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wow! it took me this damned long to actually find something real in the way of relationships...i thought so many times before that i had found the real thing, but now i know. people say that i am young to have found the real thing, but as much as i've been through...i don't feel young anymore. all i know is this time it's different. i just woke up sick from a hot flash at my friends house, damn being pregnant, and felt like ranting a little. honestly i don't think about him too much, i don' t sit and wait on him like i did with the others i thought i was in love with...i'm comfortable with him; i know he'll come to me when he feels like it. what's funny is he's the guy that no one would have ever set me up with. all my local friends know him and have known him, but they never thought to set us up. yet, i was having a very hard time with what was my current man and i happened to make a new friend that he couldn't chase off like he'd done with all the others. me and this guy talked a little since my now ex had such a bad habit of leaving me home alone, and somehow everything came out. in one night, i had told him what it normally took anywhere from six months to a year or longer for me to tell someone. we didn't make all these fantasy plans like most couples do, or like i did with every other guy, we thought things out logically. he's even maturely aware that i'm pregnant with twins. instead of "this is going to be fun" he realizes what's going on and he's thinking like me....awww shit!!! what did i get myself into!?!?!?! i don't know but for now, even if it is just me i think i can truly make it on my own for once. his help i would welcome since i can't move out and be with the guy i've been wanting to be with. we're not saying i love you or anything. we're waiting to see if it really is, because this is new to both of us. all i know is his friends and his dearset closest friend who turned out to be my blood cousin all say that they've never seen him so happy before...ever! and really, i'm not really so miserable myself. we'll see how things play out in the end...