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I haven't written in a while and although my mind is blank at the moment due to lack of sleep and boredom, I thought I would give a brief update of my situation. I am completely moved in (well if you can call this complete) to my cousin's house. I am only minutes from my sweetheart but I am yet to have either a phone or a job. I'm sure both of these will come fairly soon.

I am still adjusting to being in a noisy house with children and a neurotic dog and only one bathroom to share among 2 kids and 3 adults, but I'm sure I will get there. It's hard on me right now and I cry each night I spend alone.

My only comfort is my angel.

I am without contact both on the phone and physical from friends and family.

I feel, for lack of a better word, lost.

I have only my clothes and my bed, all else will remain in a box until I have my own place.

It's strange to not know where things are in a house, or to not have your own food or utensils, or any of your own belongings scattered through out.

But this is what I wanted. This is where I start.

The begining of a new life is always rough, or I should say, to put about great change in ones life is very trying. Especially on ones emotions.

I have got to sleep if only for a bit.

I will return soon with more updates.

I am close to being at wits end. I will break soon enough, and I hope you are not around to see it.....it's not a pretty sight.

I can be far more than a bitch.

And afterwards, I will be remorseful for those that were in the wrong place at the wrong time. I will mourn the fact that I have hurt those that did not deserve it.

I am in desperate need of a distraction or my mind will follow along this path of anger and as you know, suspicion, paranoia and jealousy all stem from anger.

Need to get out.

Maybe food will help.

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Sinora
20:59 Jul 09 2008

Ohhh *hugs*

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Soak it up while you can, my poetry entries are soon to disappear. But the good news is that once they are published you can go buy my book ^.^

I could not do this without the help of my dear Azreal.

Thanks so much love.

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Sinora
20:56 Jul 08 2008

A book ?...yay good for you hon xxx

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ladygoddessaries
21:46 Jul 08 2008

Oh thats wonderful.. wish I could do the same with mine.

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