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Well, things are blindly good in the bad. If that makes sense? My episodes are better but bad. Explaining... I think I've regressed to where I can't really remember them as much, and my memory starting to get blotchy like it used to. Not to quite that extreme, but still, I can't remember shit. I know I'm still having my episodes, and many of them, still I have clusters. But it's like they're easier to deal with because I don't remember them as well... it's like I just remember my jaw or head violently shaking, but I don't go through the frozen, trapped, fighting, out of body feelings anymore. And sometimes I won't remember it at all, I'll just remember Derick telling me I had an episode, or that he can't sleep because I keep having episodes. I really don't know if it's good or bad. I'm still missing classes, many classes, and I'm exhausted all the time. I don't know what's going on. *sigh*