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I love you, I want you, but I cannot have you. So now I must find strength else where.



It is finally sinking in that this is real, and not just a horrible nightmare. I have been keeping myself busy this week, but now I must spend some time to myself to reflect on what has happened and heal.



It will be a long painful road, but I can already feel myself healing. I can finally feel some of the pieces coming back together that had been shattered.



I can do this, I know I can. I will not let this situation back track all the progress I have made for myself these three years.

My boyfriend of three years broke up with me on Sunday. I am devastated and heart broken. He didn't want to work things out, he is done with our relationship. My logical brain can understand this and agrees with his decision as our relationship has been going down hill for a year, if not longer. We weren't even hugging or kissing anymore. We were more room mates than anything else. He said I deserve someone better, someone who wont hurt me, someone who wants what I want. He wants me to find someone who wants to get married, someone who wants to have more children like I do.

I just wish it didn't come to this, that we could of worked things out. Now I need to focus on my daughter and myself. I will continue bettering myself and continue becoming the person I wish to be.

I am a strong independent woman, I got this!

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xRobin3x
12:34 Mar 29 2017

My heart goes to you to keep strong. You can do this.



Need a ear, i'm always here.

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Liliancat
13:21 Mar 29 2017

I am sorry.... I know that no matter what I say the pain will be there for some time. I am glad though that your broke up as friends although I wish you two were together. And you dont know maybe things will get fixed between you and him. Be positive dear and never give up. You are a strong woman and all will be well.

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Our place is almost done! It should be done friday of this week at the latest! I am so happy that the end is within sight. It has been a very long two months of living at my parents house. I cannot wait to be able to sit in my own house and do what ever I want to do and not have to worry about my very religious mother getting up my ass about it.

I still haven't found another job yet though, I need to get on that as soon as I am settled back into my place. I cannot stand working where I am anymore. After the sewage back up that happened on Sunday and the way they dealed with it has left a very bad taste in my mouth. They are more concerned about money than the quality of the food they are pumping out. I want to work somewhere that they actually give a shit about what they are doing and not just in it for the money.

This feeling, its consuming the entirety of who I am. I feel as if I am losing myself to the stress and anxiety that I have been feeling. I want to be whole again, I want to be the person I once was. Being displaced from my home has changed me, and not for the better. Being around people who are blood, but not family has taken its toll on me. I do not feel wanted, or valued by my mother especially. She does not value or respect me when it comes to my daughter and this hurts most of all. She goes against everything I say and do with my child. It is beginning to depress me and making me question myself and validity.