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god i hate the pharmaceutics industry!!
02:27 Mar 28 2012
Times Read: 480

i hate the fuck out you!! mother fuckers are supposed to help and all you do is make a person wallow in shit like a fucking fiend! I FUCKING HATE YOU!! for all you are. for everything you make and for making a life hell! you hope for this so that any given person will NEED your drugs. hope it breaks them so that nothing can fix them. I FUCKING HATE YOU!! I FUCKING HATE YOU!! I FUCKING HATE YOU!!



i would say go to hell, but we're already there and your just fucking helping politicians and the bullshit government keep most of us sedated cause its easier to handle us. BASTARDS!!

"Skyscraper"
04:51 Mar 15 2012
Times Read: 487




[Verse 1:]

Skies are crying, I am watching

Catching tear drops in my hands

Only silence as it's ending

Like we never had a chance

Do you have to make me feel like

There's nothing left of me?



[Chorus:]

You can take everything I have

You can break everything I am

Like I'm made of glass

Like I'm made of paper

Go on and try to tear me down

I will be rising from the ground

Like a skyscraper

Like a skyscraper



[Verse 2:]

As the smoke clears, I awaken

And untangle you from me

Would it make you feel better

To watch me while I bleed?

All my windows still are broken

But I'm standing on my feet



[Chorus:]

You can take everything I have

You can break everything I am

Like I'm made of glass

Like I'm made of paper

Go on and try to tear me down

I will be rising from the ground

Like a skyscraper

Like a skyscraper



[Bridge:]

Go run, run, run

I'm gonna stay right here,

Watch you disappear

Yeah, oh

Go run, run, run

Yeah, it's a long way down

But I am closer to the clouds up here



[Chorus:]

You can take everything I have

You can break everything I am

Like I'm made of glass

Like I'm made of paper

Oh Oh

Go on and try to tear me down

I will be rising from the ground

Like a skyscraper

Like a skyscraper



(Like a skyscraper)



Like a skyscraper

Like a skyscraper

its okay then its not...
03:53 Mar 15 2012
Times Read: 489

sometimes these ups and downs really suck... i want to get so mad and scream at the top of my lungs.... but it would be all for not. no one is listening to me anyway. the other day i wrote in this journal for the first time in a very long time.. about how i was hurt and it turned out i was wrong about everything... i misunderstood.

so i forgave and still cant forget... but oh well.

then today i dont think it was just me in a foul mood.. he was/is too... seemed like he was taking it out on my eldest daughter... would just yell at her it seemed over dumb shit. because a video game was pissing him off. was bullshit. so i started yelling at him and he at me and we both said "fuck you " to one another... i feel horrible about it but he seemed to have meant it..

i know you cant take back heated words but i feel just awful.. this sucks ass cause i cant stop crying.

its been too long...
01:21 Mar 10 2012
Times Read: 506

its been too long since i been in here,

just really writing about something that has moved me or hurt me or something that sets me a rage..

well.. i am back and i am feeling a little betrayed, lied to and very unworthy.



you know that age old story of how girl meets boy, girl falls for boy... boy pretends to like girl, and ultimately wants nothing to do with her really and tells friends how disappointed she makes him feel.. leaving girl hurt and not feeling her worth...

well i wanted to sort of vent but now.. i just want to cry cause man.. when you think that all is good, you find that its not and or someone had it out for you all along....

he changed my life.. i was thinking it was for the best but i dont guess so.

i feel like i cant do anything right to make anyone happy. my whole life i could never fit in.

with anything.

i'm sad, lonely.. hurt... and i have no one i can really talk to that will listen and understand. no one to turn to.



i keep asking why i still breath.. and i know why because of my kids... but this depression is killing me.. or atleast i sometimes wish it would.

its like a slow agonizing death.. but your not really in a sorta sense of the word...dying.

your heart is broken and bleeding yet there isnt anything you can do. it just sux... and your stuck. :o/