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Most people that have talked to me, know that I hold nothing back. I try not to have secrets and I tell about myself very easily. A few years ago, I had a really bad habit. Ok so I had a few bad habits. It took me a while, but I stopped doing most of them. Sorry, but I won't stop smoking cigarettes. This weekend I was offered to do one of them again. I fought the thought long and hard, but in the end I agreed. I know, no will power. But to anyone that has never done this, you really don't know. Now, I know that what I did was bad for me, but the only apology I will give is to myself. Even though that apology is against my religion. Just to let you know, it was coke. Before you say anything, I don't need any lectures. I don't need any advice or pity or anything like that. I just needed to get this off my chest.

So a friend of mine said that I should write something happy. I thought it over and have looked at my life. Let's see, I work a lot, I live alone, and I don't really get out much. Hard to think of what to write about huh? So after some thinking, I decided to write something about her. Here goes.





Her eyes pierce through me like the sun through the clouds. Warming my body with a heat I can taste. I know I shouldn't have these thoughts, but I can almost feel her next to me when I sleep. As if she is the very essence of my dreams. My thoughts spin around minute after minute. Never knowing how I could be so lucky, like a fool in Vegas taking home the jackpot. I race to collect the stars, in hopes that I'll have a chance to give them to her. A simple hello, a sorrowful goodbye. Yet I still hold on to this dream. Could she ever see that she's touched my soul?

A fleeting moment of silence fills the air that I breath, taking it's toll on my lungs until they burn with a sense of collapsing. The sun has fallen behind the mountains leaving only the moon to light this path of darkness. A split second goes by and I can hear a crack of a twig behind me. Danger lurks. I try to sit calmly. Trying to hide any fear that might come over my soul. The presence of something growing closer as if it's stalking my scent. Closer. My heart is beating faster though I continue to attempt to remain calm. Avoiding the thought of turning around, I slowly stand and prepare to run. I can feel it breathing down my neck, like it's making an attempt to savor the salty smell of sweat. My legs won't move. It's breath beating against my ear now. Terror overwhelms me. A feeling of pleasure pushes through. Soft light breaks into my eyes. The sweat now pours down my neck, only feeding it's hunger. A sudden motion, everything goes blank.