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I went onto myspace. Yeah myspace. An older version of today's most used website, facebook. While on facebook saw my ex who was my number one person on myspace and the pictures we had. What got me all mad was seeing the pic he has up of him and the girl he cheated on me with. I know I am an adult of in my 20's now not saying the direct number I am but within 20's. It just still bothers me with how much shit I went threw with guys back in the day. Then you don't just think about the one time. Your caught thinking about all the other times and guys who put you threw hell. There was some really messed up shit I went threw and that no one should have gone threw. Yet life is life. I was told if we did not go threw these hard times it would not make us to be who we are as adults. How much of that statement is really true? Hearing the same shit over and over again you start to wonder or question the amount of which what is true? What is really meant when said? I stopped carring what guys either said to me or any cute shit they tried to say. It was like an auto repeat of the the same thing. As though they had been programed like robots and in thinking and saying the same thing, thinking we would not notice cause its a different guy. I noticed and after awhile none of what they seemed to have said felt real, felt like they meant it. Was all a fake. Now here I am in my 20's though married and about to have a kid with the guy I married. Now that was real. How could you tell? Its a hard to tell feeling. Once you experience it you try to catch it and remember what that feels like. Or you least try to hold onto it but it can only stay for so long before another feeling you get comes and takes that away. The human body and the way we feel and what we do with them is still a mystery to all. Nothing can be answered until it happens and you feel it. The difference has been yet he may have said a few things that were the same but for the most part he was original, deep, and it was meaningful to me. The way the person looks at you when they mean it is special, the touching, the feeling you get and the rush, once happaning now that is real.

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DragonVvvVPrincess
22:22 Sep 21 2015

Thank you for sharing your insight.~Mina

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