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Ya i haven't writen in a while but ive been in a "writing" mood. As in my stories of course. I never really write like this *_* gets dull fast you know? And i repeat crap like that a lot.

I don't really know what to say exsept that I am exsited to go on some field trips. In my Spanish class we are going to some missions that have a few scary stories to but really their missions *_* cool or what? And then another one in English to a Houlacoust muesum in Huston.

Which reminds me our English TACKS test is next week DY we had to take some like field test one a few weeks ago so i'm pretty pissed about this damn test. I had a pretty fucking cool story in there too. My promt was on fear so i went to town on that hoe Y) I've got to seriously pray that i get a prompt that good to write about for this real test.

Anyways i need to get back to aranging my books and writing. I don't even care about my crappy spelling and stuff this time YD no one comments so who cares?

Ya got a LOT of books cause they were giving old ones away at the school library. I love old books theres no cliches with supernatural stuff like there is today. Like seriously Stephenie writes an awesome book then everyone else thinks they could be the next Twilight. Nooooo people the awesomeness only works once so cut the crap with these cyntamental vampires. All vampire teen books now SUCK i swear so f-ing pradictable i can read the summary and know the book without speed reading or anything. Jeez...

So upon logging onto the site i saw a banner for vampirewebsite.net so i went on of course I'm a computer nerd I can't help myself. I didn't think i was going to find like a check list for the are you a vampire thing there.

And you know people get hopes up when their are similarities all that stuff. I wont easily fall for things and its hard for me to believe someone is a vampire because truly its important to me. But I'll have to say after reading the list and looking over the forums and stuff; It's really believable. They aren’t putting up a front they ask real questions. I mean seems good to me; Feel right to me.

Of course I was hoping I’d match that list 100% but I'm not afraid to admit that i don't. YD I don't think I'm a vampire. I have hardly any of the traits that they list, but its ok I'm not going to get angry and say they are wrong. I'm not like that. It was very interesting to finally find something to set my mind straight from looking for such a list for a few weeks. I mean id always hoped but you know how that goes. I don't know why I’ve always been attracted to the vampire personas and all that but i have been.

Me and my love do have a distinct feeling that we aren’t just human. And i think that if i had the opportunity that i would do great with physic abilities, but ya I'm not an expert on things. I'm not sure if I’ll ever know about myself. Honestly I'm starting to think that its all just wishful thinking. Yet I'm sure I'll always have hope.

I hope i don't offend anyone with this or anything like that. Just want some comments on what your beliefs are and anything like that.

So today at lunch I had a scary experience. I had just sat down across from my friend, Daniel, and I was definitely starving at that point; so I grabbed a fry and ate it. Ok great and all right who cares? Ya that’s what i thought so i ate another one. And I'd felt it in my throat that happens sometimes but I didnt think it was a big deal. Well it starts going down slower and slower and then it turns into a pain. By that point I'm holding onto my head down my other hand clenched from the pain and Daniel just stops eating and stares at me. The fries are still moving, i swear to you they went down And up, and I'm in horrible pain from my chest. I wasn’t sure if i was going to throw up, or if it was the fries, if i hadn’t eaten them correctly, idk. But I'm holding onto my mouth and Daniel starts asking questions. "Are you ok? You ganna throw up? Are you crying?" This is really annoying and sooo not helping the pain so i manage to choke out something about the fries. He handed me his strawberry milk and i thought of puking then because i Hate milk. I pushed it back and held my head again until it finally went away.

I waited a bit longer to eat but i was ok after that. Heh i even ate the fries too without any trouble. It was very weird and i hope it doesn’t happen again but I'm sooooo going to wary of eating fries.



And now i'm upset because apparently i had told my bf that i didnt want to walk home with him. And i have no idea why i would say that. I dont remember saying it at all but he swears i did. I mean this morning i had been thinking about it but his friends said something about meeting him somewhere so i decided not to ask him. I mean it was good weather I knew the sun was going to come out to heat the cool winds up. And i really wanted to talk to him. We hardly get time alone and I wanted to be outside for a while. I wanted to ask him about some books because he never talks about books unless you ask him. We had a good time watching The Lighting Thief because we read the books a long time ago. I mean i dont understand why i would say that. Id been looking forward to it all day. In fact in 7th period i was happy when i saw that my ipod was dying. Sometimes i get to embarrassed or nervous to ask him things and the damn ipod ruins it.

Agh im so upset about it... I hope he wont read this till a few days or something because he i cant tell im probably just making him more agitated by talking to him about it. I'm giving up on it i dont think he believes me anyway. But i doubt even if we did make each other feel better about it I would still be in a depressed mood. *sigh I really wanted to write today too but there's no way i'll ask or even say yes right now. I don't even want to read. Id probably go to sleep but i want to talk to him.

Gr he keeps asking what I'm thinking. All I'm thinking about is that i said that i didnt want to walk with him. That's all ive been thinking about since he told me. Agh no more i'm so done with the journal right now.

I hate being sick, but lately my head has been suffering more than usual. Usually i just get dizzy when i get up fast and all that mess; but now its even when I'm laying down my head will start to swim. And I swear I sure do move around a lot in my sleep cause I'll wake up with cuts in my mouth from biting on my lips. -_- Its not fun having blisters all in your mouth cause its a bitch to eat. And damn it freaking hurts putting vitamin C on them. It BURNS! The cold doesnt help cause I bite down on my teeth when I'm awake because I hate cold weather. The sun helps when its out but unfoutunatly the cloud hide it often. On top of it being cold; right when I come to school the library is closed. The past two days its been closed and it pisses me off. -_- That is like my place to be. Books. Its warm. Did I mention books? YD ya I've been in that library like a hundred times, but I could go in a hundred more times and still find something to look at. YD its something about books that my attention never fades from.

Speaking of which I'm writing right now so i can't focus on this and write to great. YD

So today at school everyone gave out their Valentine’s Stuff. Therefore as I had been planning all week; I baked all yesterday night. No lie till 11. My main goal was to make a totally kickass werewolf themed cake for my beloved, and I did. It probably spent 3 hours on it alone. I had a circle cake so I covered the top of it with white icing so it could somewhat look like a moon. And I molded (very smart of me; bought) Rice Crispies for ears and a very cute tale. I covered those with of course chocolate icing. When i was finally done with all the icing and molding and mixing and all that nonsense, I had wanted to make eyes that spelled out LOVE. Didn’t go so well but eh it was ok. Then I wanted to make the mouth say BITES that looked better. But still to me it would have been damn cute without the writing...

So while I'm icing and writing on my cupcakes. (They are just the cutest because I put bite marks into them and made blood with red icing then on top of that awesomeness I wrote 'Love Sucks' hehe) My parents decide to get into it. Like yelling and bitching at one another. It’s my mother and my step-dad; all my other brothers and sister are from him, Therefore I am the 'outsider' of the family. Well anyways my mother was trying to get some bill stuff done on the computer which is in the living room were the boys sleep on the floor and are currently watching TV. She had come the kitchen real quick to get something out of her purse. The youngest child, Aaron, had been asking for some milk. My mother told him to wait a second as always. My head was already hurting at that point because I have allergies and it had been raining very cold water all day, and I had been baking of course, So I didn’t offer to get up. When she sat back at the computer he asked her again, she then made a comment to my dad about him getting it.

So he proceeds to yell "You were just in the fucking kitchen, why didn’t you get it?!” from his spot on the couch right by the computer. The boys were right there by him. (I have no idea why he was in the damn living room anyway) So he storms to the kitchen where I am already pissed but I never say a thing. (I have issues with talking at times.) So I continue to fix up my cupcakes while he's in the sink throwing things around to find a Sippy cup for Aaron. Still bitching about shit my mother comes to the kitchen to bitch closer to him blah blah and finally they decide on a cup. I really don't care for either my mother or my dad. But I know I’ll always be attached to my mother. Still I know she just draws things on and on and on. BUT my dad is plainly putting it, a dumbass.

So yes I had to hurry up and finish before they could target me or something. After that my head was pounding so much I thought I was ganna bleed from the ears. So I didn’t get on last night cause I knew the screen would give me an even bigger headache.

But today was good. My cupcakes and cake were awesome. ^^ And he likes to give me expensive things (which bothers me cause I'm a cheap person YD) but he doesn’t start work till 2mrw. So instead he got me a teddy bear, a heart shaped Ringpop, chocolate with a key on it that said 'you hold the key to my heart', (I love keys because of Kingdom Hearts, I’m very found of them) And a orange and red lollipop that matched our shirts. Today was dress up as your favorite of famous couple. And since The Lighting Thief was coming out today I wanted us to dress up as Annabeth and Percy. (I wanted to go to the midnight showing dressed like that too but we didn’t go) So we both had matching bright orange Camp Half-Blood shirts on. Of course though since it was cold I HAD to wear a jacket. So my overcoat covered it up most of the day.

And now I'm at home writing this with the TV blaring MTV Hits, my head is pounding again also, and I'm starving. Though I don't believe we have any food. The rest of the kids go to their 'Nana's' after school and mom and dad pick them up and eat there. So that means there's never food here for poor ol me. Ha I'll find something hopefully but god this music is annoying!!

I'll put pictures up later of the cake and cupcakes and maybe our shirts...

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XxTheVirginMaryxX
23:16 Feb 12 2010

That's a great story. I'm sorry to hear that your parents are fighting. However, it doesn't mean that they don't love eachother. My husband and I fight like cats and dogs and we are madly in love with each other!

As for the cake, it sounds like it went over well and I am happy for you! It was very sweet of you to take the time out and do that! Feel free to add me :) Just let me know that you did so I can add you back :)

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I'm actually proud of myself. Today I accomplished my first ever rose drawing. Heh sounds really sad but seriously I can draw some what good like once a year but I think I might have a knack for drawing roses. Maybe I’ll post it on here later or something. I've got to fix up one on Photoshop for my mother.

Today was also her birthday and I realized I should scan the picture and make a copy to color for her. See she has a special thing for yellow roses. But of course I want it to be perfect so I don't think it'll be ready till the 14th but that’s reasonable. Heh my bf will be getting the original of course ^^ it's so pretty and funny actually because I hadn’t intended for it to be so good. So I doodled 'Bite Me' on the top of the paper. Very appropriate I think. Heh but it wasn’t really cause of the site or anything. My eyes wonder when I'm bored (who's doesn’t?) and my book had it written in the cover art. So voila~

So this is site is suposed to be filled with real vampires eh? Not sure if i'm convinsed but hey even the website doesnt believe i'm not spam right? Haha pretty pitiful I'd say. Judged by giga and megabites whoa is me. Ha, so not into the poor me thing really. I think this site is pretty cool for being partally convined that its what it says it is. Jeez that sentence sounded horrible. Anyways I should get back to learning the rules of this site before I become annoyed. I'll have to seriously fill out my profile sometime this week. Well maybe on Saturday...

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Sinora
12:54 Feb 10 2010

Oh noooooos, now you done it, they be coming for ya now......

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