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Im sick of people trying to take the one i love out of my life i am a very nice person until u piss me off and it takes alot to push me to that point and i dont like going there because people get hurt but if some people insist on flirting and throwing them selves at my man they will know what i mean so this is a fair warning and i hope u take it to heart and you know who you are thanks .

I am haveing one of those days where i just dont care i havent been to sleep in almost 48 hours and then some people think they need to push ya well im not in a mood to be pushed today i will push back and you wont like me so with that being said .... i hope all my friends are haveing a great day .... last nite i done the hardest thing i have ever done in my life and it wasnt very fun i tried to be nice about it but all i got was hurt worse so i am not looking back at my past but in time .... i hope all wounds heal .

Well as i sit here in this house yet another day i feel my life slowly slipping away from me . i have had him put in jail yet he comes back and its twices as bad for me i have 3 cracked ribs and a busted lip and i am still afraid to leave because when u have no where else to go or no family to help u it makes it hard to ..... i come on here because this is one place i can get away and he cant come because he is to damn dumb to work a computer i look back over the years i have been with him and think the first 4 was good and the next 12 was very bad and yet every time he hits me he says i love u and i am sorry i just lost my cool and i stay silent .... so i have come o my end i will either live or die and right now death would be a blessing to me because at least then i would be free not being told where i can go or what i am allowed to where or if i am allowed to speak to some one or not .... well this is my rant i had to get it all out and those who are reading it please do not judge me because i have been judge already thank you bye.

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Akuma
01:28 Aug 19 2010

as I have told you before a fighter always toughs it out and never backs down from a fight because the victory is everybody's dream to live in the end

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I sit in this room all call a home and think there has to be more to life than what i have seen been marries since i was 14 to a man who i thought loved me then started beating me a few years ago i feel like a prisoner in my own home and i guess in time i will figure away out because the cops and help here is useless and when your own family would rather take his side than yours that makes it even worse i have been ask many times what do u lust for well for me i lust for freedom and a chance to find a new beginning in my life and one day maybe i will until then i will live my life online because it is the one place i can be free and be me well thats all i have to say for now maybe i will have a chance to write more later .

Well i have learnt that no matter how much you love someone in the end you will always get hurt in one way or another . i guess somethimes in life thats just how it goes and we have to pick our selves back up and try again our just lay there and give up . well for me i dont know the meaning of give up its not in my vocablary i know what i want out of life and i will get it even if it take me a life time to do it . some people see me as being weird because i dont go out durning the day and thats because thats when i sleep i like being up at nite and i dont like the sun to much . no i am not a immortal thats just how i like to be but then again i like alot of stuff that most people think is weird or crazy and thats ok everyone has a right to a opinion so i will end this entry with that if there is more you would like to know about me just ask and feel free to leave comments good or bad thank you .

Well i have been here for a few days and i love the site i have meet alot of interesting people and i have meet one that i really like i hope to get to know more and learn as i go .