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I came across this piece while looking back through some e-mails that gives my view at the time on mainly Life.

It was sent as an e-mail to alot of my friends, and I also sent a copy to myself which explains how I still have it.









Triad's Manifesto



This is just an email to say that I hate the world in general!



Kane(a mate) and I just had a great chat about how screwed up I think life is. I would like to thank Kane for helping me make some important discoveries and decisions to night, and also I would like to thank Wrayth (Karl) for lending me "the Vampire Lestat", which is one of the books that have opened my eyes to the weaknesses and worthlessness of humanity and of life itself. I do have the conversation that I had with Kane saved, but you will have to get Kane's ok before i will send it(that's why it's not an attachment).



I have come to realise that life can be both priceless and worthless. That a life can be bought and sold, yet a single life can make so much difference for either the good or bad. That we can bend over backwards to please people who are just as worthless as we are, and for wot¿ They say that blood's thicker than water, yet money can buy blood.



I have heard people say 'The more you think, the more you hurt, and the more you hurt, the more you think, and it becomes a never-ending circle", but in my opinion, you pick your path, you choose which forks to take, and you can never turn around. If I search for justice as i see it, then my life may have some purpose. If its what you believe, then it's what you have to do.



What happens when you no longer dream dreams, when you have nothing to lose, and when your emotions, your heart, and your caring, is no longer there. What happens when you think with your head, live with your head, and never show human weakness, what have you become¿



When the ones that you love, when your family and friends betray you, thats when you start to realise that it is possible to think entirely with your head, and never listen to your heart. Can you seriously say that you love your parents, or friends, or boy/girl friends¿ Or do you just assume that the feelings that you have, are feelings of love¿ Do you know what true love is¿¿¿



My answer, as such, NO. I believe that I have touched it numerous times, at specific moments with my family and at certain periods of time with my ex, but it takes time to build that love up so that it resides permanently in ones self. And if in building it, you break it, you have built a fortress that will crumble to ruin as soon as someone kicks the foundations.





Anyway, this is the raving lunatic, signing off.



Take care all



Triad



P.S. This is not aimed at anyone in particular, but is the culmination of 2-3 years of things going wrong, or not going at all. This is the equivalent of my manifesto.