to samantha
22:41 Sep 13 2011
Times Read: 411
Me on the left and you on the right
the way we laid our bodies the start of the night.
My head on two pillows as yours lay on one
tired from the day and all we had done.
One arm under pillow, the other kept you warm
I'd pull you in close during thunder and storm.
I still remember the sweet scent of your hair
As we closed our eyes and I held you for prayer.
The rise and fall of breath from your chest
would remind me of that day that God had blessed.
Your face would go soft and lips would yawn
You'd fall asleep with the television still on.
Middle of the night your house stayed warm
The fan on high was always the norm.
I'd stolen the blanket and kicked down the sheet
The only pillow you had now lay at your feet.
Sometimes I'd wake while there you still lay
I'd creep to your bedside and kneel as to pray.
I would lean in close as if to steal a kiss
These moments of affection are the ones that I miss.
I’d sit and watch while you lay there and snore
I’d sometimes fall asleep with my head on the floor.
You always thought you slept without peep
Instead of counting them you baa’d like a sheep.
Your body lay still ‘cept for the rise and fall
Of your beautiful body that lay there in sprawl.
But the most memorable part of those sleepless nights
Wasn’t the snoring, the prayer or absence of lights-
It was the way in which your eyes would flicker
Beneath lid and lash I would try not to snicker.
To me it was funny to just watch them move
As if they were dancers stepping to groove.
I could only guess what your mind would dream
Maybe thoughts of our future and how it would seem.
Would it be an uphill battle, a test for all time?,
Or simply steps in a stairwell that together we’d climb.
Most of the mornings you’d wake with a smile
And some you slept in for at least a little while.
But now these memories are just written in line
And filed in a cabinet in the back of my mind.
Memory of you sleeping, snoring, eyes wide shut
Now my heart beating, bleeding, crimson and cut.
Your eyelids would flutter as your eyes would dance
And I’d pray to God to just give me the chance-
To fix what I'd done and to right the wrong
Of the poor choices that I'd hidden for oh so long.
These are the thoughts I now remember the most
the memories in my heart I still hold so close.
Times I sat by your side as night was still grey
All through the morning before dark turned to day.
I’d ask Him to bless this love I’d forsaken
Taken for granted and stole for the taking.
Unfortunately I received a different kind of answer
but you will always remain my eyelid dancer
samantha
22:34 Sep 13 2011
Times Read: 413
You brought me sunshine,
when I only saw rain.
You brought me laughter,
when I only felt pain.
Romantics at heart?
Love at first sight?
Have I known you before?
God! This feels so right!
Have I met you before?
Another time, another place?
If it's only one night,
will it bring us disgrace?
What are these feelings?
Must they be temporary?
Just to make you happy,
seems so necessary.
I want you to know,
cause I'll never forget~
knowing your smile~
your kisses~ and yet~
Dreams are something,
that can't always come true,
nothing more we can say,
nothing more we can do
love or lust
01:48 Sep 10 2011
Times Read: 423
I am your princess,
but I'm treated like a slave,
threatened and oppressed,
when i fail to behave...
I am no child,
or maybe i am,
I hate the claim
of you being a man...
when your hurtful words
lash out at me,
you're simply coward
as far as i can see...
please don't say you love me,
for lying God detests,
So for once be honest,
though a skill, not your best...
Why have I fallen for you,
when you just stand above?
As if this was ever true,
you defame the name of love...
I love you so much,
sadly mines is real,
that i long for your touch
and i somehow sense your feel...
SEX is always primary,
but why cant you love me
just a bit more,
so at least Ill feel you have
something to love for...
Id give you anything,
my heart body and mind,
but your impatience ousts out,
" just a matter of time"...
I don't want it cant you see,
I'm not ready to let go,
for my virginity,
is all i have to show...
I stayed a victim for so long,
molestation in my corner
singing the midnight song,
though I struggled as a mourner...
I chose to stay strong,
If there is one thing i owe,
that is to myself,
and if your hearts
feeling is to show,
then you've already left...
Its a crying shame,
that you cant wait,
so why do you complain,
Its never too late...
I promised it to you,
but dear I've lied,
for the love i had so true,
Is slowly dying...
Just stop saying you love me,
Sex is what you want,
Arrayed by my beauty,
Its the pride I have to show...
Since seven i have promised,
the next man to
touch would love,
and Ive swore To attain this,
Purity of a dove...
Your love is so tainted,
guided by your penis,
So fixed on taking,
A determined girls innocence...
Are your "I love you's"
a guarantee,
that you will always care,
and standby me?
What have you gave me
beyond the lies?
The cheating and insults?
maybe, the nights i cried?
What about the emotion i felt,
when you said it was just drama,
or the cards i Was dealt,
from your surprise baby momma!
But i stayed by your side,
though trust had been severed,
by the rules I'd abide,
but you rare to never...
Is that a threat to leave,
If i don't give you sex,
well.......
whats holding you up?...
Other than my tears?...
Why???
01:39 Sep 06 2011
Times Read: 436
I was so comfortable
thought I could tell you
anything, but that one
day at your house
playing in the
slip-n-slide in my
swim suit. my cousins
were there, yet they
had no clue,
when we were playing hide-n-seek,
you grabbed me, threw
me on the bed
and did things
when I told you
no,
a couple years
pass and the trust
is still gone, nothing
will ever be the
same, one day at
your house, you're
drunk off your
ass and you promise
me you won't touch
me again,
yet two weeks later your
teaching me how to drive
and you break your
promise, you're
the reason I'm not
comfortable around
guys,
the reason
I'm scared of the
Dr's the reason
I don't trust
anybody
the reason I can't
be myself anymore!
I blame you!!!
I was young and
didn't know any
better,
yet you still
took advantage of
me, I just want
to know why, but
you won't tell me!!!!!!!!!
i'll play22:38 Sep 05 2011
Times Read: 447
The queen of the damned is rising,
Rising from the pits of hell.
Taking souls by the dozen,
And coming for mine as well.
... She stands as a vision of beauty,
That no man can deny.
And offers to easy my burden,
But the price for my soul is high.
She says she will take ten others,
Down instead of me.
Ten mortal men their live be gone,
To let my damned soul be.
And if I were to take her offer,
I’ll have a year and a day
There lives, my soul what choice I have,
But to start the game, “I’ll Play”
I bow in supplication
And accept the task given me.
And start about my business
With a little bit of glee.
The first three kills are easy,
Because I pick three men I hate.
My father my brother and my uncle
,revenge as well
Now that’s what I call fate.
A girl a man and two women too,
My score is racking up
Seven down, three more to go
And that’s where I get stuck.
... So the queen sends be a helper,
Her Faithful servant K,
She’s not really there to help me,
Just to make sure I don’t stray.
So I carry on with business,
With the gorgeous lady K,
She lures them in, I finishes them off.
I do four in one day.
And as the time progresses,
I slowly come to know.
That ten has turned to a hundred.
And we still have more to go.
So now I end my story,
it been so many years
The deaths there were so many,
For the queen is hard to please.
But when the day is over,
I have to say to thee,
My service to the Queen of death.
I performed quite merrily.
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