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I got's my singing voice back =D

"I never showed you me?"

~ It's sad that something so strong, will some day be gone....we must say goodbye. ~



I was going to finally write...something, about how I've been feeling. Yet again, I've been stoppd by God knows what. I can't get it out.

Not with a pen and paper, on the computer or with words.



I guess a lot of what i am feeling stems from being alone. I dont mean alone as in single...I mean alone as in, the closest member of my family is a 3 day drive away. I cant seem to reach out to anyone, and don't really want to.

I dont want people to be around me when i feel like this. Its just no pleasant.

I feel like everyone i need isnt here anymore and anyone i feel like i might be able to count on really can't be bothered.

Friends completely disregarding me as if i dont even matter. As if i LIVE to take their bullshit and excuses. YaY for friendship and loyalty. True friendship it seems is a dying breed just like the nuclear family.

Thats not true...not entirely anyways.

I've been fighting the cloud back for a while now. Fighting and winning or so i thought. But now its gone and bitten me a hell of a lot harder and deeper. Im not sure how to cope.

I need my sisters but they arent here, i need my other but she isnt here, i need friends but i cant call on them, as for a male to rely on?? yea fat fucking chance.

Half of the assholes cant commit to a simple conversation let alone a relationship of ANY kind.

My father barely even seems to have time to write me a simple email. Lovely.

Ok so im a bit bitter...sue me.

Ugh....I just want to feel better...

I need a hug. Not a furry one LoL....

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Sinora
11:15 May 28 2008

Leaves a big unfurry *hug*

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im at a loss for story ideas....