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i stand alone against the raging fires



i stand alone in a losing battle



alone and broken is my soul



the brutal vicious trannany



the chains of hypocracy holding me down



alon i am



i stand alone in this fight



forever



tears pour down my face



blood drips from my veins



the oppression of life



the cold sting of hate



no more can i take it



no more can i go on



i put a gun to my head



pull the trigger



and everything goes black



everything grows silent



as i slip away



no more could i take this



now i am gone



like a melted snow flake



gone forever





by Lydia rj Hambey

i call out to the darkness

but no one hears me

i run into the shadows

trapped

i am alone

theres no where to go

and nobody cares

the tyranny of the world i live in

is the game that i play

i cut my arm

and watch my blood drip to the ground

silence it consumes me

and rage takes place of the sadness

all things things are lost

as i stare at the razor

the razor covered in my own blood

why does it have to be this way?

everything is spinning out of control

i can seem to grasp on to anything anymore

the reality feels so fake

why cant i seem to find happiness anymore?

always i am consumed by hate

by fear

and by sadness

why cant i be how i once was?

and why cant i go back to the past

when everything seemed so simple

when everything seemed so easy

i stare at the razor

the one covered in my own blood

and i draw it across my arm again

to forget what im feeling inside

to forget everything

and to let go

just to watch myself slip away

and to watch my soul drift on

to watch myself die

i look at the razor

my last hope

and my one escape

i pull it across my arm

and take a deep breath

soon now

soon you wont be laughing

and soon ill be gone

can you see me?

am i hear?

can you see

my black tear?

would you hold me

as i die?

or would you sit

and watch me cry?

cant you tell

you broke my heart

as i fell

and got torn apart

ripped to pieces

in my mind

as you smile

when i say im fine

im not ok

im dying

im not ok

im crying

im not alright

im bleeding

awake from this nightmare

im screaming

im falling hard

and falling fast

memories of me

haunting your past



~By : Lydia Rj Hambey~