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i had to much emotion flowing through me lastnite . i saw some things that i had forgotten so long ago.I couldn't understand who it was. Who was this being i had forgotten. IT was one of those images you see but it is dark. ALl you get is the feeling . The feeling that something is missing. Mine was the memory of a particular being. I felt so much emotion running through me. I didn't want anyone to see me cry. So i ran outside into the darkness. I hit my knees and let the tears fall. It was just me and gods at this time. I spoke why can't i remember what is going on around me. That nite i went to bed to rest . I heard voices speak saying things of betrayel by a woman friend. THen of a man that i knew ages ago. Things weren't right. Then out of nowhere the dream comes i am with some man. I do not know. Short black hair and green eyes. Then he carries me to this hudge mansion that is haunted by a female ghost. I see so many others running around. Then i see blood shed. Just things that make no since to me at all. I finally come to out of this dream. I am sweating and burning up again. Thinking to myself it felt to real. I can't understand. Then i realize after i heard the voices speak in the darkness of my silent nite. That i began to lucid dream like never before. None of this has to make since.

long ago a young princess was in love with a great man. Whome was more greater then any other. He was considered a god. She herself was also like he. So sad that she never got to spend her eternal life with him. Things took another turn in the ages for her. Things that were set to prove her worthyness to the gods. A test her father and the rest braught to her attention. IF they are not passed she will never make her way home where she belongs. So she set out in her journey. Lost track of what it was she was to do. She ended up forgetting it all.

today i was sitting and thinking. I started to see images of things. Symbles of the gods. For one like an eye with two cobra shakes . One on each side. Black cobras flared out . looking directly to the eye. Then i stopped to think what is this another memory. I began to feel rush of energy go through me and saw more of what i was hopeing to soon forget. A light of the sun. Two suns that combined into a hole. THis image i was standing underneath it. I heard a voice but it was warm voice. IT shed it light upon me. ALl i could do was look up feel the warmthe the heat that didn't burn my skin. Only just made me feel at home again. Let me know that i wasn't alone that they were always watching me and protecting me. I couldnt help but look at the sun . To listen to hsi words . I stood there and he embraced me all at once. i started to cry from sadness and happiness. I see many images that come to me out of nowhere in my sleep or when awake. I know my father is truelly listening now more then ever. I know he still looks down and makes sure i am safe. He only wishes for me to do what i am here to do . As i was sent and braught back to .

I miss home much more then i have before. I keep seeing it in my dreams . I miss those that are like me. The others of the shadow world. the only person i do not see there is my father . I see everyone else my old freinds. My good freind Erias. Oh he is still a beauty. I miss him the most of all. I truelly miss being able to walk around in the light with the rest of those like me. Here on earth once more. Well maybe some day in the age that will all change. I want to just be able to show my wings and not hide them from man. We have no choice though. We are stuck in humanity it is a curse i swear . Well god has his reasons. I know maybe he will forgive my family. we were his children. Now look at us we have been casted out into the shadows. except he left me here. He gave me a chance to change things. I just hope i dont let him down. Well that is all i can say today. besides me rambling on about my dreams and memories. I rather not share it all. People will get uncomfortable with it. Some will judge you for it. Most point fingers when they truelly don't know the trueth. Open your eyes . Why would i care if you believe or not. I already know what is to come. Then when it does you all will see. Then maybe believe once more.

My soul has cried a thousand times

My eyes have seen more then one can bare

All of the wars have come and gone

still more to come



i sit and wander

i pray to the gods

to only show me what more is to come



I take my part in this chaos

as a warrior

Someone that they seem to think

will do or create great things

My life is a puzzle in this new age

i can't make out most of my memoreis

i have forgotten so many

yet hold so little dear to my heart

that i could never part



i seen the darkness

i lived in the shadows

i never have gotten what i deserved

For once rest is all i plead for



old soul

anceint times

this new age is so unreal to me



i am still trying to cope with all this technology

all of the things that have fallen for new to come

it is just a dream

or is this my reality



I am seeing so much through my eyes

i can't seem to figure out when or how or why

it all has changed

now i must find a way to deal with the new things.

my birth the nite of the eclipsed moon. I was born into this world of chaos. thousands of years that was. To my beloved mother and father. I spent my life growing up in the dark of these years. My father never around . He had his own matters to attend. As for my mother i watched her be slayn in cold blood at the age of 5. Then my father sent me away with Dorlack. Who became my gaurdian and my teacher. then became father to me. Since my father was attending his empire. We traveled alot . I spent most my times around the world. When we left my home in egypt it was for good. To never return again . My father did not want me to be killed as well like my mother. I use to blame him for not being around all my years. Yet when i grew i learned more things of love and passion. I learned how to seek revenge where it was due. During my growing years to a young lady of the great family. I remember my trip through the halls of the anceints . My father standing by my side telling me one day this is where you will rest. I never made it to my resting place. Soloman had turned against my family. He had tried his best to cause me to forget. I even went off with my gaurdians brother Cain. He became my other teacher of the dark arts. Later on in the years i became his tool. His avenger amonst all things. I was sent out to do his bidding . I eventually broke free from him. After my father got word of such mess . He sent my old gaurdian back out for me. Dorlack who was cains brother. Do to all the things that have happened and killings . Dorlack forbid Cain to ever come near me again. That he only wanted to taint my blood. Use me for his work. To birth a son that was said to be the one to bring darkness upon earth. That age is commming of the war. Yet in time only the will see . I choose no faith of darkness. Only the fate of my father. To stand by his side and make him proud. As it has been written. That i will stand in my fathers place . I am the only surviveing child. All my other relatives were killed.