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Late nights fade into early mornings. Drifting through the day without knowledge of what exactly I'm going to do or say. At times I wonder if I'm real at all, if I actually have a purpose or if I'm here just to be here. When nothing is what you want it to be and everything isn't apart of anything. What do you do? If I were to sit here and cry, die, or whine. What good would come from it? So instead I glide through, turned off, you might say, "Oh you have to go through this." In all reality I don't, I don't have to do anything to put it bluntly. You can't influence my thoughts or try and "make" me "feel" better if I don't feel anything at all. Plaster on a smile and pretend things are normal. So you see it's all great, I've yet to die, although I have cried. I will NOT whine. I am not the fighting type but I do have a slight way with words. Try and push at me I dare you I can not break. You can't possibly break any more when you're shattered down to an extent where numbness is welcomed and pain has lost it's sharp stings. You might ask what is wrong, you might not even give to well you know the saying. All I'll say is she's just on a vacation, I'm not sure when she'll be back. I miss her terribly but I'll see her once again. So straighten up and keep things tidy she doesn't like messes. I'll just sit here and wait for her to come walking through that door right there. It'll be soon I promise. She has to be...she's never made me wait to long before.

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YeahMhmSure
02:38 Mar 05 2013

Oh my pooor poor idiotic self...I've just reread this damned thing and I see quite a few mistakes...I apologize!

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How do I find out who's friends list I'm on because apparently I am on two of them. Any suggestions?

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Lullaby
22:48 Oct 12 2012

Buy a Premium Membership.

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DarkMuse
23:21 Oct 12 2012

I am on several peoples friends list...a lot

of people don't tell you that they added you.

Some tell me some don't, and I always ask.

Yes, you have to be a paying member to

see the list as well as others things with the

site.

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Hello!

I'm sadly still trying to under stand this site more...Although it is keeping my interest I guess I'm not on my computer as much as usual. I hope to better my profile soon. I know it is a bit without but I'm slowly getting it going. Again any help is much appreciated!

Thank you. (: