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This gets right to the point, doesn't it? Evil was never a concise line for me, and it never will be.

I've just finished watching a 1970 version of an 1800's vampire love story. Curiosity got the best of me and I knew I'd be disappointed because the preserved vampire of old would have to be staked through the heart at the end. I was right of course. I was beside myself with grief half way through the movie as the damned creature had begun favoring this human girl. Why do vampires get so easily careless? Actually in this film, I was white supposed to find that the vampire had planned much ahead of time instead of turning on an aimless whim.

Once the stake had been thrust against the undead heart of hers.. I felt as though I could cry. I did not find any evil in this creature, for she accepted her death without any struggles. It felt very wrong. Nature is as nature does, who are we to judge the rights and wrongs? You wouldn't harm a wolf for slaughtering a rabbit or deer. It all boils down, we are all simply animals. The Vampire in this case is not much different. Another cousin perhaps?

I see why history is fond of its scary stories. As a major part of myself comes from Czechoslovakia, I've done my reading. I wouldn't want my daughter/son etc. be taken from me from a demon from hell (not being an actual concern of mine), but life is as life does. I protect my family with all that I am, and no amount of human nor creature could steer me.

(In the olden days) If I knew a vampire was praying on my child, being my mother's child with an abundant of anger, I would think rash thoughts and would very much want to kill it. But being as I am a rational woman with an open heart, I would protect my child without killing anyone..

I would give this vampire a choice of sorts, in hopes they would choose to leave my home and not come back (or I would kill them). Or.. I would rather sacrifice myself as a meal option (not to kill me of course) rather than to have my child helplessly feed on.

I wouldn't call a vampire inherently evil, it does what it has to to survive. If indeed evil.. then as humans we share it. I realize I'd be putting a lot of faith in the creature, but if I didn't, there would be no point in anything. My child would still die, and I would grieve without rest. I would rather die in protecting my child than to live not knowing what befell and knowing that I still live. I'm a mediator in whatever way I can..

I simply care too much about the evil-doer while not believing that evil is without heart and compassion. I'm just as evil as you are reading this. Some are worse than others, but evil cannot blame evil. Purity just doesn't seem to exist as it once did, and much of that is of our own blame.

Being on "autopilot" for me is quite a lovely feeling. It's a distance from unreasonable fears and chocking anxiety. I'm unaquainted with this feeling but I'm milking it for all its worth.

A little tid-bit about me: I love sharp teeth, always have. For various reasons I find sharp teeth empowering and eerily beautiful. A force to be reckoned with. Unfortunately my natural canines do not have that fearfully sharp effect I'd like them to, so I'm compensating by getting a pair of realistic, quality fangs made by a professional fangsmith. It'll help me emerge a ways out of my shell, and give me more of an incentive to smile! I'm more excited to explore the more gangrel of behaviors when appropriate.

I'm not gonna be deep with this one. I'm just gonna say that life is simple and I like it.

It's been good with college, I experience a social life and I have a loving fur baby that I can come home to.

It's been a long time since my life has been this way without a substantial amount of struggle each year. I've overcome many struggles and have grown so much mindfully and responsibly. Money is still tight, but that will always be an issue.

I'm glad. :)

I'm definitely grateful!

I'd like to be this happy more often.

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RyuNoctemAeternus
04:09 Oct 17 2017

I like the way you look at life......I wish I had your eyes to see my life

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Rosephyne
04:29 Oct 17 2017

"Fake it 'till you make it." As irritating as it is, it really does help.

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