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It's so easy for people to show that they don't care about you.



But Vice versa??

Not even

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Bones
04:30 Jun 27 2008

True.

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So, for the first tie in my life i have to select benefit plans for work.

I have no idea how.



We get dental, health, bonus' (like 50% off of any bill you have with Rogers per month), Life insurance, RSP's, pension plan...and i think thats it...



We also end up having 3rd party cmpanies tht co-operate with Rogers, so we end up getting about discounts on almost 50 different everyday companies....



Back to my original problem, im not entirely sure how to select the packages i want. I've never had to do this before..Also, im able to have my younger sister marked down as a dependent on my tax forms....Gotta figure out how to do that too...IM sure its all fairly simple, in fact i know it is...

I just am like a freaking blind man thrown into the labrynth.

Why do i feel like an adult??

...so the can help me prove to myself im not crazy. Unworthy. Stupid. Cheap. Useless. Disposable.



I need someone to help me figure out why the fuck things have turned out this way.



To tell me I'm doing the best that I can and no one expects any more then that.



Most of all, i need someone to listen to me, so i can prove to myself that every word i say has a beginning, a meaning and a purpose.

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Sinora
06:34 Jun 27 2008

If I said try listening to your inner self would that sound too new age ?

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Enjoy any moment of happiness that you could have now and you will see that happiness attracts happiness and what is high is integrated with the high. Understand, live and experience love as something that is simultaneously produced on several levels, that is to say, in the physical dominance as well as the emotional, mental and spiritual.

im so angry, but its that senseless kind of anger that doesnt really do anything but make you act like a child having a tantrum....



but it doesnt changed the fact that im so fucking angry :@

Ugh i just wish my friends didnt think so poorly of themselves. One or two of them in particular. She doesnt understand how she even has friends.... she assume males take one look at her and want to puke...how does a girl get such a poor image of herself liek that?!?!?!

No, shes not a size zero but fuck she isnt obscenely obese. She has a beautoful face, an amazing sense of humor, i tell her the truth about herself yet all she sees is lies.

I know it means nothing coming from me since i am a girl and a friend but come the fuck on!!! How can she see such a negative, completely distorted view of herself like that?!?!?! Ugh i have no idea what to do...

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LIFEBLOOD
11:32 Jun 17 2008

..send her my way ... hehe

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Dehspair
13:58 Jun 17 2008

Sometimes a self image is stronger then anything anyone else could say. The way we precieve ourselves is how some others precieve us, which could be a reason as to the lack of Male comrodery to use a loose term, as I have noticed members of the oposite sex pick up on these feelings of inadicasy, and in turn are turned away without really seeing the person there.

And a self image is the hardest thing to change....

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Walked Crystal to work as we do on sunny/rany days. Talked of boys, men and males.



~ We have a plan, now all we need is a man~



Came home and now my tummy is upset :(

No fair.

"What we have here is, a failure to communicate."

- Steve's tattoo***

I was going to get a surface piercing on the top or botto of my wrist...but the guy wasnt there :( Sad now because im so jonsing for a peice of ink or a piercing!!!!!! GOOOOODDDDDDD!!!!!!!

it's all about the he-said, she-said bullshit.

Indestructable, determination incoruptable.

...Thats really all you need to know.

The Hawaiin party was null and void, but fun. Figure that one out.