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an unknown debate.... or confusion
01:59 Jul 27 2007
Times Read: 598

do you know what its like to feel something is wrong... but have no way of conveying it?

when all you can say is nothing...

why is that an instinct, is it so you wont hurt someone... or so you wont hurt yourself?

is it covering lies with more lie?

when you tell the truth.. are you being truely honest.. or just trying to convince yourself of something else?

all these questions... is it doubting yourself?

or doubting the other persons ability to understand.. and in turn tell you the truth?

why do i feel so lost....
01:07 Jul 24 2007
Times Read: 600

seems everything that i do is not enough for anyone..

and whenever i need a friend..

not one is around.

i guess i truely am all alone....

i'm beginning to not care anymore.

i've only felt this lost once....

long ago.. but not in this lifetime..

and i remember the pain and sorrow, my sadness... is very unbearably real.

just to close my eyes and cease to exist.. it seems the only prayer i have left.

i dont want to be here anymore.

"how could you do this to me?"
04:14 Jul 19 2007
Times Read: 609








I trusted you..

I gave you all of me...

you took my heart and ran..

you raise your hand to my every opinion

to put me in my place.

The stinging pain across my cheek as i

speak my mind~ reminds me of your love

for me...

The bruises down my back and legs~

only shows me how much you care.

Laying in a hospital~ battered down and

beaten~ is all i am to you.

Buried inside a box~where you laid me

down~ told me i meant the world to you....



YOU SET ME FREE!









Music:beautiful... Tapping the Vein

Current mood: sad and angry

in a world of caos...
09:45 Jul 13 2007
Times Read: 613

in a world of caos....

how can i keep from drowning?



in lifes game of chance

i am losing... do i take a final stand?



do i take my last breath..

or exhale into my pain?



sitting back i drag the blade across my skin..

all the things i thought didnt matter rush back..



the flowing crimson makes me drowsy..

i shut my eyes as i kiss my life goodbye..



i will be remembered for what i have done..

but will they remember who i was?



my spirit ebbs into darkness..

my life is over.......







in the end i am forgotten.

as the clock winds down....
03:03 Jul 07 2007
Times Read: 617

i miss you...

i need you by my side...

to hold on to you for always.

to spend my everydays in the light of your eyes.



to spend my life eternally in your embrace,

to breath in your infinite winds...

to taste your immortal kiss.



come to me..

let me feel your skin next to mine.

let me take all of you in..

and hold you near.

i want to hear your heartbeat in my ears...



as the clock winds down

the day begins to break...

my eyes open and your not here......



my dearest love...

my other self...

my immortal beloved...