually have someone to play with who isnt freakin 12 years old. I gotta give the 12 year old sharpshooters osme credit though, damn. hahaha



On a different note, Kristen's either been insanely busy as of late ro something happened to her PC because she hasn't been on in like 2 days. hahaha Hope she comes on tonight, that's the only reason I'm still up, otherwise i'd of gone to sleep an hour ago.

Sensitivity training.....no fucking thank you.

Ghosts are freakin awsome! Scary, yes. But awsome!



This happened not even 5 minuets ago. I'm home alone in the house for the night and as much fun as i'm having with the place to myself, it's quiet. I went out to the kitchen to get a glass of milk and to dump my can of "Check Strawbery soda" down the drain because it tasted like bad medicine. There's this chair in the living room, which you can see from the kitchen that faces the TV. It's one of those chairs that is on a revolving spring so it can spin in place and is comfy as hell. Anyway, for the hell of it i said "if there are actually any ghosts here, feel free to fuck with me because i'm bored out of my mind." I turned toward the fridge, got the jug of milk out, and when i turned to the cup the chair was facing me, not the TV. I was tense as hell pouring my drink and didn't take my eyes off the chair until i put the cup down. hahaha



That freakin made my day. hahaha I love this house.



*now the freaking bathroom door decides to shut on its own. They're really taken me up on my request aren't they? Making me feel slightly uneasy actually. Just glad there are no dolls in this house or i'd go get a knife.



*for anyone who's already read this i hate when i change words around without realising it...i fixed the typ-o but not after laughing for a good 10 minuets.

No idea what it'll be but i'm getting one. Probably either gonna be Modern Warfare 2 or Left 4 Dead 2. Hopefully they'll be there. If not I guess i'll replace the game a specific SOB broke, damn thing's rare though so hopefully that works. Either way i'm selling that dragon rising piece O' shit.

Haven't gotten one of these in about a year. Just hit me out of the blue while i was playing Fallout 3. Normaly they go away after a minuet or so but this one is a persistant little SOB, been cramped up for 10 minuets. I've tried massaging the foot, walking it out, jogging it out and just saying "fuck it" and dealing with it. hahaha So far the last option is working well. I swear i'm gonna have artherites at every join in my body because every time i move a joint cracks, like when you crack a knuckle. I'm walking bubble wrap and it is awsome! For now at least, i'm sure the humor aspect of it will go away when i'm in constant pain but until then walking bubble wrap is awsome!



I feel like i'm 60 when i'm 18. hahaha I need to bend more or less or something. hahaha Why is pain so damn funny? I mean, as long as someone's not being killed (although i'd bet money that murder would make quite a few people on this site laugh) it's funny. I'm even laughing at it and i'm the one in pain. Yay for slapstick comedy!!! Hell, yay for all comedy in general.

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Oceanne
05:19 Nov 14 2009

That is a classic sign of being dehydrated.Try drinking some water and waiting about 12 hours.



You might also try some electrolytes.If it doesnt help consider a DR. visit if it continues.



Sounds like you might be able to use some glucosomine too...but again,talkto your md about it.

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DeirdreL
19:28 Nov 17 2009

she's right Matt, listen to her.

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I gotta thank my science rofessor for showing the class this show. It's fucking awsome! Where was I when this show first came out? I need to get out more, damn.



They have practically the same views on the things I do. They're against PETA, think bottled water is stupid, support neuclear power. Damn what ese? Freakin love this show! hahaha Gotta find one supporting stem cell research and that'll make my damn day.



I wish there were more smart people out there. But if there were that means there would be less for this show, and myself ot make fun of. hahaha



I just wish stupid people would have less of a voice. They sure as hell don't know how to use it. Stupid global warming alarmist, anti war fodder.



Global warming link.....fuckin' hippies - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ONd-Yk48R8E&feature=related



Anti Blind Patriotism link - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fl0DBmFLlfk&feature=related

Been playing dead frontier a lot as of late and I got a machete hahaha I love that thing. Been running around hacking shit up for hours and it is freakin' awsome!



Has anyone ever played the game Team Fortress 2? If so, you know the heavy gunner and his saying "Good times!!!" Well.....







That's been me for the past few hours with my machete.



GOOD TIMES!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahaha

Thank you military vets for giving everyone a dya off tomorow! hahaha Sorry for that being slightly disrespectful but...yeah.



I got tomorow off and my girl's weekend starts tonight so we hopefully can stay up way late talking again! She better not be too tired. hahaha I kinda lost my good mood when i got a message from a specific person who i no longer wish to associate with but i'm confident that tonight is gonna put me back into one hell of a good mood! Provided i didn't weird her out with the question i asked today. hahaha Gotta cross my fingers on that one.



Can't wait for tonight!

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19:29 Nov 17 2009

have fun

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I finally, finally got around to writig my paper. Finished the intro paragraph and went on to analyze the advertisements i need for the paper. I needed to look over the videos again so i know how to organize the rest of my paper but what do i get? I get "an error has occurred. Please try again later". Thanks a whole fuckin' lot youtube! You work fine until i frigin need you. hahaha And what are the odds of that happening to both videos that i need? Someone's targeting military ads i swear.

Why is it that whenever a major assignment is due all the good frigin TV shows come on? It's just not fair! I guess this is why they invented the recording programs thing. hahaha



Who in their right mind is gonna pick doing a report over law and order or NCIS, or even family guy or and Daily Show? Good thing I'm actually gonna be on campus tomorow with no TV access because i'm not gonna get any work done here. hahaha

Haven't got much of a chance to talk to my girl today, we got ot talk for about 30 minuets but that was it for now at least. She's sick and it's making her really, really tired so she keeps falling asleep. I really wanna talk to her but the falling asleep is still cute! Wish she'd wake up though but at the same time she needs her sleep so it's all good.

I got to talking to my mom and sister about what we remember from when we lived in Delaware some, 8 years ago. They made me remember this one day at my mom's work, when she worked at a bank called First USA, I think it got bought out by now but that was the name of it back then. They had this dyacare for the workers children called the Eagle's Nest. My sister and I used ot go there and help them watch the kids since we were both way too mature for our own age. There was this one little girl, i wanna say she was 4 years old. She was just sitting off to the side playing with these building blocks by herself while the other kids went around coloring and watching TV and all the stuff kids like to do. I decided to go and play with her, we were building stupid stuff with the building blocks for around 20 minuets and then it was nap time for all the younger kids. Later in the day, when my mom, my sister and I were walking to the car in the parking garage the girl, who was on the opposite end of the garage with her dad, sprinted over to me and huged me. Her dad was just standing there confused. hahaha So was my mom and sister come to think of it. Then i walked her back to her dad and everyone was laughing on the car ride home. It's kinda funny, I'm utterly horrible with interacting with most people my age but i'm great with interacting with adults and little kids. hahaha

Today my dad was the one to drive me home from the college campus but on the way he stopped at a store i didn't recagnize, mainly because i don't pay attention. I asked why we stopped here and he says "to get my perscription." He walks inside and I'm thinking its something for his high blood presure. But a few minuets later he comes back into the car with a 12 pack of bud light and he's like "I got my perscription!" hahaha perscription medicne for a long day i suppose. hahaha

We got ot talk for a long while yesterday. Around 5 hours, not all at once but throughout the day. She is amazing! Her and I have the same morals and views on a hell of a lot of things. We think like 90% alike. We're interested in different things which is always good but we think alike so it's eays to talk about the things we do and like. I even got her into the "hahaha" laughing which is cute as hell! She's also into trying new things and isn't offended or taken aback by my thoughts and questions, and i've asked her a lot of weird things. hahaha I feel really at ease around her. And as this journal shows i love braging about her! She even agrees with my learning sytel. NO ONE agrees with my learning style os that in itself is amazing! It's funn too, two people with almost the exact same views on opposite sides of the country. That's how it always works doesn't it? hahaha Can't wait to talk to her again today. Looking forward to it so much!



I'm glad she's happy too. Her and I've been through similar relationship expreiances and i know what it can do to one's mind and body, so to see her happy gives me a nice feeling. I'm more than happy to help her out whenever I can, it's the least I can do for a gem like her.

I woke up about 20 minuets ago to find the whole house empty. All the lights are off and both cars are in the driveway but no one's home and they're not at the friend nrxt dootr. hahaha I've been half expecting something to jump out at me, still kinda am. Not sure if this is one of my vivid dreams or not. hahaha This would be osme dream wouldn't it? typing a VR journal....scary!



Bring out the monsters already i wanna stab something! hahahaha dream or not this soda tastes damn good so whatever.

A paranoid friend of mine insists on lecturing me about appropriate time managment. Apparently I'm supposed to spend my college down time "studying" ...what ever that is. hahaha He's been sitting here reading his psychology book, his...what ever an SLS book is and a math book while i've been playing computer games and leaving a few messages for my girl to read. He's smart, I'll give him that but i'd rather spend my down time having fun than cramming a bunch of useless knowledge into my head. See, i have a special way i study. It's called learning it before you leave class. If you know it and just mentaly review yourself every now and then you're good. Never even need to open a bok. hahaha And even when you need to open a book you don't gotta read everything, just a few lines really. I may not have all 100% in my classes but he doesn't either. I got As and i hardly put out any effort. It's just what i do. hahaha

I haven't felt this happy in a long while. Kristen and I only got to talk or like, an hour and a half but it was a very good conversation. We can talk about anything, no matter how random, and it's great!



I was actually so happy i started humming to myself at random, which i haven't done in forever. Kinda creeped me out a little actually. hahaha



I'm so glad i can relax. I've been tensed up for so damn long and this just feels great! We're really accepting of each other and i honestly don't think there's anything we could say that would weird the other out. hahaha



And she's happy too, which makes it even better! Made her blush again and that's so damn cute!



Can't wait to talk to her more today!

One of the most relaxing songs i've heard.



https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AgqyRRpRgJU

Yay zombies!!!



I haven't actually got to see it yet but my sister told me about it yesterday and now I NEED to see it. Since there's no movie theater arouund here i was trying to hold out until it came out on DVD but now, thanks to my sister i've been looking all over the damned internet for the movie.



Just got doen taking an hour long "quick" servey to see it and all i got from it was a virus!



Then after that i found a bootleg version and of course...the quality sucks. hahaha I just can't win.

I had a good night last night. Kristen and I stayed up late talking about..anything really. Whatever came to our heads. It was fun! Hope we still get to talk a lot tonight. I really enjoy talking with her. She was starting to fall asleep at the pc though which was cute!!! Think i might be able to get her into Devil May Cry too which would be awsome! I made her bluch too, wich was so cute!!!



Wonder what we'll talk about tonight? hmmm....

I've been kinda amused with DeirdreL's journals as of late because they've went from just random journals into a bash Matt session. hahahaha

Do they really have that much time on their hands? They're b;aming me for shit i'm not even there to do. How is it my fault you almost lost your virginity to a man whore? I didn't put him up to it. hahaha Women i swear. And good greif, my anger was as much her fault as it was mine. The BDSM lifestyle she was trying to get me into was the cause, i warned her it'd go to my head and you can be damn sure it did. hahaha This will be the last time i ever mention jessie by the way. It's not fair to Kristen that that fodder is even in my thoughts, even if i'm just laughing at her expense. hahaha



*It's one thing to insult me but do NOT insult my girl. Now who's the one acting like a child? I moved on, so should you. Not get your bitch to cause more trouble. Leave her and I alone.

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I'm glad Kristen isn't into that shit. No Master, no slave, just a man and a woman enjoying eachothers company. What more could I ask for? We haven't had too, too much time to spend together so far but i'm staying up extra late tomorow night so we can talk and hang out. It's fun to make her laugh. Her eyes light up too when she's happy so i'm gonna see if i can turn those bright blue eyes into flood lights! hahaha She's out for halloween tonight though, wish her sister i think. I got to see her costume and she looks so cute in it! Great figure too. Kinda wanna go out for halloween but we got like, 1 kid in this retierment development so that's gonna be kinda, no, really dull.



Here's my girl in her halloween costume!







Her and I are a lot alike too! It feels kinda too soon to sya but almost twins. hahaha She's got blue eyes and dirty blond hair like i do, although she dyed it red. Normally I'm not big on hair dye but it looks damn good on here. We have practically the same moral standards too so i feel i can trust her already. No paranoia so far!



I'm really happy i met her. I hope our relationship lasts for a very, very long time! I think i spelled everything right when talking about her too, so, great! hahaha

ok yeah, i'm done. After watching my squad AI get mowed down like 20 times by enemy fire and only firing back a few fewtile shorts i gave up. Managed to beat the 1st level FINALLY and was given a sniper rifle for the second level and kicked ass with that for a while, that part was fun. Then we got in this potentally eays fire fight and the AI decided to just crap out. People said this game was good, online maybe with players but the AI is apparently piss poor. Gonna save up for one of the many sequal games that are comming out in the upcomming months.