The Ultimate Vampire Resource and Directory

It turns out that there was a logical explanation for the behaviour of the guy i love.

I thaught it was me that wasn't good enough for him and that was why he was distant towards me - avoiding my calls and txts.

It turns out the poor guy was in hospital. He'd had an accident at wrk and the company didn't even inform me (his next of kin)

I feel so guilty - my baby boy was in incredible pain and had doctors poking around in his eye and all i could do was send him bitchy texts coz i thaught he didn't want me :(



Ste - I'm sorry darlin, love you. X

I broke up wi Ste last nite :(

It's been coming for a while but it still hurts. I didn't know what to do this morn - just stood in the kitchen like a bloody lemon!

Im sat here looking at the pouring down rain n thinking of him - working in it. I hope he don't get cold.

I can't say it's his fault - it was just one of those things. If anyone is to blame it's me coz i couldn't keep the train on the track...

We did try though - im not one for just giving up at the first hurdle. We tried and tried, inside out, upside down, you name it we tried it that way (no - im not on about sex - although the same applies!)

sorry, i feel like part of me is missing, although the relationship had it's bad points, there were some good times too... like when he took me for a coffee and the cup was bigger than me!

Like my 18th birthday, although it was a flop, he held me in his arms that night, took me home and showed me love (i was highly intoxicated, but the pics don't lie!)

Awww, Ste...

Gimmme a hug! x

Since the earlier journal post where i said how my other half had not come home and i was falling for a guy at work there has been another development.

An ex of mine has cpnfessed he still wants me :o

I wasn't expecting it and now my head is goin "Wao wao wao!"



Im gonna crack up if this goes on for much longer!



Sarah

I loves ya ppl. X

My boyfriend didn't come home on friday nite :(

He gives me shite excuses like "my m8s gf had a baby!" - me - im nt been funny but i thaught that took 9 months >:( Then we had "I stayed at the next-door-neighbours!" - me - how difficultis it 2 come home when ur only1 fucking door away???

I have to admit were falling apart, theres no closenss anymore, theres no spark, or sex...

To be totally honest i'm not sure if i love him anymore...



There's a guy at work, he's amazing. He's in a serious relationship 2. But he wants me and i want him...



My head is on the verge of exploding.



I don't want 2 hurt anyone. But i'm not sure i can stay in a relationship where i'l never be truly happy. Don't get me wrong, Ste will be committed to me forever. But with James theres a passion i've never felt before...



What on earth do i do???



Someone help me........

I feel like i could implode any minute!



Sarah. X