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i got my hair cut today, its awesome! soo short and yet soo long, its also shaggy! i love it!!!

my mom found out i cut the other day, she only saw my semi-less bad cuts and then 2day she saw my bad bad cuts. im not in trouble though, she just wants me to stop. i have a kool mom, but thts not why i cut, i cut bc of my dad, and school ppl. my life is stupid and then its kool. so well i gtg, bye

im fading,

fading,

fading,

never more shining,

the light is too bright for my sensitive eyes,

so i hide,

the dark is too lonely for my crying heart,

so i fade,

and so years after i said goodbye to the light,

i find im still alive,

tortured by the pain,

so i hide,

scared by the cuts and burns i gave myself,

so i fade,

straight into the dark unknown,

never looking back,

not even once to see you,

the farther away i get,

the less i feel the love,

and the more i feel the pain,

and thats what i want,

but nothing,

not even love,

can bring me back,

for now i have died inside,

and cannot be brought back to life,

so i hide,

so i fade,

so i die,

so now,

i say. . .







goodbye. . . my once loved world

so love is not all that its cracked up to be, i dont know whats going on with me and my gf, but i wana cry so much right now, and i cutted too much m arm has begun to shake from lose of blood. im scared, i love her, but i just dont know anymore. gtg

is it true or is it fake?

is it love or is it hate?



I dont know, i love her, but people keep telling me shes dating someone else. i just dont know any more. i dont know if he's hert borther or if he's her boyfriend/lover. me and her have been dating for 2 weeks, alittle more, tomrrow 3 weeks. she told me she's loved me since 3rd grade, she's told me she loves me, and will love me forever. but i just dont know. i know i love her, but i cant decide what to do, i need to talk to her, but rvrytime i call her mom says she'll call alittle later, shes doing something, and then i wait and wait and wait and wait, but never get a call. she made me a mix cd, she gave me her old arm warmers to cover my cuts, she writes me everyday in a notebook we share, and i write her too, she says she loves me and she taking me on a date this weekend, our first, but i know she has cheated before when she was with others, but i just ignore that, and hope for the best, we've been friends since 3rd grade, then she left state in 4th grade and came back in 6th and we're still friends, shes all hugging and lovy dovy around me all the time, but i just dont know whats up, i need to talk to her really bad before i say something i regret, if it's not true that shes dating someone else. i really hope its not, well i've taken up alot of your time now, so goodbye, and comment if u have any thing that could help me with any of my problems.

yay! me and my girlfriend are gona go out on a date this weekend! ~sighs~ i dont know why i cut when i got such a good girlfriend. but its me, not what ppl want me to be, so ppl if ur hating on me, go screw off! oh, and i hate prepies! but lol. and prepies if ur on this site, u shouldnt be! hate me, love me, i dont really care.



peace!



gurgal_out.

20% more percent and im no longer a whelp. YES!!! lmao. ugg. to many test gona happen 2mro in school, no no no! math, ela, science, think health and spanish too. ugg! no! i gota write a paper on a story too for ela, atleast i got the first paragraph done, 3 more to go, lol. oh well i think i might just stay on VR for alittle longer though, lol, im in 8th grade. too much homework. lmao, k g2g.