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xPsychex
19:33 Oct 23 2010

Get what? Dying of curiosity here LOL..

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VampyreCowgirl
23:22 Oct 23 2010

Ok, while what's hot?

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EternalAutumn
03:26 Oct 24 2010

You're killin' me smalls!

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Ok. This will probably get me in trouble, but I feel like expressing my opinion. First off, I will begin by saying I think what Cancer has done by creating this site is a wonderful thing. This post has nothing to do with him, or his efforts. It has to do with all the other people who are verbally handing out rim jobs.



Stop kissing his ass! if you have a legitimate compliment or want to show your appreciation, by all means do so. I did. But for those of you who just want to make comments like "I believe Cancer has the right to believe the way he believes. Great job Cancer for having a belief" Fuck you. Seriously??? I, for one, am thrilled that you support his right to feel how he wants to feel. I'm sure your approval regarding his right to have an opinion is the driving force behind all that he does. Maybe I'm just an asshole. It can't just be me who thinks people like this are a waste of fucking space and skin. I could understand if it was a sarcastic comment, or a witty comment, or if it had original thoughts tied in with it to provide some sort of worthy addition. But, no. It was nothing more than someone's lame attempt to win favor by shamelessly kissing ass! Goddamn it. This really pisses me off. People like you are the reason I support population control. We all like an "atta boy" or "atta girl", and want to feel accepted, but for Christ's sake at least bring something to the table when you come.



Now, I'm sure this will raise a shitstorm, as it is referring to a high ranking member on this site. Here's the thing: You're not exempt from the truth and being called on your bullshit just because you found this site before me. If you disagree, or would like to clarify anything I have written here because you think it is unfounded or incorrect, by all means send me a message. However, that would require a backbone and the ability to defend your opinions or thoughts intelligently, and based on what I have seen you possess neither.



Feel free to comment, as I am interested to hear other opinions and enjoy a lively discussion or debate. It's not personal, although I suppose I made it personal by calling that person spineless and unintelligent. So be it. I don't take it back. The evidence supports my theory, and it's how I feel.



Have a wonderful day!

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Celestialdragon
23:06 Oct 20 2010

yep your just an asshole hahaha ~hugs~

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PsychWardSiren
01:07 Oct 21 2010

well don't you just know how to have a good time!

lol.

i agree ass kissers need not apply!!!

keep it real!

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PandorasBx
21:10 Oct 21 2010

I have had this same thought many a time, its sickening and disgusting and extremely lame.

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Hi! Have you ever had an original thought? Do you even know what an original thought looks like? Probably not. Can you look in the mirror and actually see yourself? Or does it resemble a collage of everything you wish you could be but don't have the guts to attempt? My guess is that between your Twilight desires and your Bram Stoker's fantasies, you don't know WHO the fuck you are. I'm sure you feel improtant when you read a book and spout theories, but have you acomplished anything other than pretending to be someoene else? Ever? Can you teach someone how to accomplish something? If I stuck you in a room with a thousand other people, would you stand out in the slightest? Or would you simply twist and mold your personality once again in order to conform?



Why am I writing this? Because I am so tired of being a dick to those who don't have a unique bone in their body.I would rather have a conversation with the dumbest person on the planet who has convictions and their own identity, than the most educated, politcally correct sheep of a person any day of the week. Don't come to me and try to impress me with your armchair paganism or your theoretical vampire bullshit.



If you're ignorant, embrace it or change it. Just pick a side! If you have questions, ask them. If you want to do something different, then do it. If you fail, then you have succeeded in finding out how NOT to do something. With persistence, eventually you will find the answers you seek. It requires getting off your ass and taking a risk. It requires dedication and commitment in order to accomplish anything. Even if you want to be an idiot, you have to be dedicated to ignoring common sense and refusing to follow wise counsel.



I can abide and understand ignorance. It means you don't know better. Stupidity, on the other hand is inexcusable. You have no right to complain that you have no friends if you continually stab them all in the back. Rest assured, if I ever stab you, it will be from the front and will come with a damn good reason! You also have no right to complain about your life, if you fail to take responsibility for its content. There are very few instances when we are FORCED to do anything. We make choices. Stand up or lay down, progression or regression, conformity or individuality. I will help anyone willing to help themsleves. I will teach anyone willing to both learn and APPLY the information.



I am also smart enough to know I have a lot left to learn myself. I do not have it figured out by any means. However, I know myself well enough to have figured out what I want from this life and the kinds of people I want to share it with. I am a firm believer in freedom and reciprocation. Tit for tat, so to speak. I believe in choice. If this is your life, then you should be able to live it as you see fit. Plain and simple. It is not my place to judge you or decide what's best for you. I also believe that if you are going to accept something, you should be just as willing to offer something in return. Don't get me wrong, I understand the purpose for giving, but if nothing else, you should at least be able to hand out a thank you in return. If I give a gift, I never expect anything in return. It is a gift and the purpose is to make someone's life better. Anything in return is just a bonus. even if it's just appreciation for the gesture.



This turned out to be a much longer entry than I originally anticipated. I was not aware I had so much to say. Perhaps, the tide is rising once again regarding my desire to verbally express myself.



I know I have said this before, but I appreciate loyalty, honor and originality above all else. Be yourself for that is when you are most amazing! Stand for something, even if it means sacrificing everything. Treat your friends and loved ones as though they matter. Not just verbally, but through your actions as well. And most of all, TAKE CHANCES! Don't be afraid to live and pursue your own kind of happiness. And when you find it, bottle that shit up and sell it. Too many people have never seen it.

I guess that's it. I truly hope all of my friends and loved ones are having an amazing day! If no one else has told you: you are truly awe-inspiring and make my world a better place. Your value cannot be expressed through words though I could speak of it for hours. Thank you for all that you do and are. May you be surrounded by blessings on every side and achieve prosperity in everything you put your hand to. Oh, and if you need a place to land or vent or just be you without judgement or pressure, my door is always open. It would be my honor to return the favor of friendship you have so graciously directed my way. Later

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daggerrose
20:25 Oct 16 2010

I admire your point. Could not agree more.

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analisa
06:43 Oct 17 2010

Your words are inspiring and honest. Brutally so... but sometimes that is what it takes...

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NephthysRising
04:56 Oct 20 2010

Very well said.

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God damn it. This isn't about me. It's about you. Right now you're laying there, speechless. Asleep in your exhaustion, yet screaming at me in the silence. I didn't know. I'm sorry. I don't know why I feel guilty. I shouldn't. Everyone tells me I'm not responsible. That you would have brought the blade across your wrists regardless. But I don't see it. To me, it's cut and dry. You called. I failed. Your words echoing in my mind and every syllable takes on a whole new meaning. The inflection, the insistence. I thought you just wanted me back. I didn't know you were going to take that step. I thought I was helping by drawing a line. I should have heard you when you paused, and known you were on the edge. God damn it. Why didn't I see it? Why didn't I hear it? How can you not know how fucking special you are? How can you be blind to your beauty both inside and out? I'm not that fucking special. Not worth this. Jesus Christ. You look so frail. That's not you. That's not the Jennifer I know. At least I think I knew you. You always said I knew you. Where the fuck did I go wrong? If I knew you, this shit wouldn't have happened. If I knew you I would have heard the desperation and maybe I could have helped. Or found someone who could help more than me. I fucking owed you that. I can;t keep doing this to people. I can't keep destroying lives and causing fucking mayhem. I was just talking about you last night, Jen. I pushed you away, and knew I was doing what was best for both of us. We can't cross that line again. I will always love you, but I can't be with you. I just want you to be happy and find someone else. Now I don't know what the fuck is best. Why can't anyone see I'm not that God damn special? I just tell the truth and try to help people. There are a million fucking people like me out there. I have more fucking issues than anybody knows. You wanna know why I try so hard to be a good person? Because of shit like this. I have alot of guilt. ALOT of guilt. I try so hard to be there for people and comfort them and help them because I will never be able do enough to make up for the shit I've caused. The road to hell is paved with good intentions. That's what they say, right? Well, my good intentions are certainly proving it to be true.



You all say I'm guarded and mysterious. Well, fuck guarded. Here is my heart, no walls, no fence, just me. Bare and twisted and exposed. Don't get too close, though. I have a tendency to scar and maim. You don't want to know me. Not the real me. Not the me that feels like a raw destructive force. Not the me who would die for you, but ends up hurting and causing pain instead. The worst part is, it's not the obvious sort like a blow to the face or vengeful words. It's the much more subtle kind. The kind where you don't even realize it happened until I disappear and your whole fucking life feels different and incomplete. It's not my fucking ego talking. It's the truth. I wish it were different. I wish I were some normal god damn person who lived in anonymity and never made a fucking impact on anyone or anything. That would easier to deal with. I'm sorry Jen. God help me, I'm fucking sorry.

As usually occurs when I delve within the recesses of my mind and contemplate the bigger picture, I have come to some realizations. Well, some are realizations. Others merely reaffirm what I have already known. I am a unique individual, and my originality has often allowed me to experience some rather odd and interesting events. I am continually aware that I have the power to impact every situation in either a positive or negative manner, and that those decisions have lasting effects. I am often confronted with situations where the correct course of action is neither black or white, but shads of gray. I weigh the consequences of my actions heavily and very few of these actions are without reason. Sometimes, I may not fully understand the magnitude or appreciate the uniqueness of these situations until after the fact. Regardless, I choose a path that I hope will ultimately benefit those with whom I have contact. I have a desire to leave my mark upon this earth in more than merely physical ways. I have had the opportunity to meet and help so many individuals that it has become clear to me my existence is not a superficial one. This path which led me to VR has been one of the most amazing journeys I have ventured upon yet. I have been given various opportunities to be of assistance and have acquired an invaluable amount of knowledge while here. It gives me a sense of humility to be able to have a positive impact on those around me, and to have acquired some of the friendships along the way. So many people go through life with little or no appreciation for who they are and what they are capable of. I do not intend to waste my days or take for granted the fact that I have an incredible opportunity before me with every interaction and circumstance. I am aware that this post contradicts the previous one. Often is the case before I gain clarity regarding a stuation or series of events that lie before me. I will not fail. I will not skirt my responsibilities and obligations. And, most importantly, I will not leave this world without it having been changed for the better via my existence and walk through life.

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PandorasBx
00:30 Oct 09 2010

So thats what they are calling crazy now, unique...Hehehe ;)

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Ok. So this is one of those days where I don't really care how you are doing. I'm being polite and offering whatever help and/or knowledge I have, because that's who I am. But I don't care whether you take my advice or if things get better for you. I don't care about poor little so and so and how life isn't fair. The sad part is that I'm really trying not to go to the extreme in this mood and be destructive. I have a tendency to be very destructive when there is a lack of empathy. I almost never have sympathy, as I feel that sympathy is a useless and pointless emotion that doesn't do anyone any good. If you're reading this and wondering, "is he talking about me" I probably am. It's nothing personal. I just don't like putting forth the energy to help you or endure the endless whining and complaints about how everything is so dark and gloomy. I have days like that, and guess what? I very rarely tell anyone because I prefer to live my own life and fix my own problems before they get any bigger. So nut up or shut up! I love that saying. Thank you Woody Harrelson for your words of wisdom via Zombieland. Don't get it twisted, we're still friends and tomorrow I will probably endure your incessant ramblings once again, and be perfectly okay with that. Today, however, don't expect my usual selflessnes and willingness to throw myself in front of your emotional bus. Guess I'm done.



P.S. This in no way implies that I'm in a bad mood or don't feel like talking. I'm actually having a really good day. I'm just experiencing a lack of emotional responses and have no desire to change that right now. Holla ;)

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PandorasBx
00:19 Oct 09 2010

Oh now, that really hurt........WAAAAAAA :P

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Why is it that men feel the need to point out they have a penis at every opportunity? I have never understood why guys get freaked out by a simple comment when a woman is involved. To put this in context, I have been reading journal entries and have noticed that every time a woman mentions something that has the slightest of sexual overtones, there is inevitably some jackass making sure she knows he has a penis and/or would fuck her. Really? You think she doesn't know you have a penis? And just because you have one, doesn't mean you even know how to operate it, douchebag. As far as fucking her, to assume that she is so desperate to find a penis that your offer would be met with anything other than creepiness is just retarded. Don't get me wrong, I have no problem with flirtation and/or sexual humor. I just think that if you have to advertise, then you must not be in demand. And you're probably not in demand because you're trying to fuck everything with a vagina and a keyboard. Though, to be fair, probably only half of them ACTUALLY have a vagina, so here's to all the dude's you've inadvertently penetrated on your cyber journey :) Oh, and for the record, I have a penis and I like sex. I just have standards before I will hand them out.





Don't know why I give a shit about this lol But it's my journal, so deal with it ;)

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Ra
20:54 Oct 02 2010

LMFAO!!!



Well said my friend just because you have a dick does'nt mean you have to be a dick!

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PandorasBx
20:58 Oct 02 2010

You wouldn't believe some of the messages and comments I get ugggh :(

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xPsychex
21:14 Oct 02 2010

Thank you my dear! From this and my sister profile!! Hope this keeps down the messages for all of us afflicted by these men of limited skill and brain!!

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Bellanova333
21:23 Oct 02 2010

*giggles Ohhhh this is so true....sad... and very true. Thank you for posting this (:

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VampyreCowgirl
17:54 Oct 05 2010

So true! It's sad really. Of course most of those men are actually probably small, and they say that stuff to make themselves feel better, lol.

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