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Yes I did it again. Ruined everything. god I hate it! I just cant do anything right. If you can think of 3 things that I do right that are even remotely important...plz tell me cuz I just cant figure any out.

I LOVE HIM SO MUCH and I KNOW SOMEHOW I AM GOING TO FUCK IT UP! I WOULDNT BE ABLE TO LIVE WITHOUT HIM!!!! I AM *IN* LOVE! WHICH IS WAY MORE THAN JUST LOVING SOMEONE!!!

*bleh* I feel like shyt! and I did it again. My life is falling to pieces. I feel sick, like I am going to puke my lungs out!!! I wish I could talk to Russ....He always makes me feel better...even when he doesnt know it...I feel acomplished...I typed all of this without looking at the keyboard!!! GO ME WOOP WOOP!!! but yeah...Don't try and talk to me about y I'm sad/depressed cuz it only makes it worse and it gets on my nerves and I get all aggrivated cuz ppl won t shut up about it. When I put up the away message about being sad....that means "go away I dont want to talk" not, "plz o plz I am begging you to talk to me about my problems" come on ppl...not that hard to figure out

wow....I feel all depressed...and I have no reason for it....it sux. I hate life and my damn blades are gone so fuck it in the ass!

last night was weird....Found out that I was cheated on...that sucked...cried for ssooooooo long...I cried myself to sleep....that was a first (sarcasm) Well I gave him a 2nd chance....He better not mess it up....cuz I am serious...I do absolutly love the guy...I think I may be IN LOVE...idk...I've never felt this way before...It is gonna take sometime for me to trust him again....

Why? Why doesn't anything work for me? Why doesn't anyone love me? I can't stand it! I knowe I sound like the typical teenager but it is true. I feel like no one cares....well....Russ does... but unfortunatly I can't talk to him every second of everyday... well I guess I will go drown in my sorrow...







~Myranda~

Well...I don't know what is wrong with me....Only 1 thing is going right for me right now...and I am so scared that somehow I will fuck it all up... I just broke down and started crying...Yes another Emotional breakdown for me....Why does nothing happen at the right time? It is so hard not to carve designs into my flesh but I promised I wouldn't so I shalt not. Yesterday I was on the phone and I promised him taht I wouldn't so I went into my room, into the top drawer of my dresser and I threw all 3 blades in the trash. Seems the only thing that is going right for me now is Russ.... not that that is a bad thing because I really do love him...

OK listen to this...I was sitting in the kitchen and I said something to my mom and she goes "you know what would make me happy??" And I was like "WHAT?!" all happy like and then she goes "For you to go out with Robert".....that pisses me off so bad. I broke up with him like 4 months ago and she STILL talks about him like I am dating him....GER! UGH I HATE THAT!!!!!

Don't eat them....you WILL grown addicted!!!! I ate them last nite until my tongue was raw

Yes...I do actually like this one. His name is Russ...Yep o yep! I mean I really really like him and I feel as if we were meant to be and I feel myself falling more and more in love with the guy everytime I hear his voice...and the way I feel when he calls me "Baby" is just unexplainable. Even before we started dating I would sign on VR just to see if he was on...It is like I am spiraling down into a hole of never ending emotions....I can be in the worst mood ever and then He calls and I hear his voice and I am so happy...it's just like....wow...It's like I like him so much that I wanna cry! I mean damn I really like him

so I broke up with Jerry a while ago! (DUH!) Now I have the most wonderful guy alive!!! He is so sweet and absolutly gorgeous!I really like him A LOT! It's like everytime I hear his voice it's like....I feel weak...

Wo0o0o0o...what's up you guys....I am at skool and it is so not even fun...well...uhhh...bye!