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Damn them all!! I've just found out that the shifts I thought were ten long (hence tonight being the last, having finished number 9 last night) are in fact, 13 long... So I have another four to do!



I was drained enough to begin with, what with the fact I can't sleep with the stranger downstairs, now I find out, when I thought I could sleep the day away, I have to work another three nights on top of that.



Well that's a lie actually, I didn't 'have' to work the extra three nights, but they have no one else to cover it, so here's muggins offering His help again. This is getting repetitive...

Well, one of the people at the hotel last night was being very nice to people, even to the point of telling someone who thought they might miss their connection in dalas that they could come wait at her house for the next plane...

She had a bit too much to drink, and today is 'very' ill. The hotel is fully booked, so Me, being Me, said that if all she needed to do was sleep it out, she could rebook her flight, and come use our spare bed...

So the long and the short of it is, I have someone I've known for a couple of hours, sleeping downstairs.

*mutters* Damn morals.

I firmly believe in the 'what comes around goes around' and she was being so nice and helpful... when she was in trouble, I did the same.

Now my housemate isn't happy with the situation, I'm going to have to wait for the lady downstairs to feel better and then suggest another hotel, because there's no way the house mate will let her stay the night, let alone till friday when her plane leaves.

So really, I'm buggered at home if I don't get her to a hotel, and buggered morally if I do.



So to recap:



I've been up since 7 last night, it's 10am now, I've worked 12 hours of that time, and I'm drinking coffee and smoking again.



So 'bad morning' doesn't even cover it.

So here I am, stuck once again at work on a twelve hour shift.



For some reason I've agreed to cover the other workers rota too, so this means I'm doing ten nights straight (I'm a night supervisor at a hotel in Horley, West Sussex...) and tonight is the half way mark.



The job isn't that bad I suppose, you get to sit on here for at least some of the hours you work, it's during the night so there isn't loads of traffic going by and of course it means that most of the guests are in bed and thus not hassling you.



However, it can start to be a drain after a while, at the moment it's a case of wake up, eat and shower, go to work, come home, shower, sleep. It doesn't help that there's a fair amount of driving to and from work that eats up what little time I'd have to Myself anyway.



But in the end, it's money, and I have bills to pay and 'responsibilities' to live up to, so here I am, selling My time away for £7 an hour...



Well, that's it, rant over, you can all go on your merry way now.

Well now, isn't this interesting, I swore I'd never use one of these to try and set things down, and to this time I've kept to that, however, seeing as it works for most other people here, I'll give it the one try, let it never be said I don't try anything once.



You travel in darkness for most of your life, as a phrase I like to comment on, ignoring the face it's from a childrens cartoon; "Life is like driving at night, you can only see as far as the headlamps, but somehow, you make the whole journey that way." This is indeed how I feel, you make plans utilising the forwarning you can see in your near future, but all of a sudden something will come round the bend and throw you off the road... to continue with the metaphor.



This has happened a lot in recent months and in fact has been fairly constant for most of My life, from early betrayal (I certainly didn't see that coming) to recent redundancy (as least I had a whole weeks warning... oh the charity of the disgustingly rich...).



However, once in a lifetime, something will come round the corner that will startle you, but in a good way... or at least, you'd assume it would be good if it didn't confuse you so much...



Alas I'm not making much sense, and I think that's the point, it's a good reflection of the state of My mind at the moment, whether that's down to the 39 odd hours without sleep whilst constantly being active (in a way.. though fatigue is starting to result in those little 'flash hallucinations' that appear in the corner of your eye... most annoying) or whether it's a complete mental and emotional enigma is yet to be discovered.



I think what I'm saying is, I've had that moment when I see the headlights from the other way, and you stop and stare because you can't help it. You're drawn in like a moth to the flame, and I fear perhaps with similar results. But who knows, it could more be like bee's to nectar... the analogy is really not the point though.



I think I've rambled enough, without any real success in getting across the point. So I'll leave it here.

Well, I've made it to the second level, now when I find the time after trying to sort out this portfolio thing and talking to all the interesting people here, I'll have to dive into the forums.

Blimey, here I was saying that I won't post in here often, and the very next day I'm back again. That's just wierd...



Well, I've met many nice people, and for everyone that doesn't reply to a message there's at least one that does, which is a nice change. Currently I'm looking for work at the same time as bouncing around here, it makes it a lot easier to deal with the 'no work no work no work' you get from all the agencies if you then click back onto VR to find a message waiting from a lovely person (You know who you are.).



My only worry now is, I'm an Admin member on a roleplay community, and so I have a lot to get done over there... hope I don't spend so much time on here I end up neglecting My poor minions! *grins*

Take care all!

Well now isn't this interesting? Just ambling around on the internet, trying to find a V:TM site to show a potential addition to My group, and here I come across this place, a shrine to all things vampiric and the people that have the interests in that and similar areas.



Normally, you'd find these sorts of places very close knit, taking months or even years to work your way into actually being able to talk to them, but here, all I do is sign in and get quite a few friendly greetings, I must say I was a little taken aback, but in a nice way.



A small warning, I'm terrible at keeping journals up to date, and it's likely that only when I'm on in the small dark hours deep in thought will I right something out on here, just so I can read it and make sense of something, so if dark and ultimately inane dibble pours forth in the pages that follow, you were warned. My mind is a very strange place, enter at your own risk.