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My mom and I got into it last night.... over the stupidest shit... she wouldnt let me go to this concert... and I was cool with that but she brought Anthony up in the convo somewhere and I am so mad at her because she never lets me go and see him and it makes me and him feel bad. we've been getting closer and we've been talking things out... its made me feel closer to him. right now I am working on scholarships and stuff.... I am over at a friend's house right now... but when I get home, I have some new pics. to add to my portfolio... my friend is asleep lol. There is so much going on right now... oh by the way! My uncle was not found guilty on the charged assalt and battery! I am so so happy! And I still have yet to hear from my daddy... but oh well... hopefully I will soon. Been stuck on Catiff for quite a while, hope I can go up a level today? Ill be in the forums if yaz need me lol. byez

What is the true meaning to live but to die? I am so sick of everyone's bullshit... and I am sick of these god damn pills! 6 god damn pills a day! Just because I am not a normal person... but what is normal? Who gives a rat's ass?! I am sick of people telling the god damn counslor at school that I am cutting myself when Im not stupid ass mother fucker, I know who ya are too! Bitch! Mosh pit happened at school today, fucking awesome! Happy 4/20 everybody by tha way... and yea, and Anthony didnt come to school today, he bitched at me yet again over the phone.... I cant have one god damn conversation with him without him bitching at me about something but he seriously needs to recognize! My friend is gonna be moving to NC very soon.... I am not allowed to talk to Jeff nemore which is fucking pissing me off cause neither one of us did nething! I mean god damn! Hes the only damn person I can tell nething and he's about fed up with his aunt too. Im two seconds away from calling her and bitching her out... she just wait! I'll jinx her lil ass.... hell I dont fucking care about 3 fold ne god damn more because all of my life all I have sent out are positve tributes and what do I get in return? A rat's ass and a half! Thats it! I swear Im about to fucking lose my god damn mind! I dont know what Im going to do! oh my fucking god! I dont know but I am so pissed right now that I am shaking and having a nervous breakdown so I g2g. bye

Another day another lesson.

Well now... cant say today was all fun. Went to school, loads of makeup work, got most of it done, but still a lot more to do. felt light all day. not high, just light. India missed me a lot. She was mad at me for not going to school. But I couldnt go.. I was too damn depressed. Anthony hasnt went for the past 3 days... he's been sick. But I've been talking to him on the phone and he misses me a lot. I still dunno what the hell Imma do about Jeff and Randy. I really like Jeff but I am perfectly happy and settled with Anthony at this current time, but he is convinced that he will break up with me soon. I dont think so. I felt kinda ignored and pushed aside at school today, but hell, im used to it. I signed up for my classes for next year... forgot to sign up 4 Drivers Ed. though... stupid me... but anyways... hate my life right now, but the 2 things that are perfect, I really dont wanna fuck up so Im looking on the bright sides lately.

Mom and I planted some herbs for my studies in Wicca. She gave me a new Athame, I'll take a picture of it later... probably not today though cause Im not in the mood. And I'll have to take a picture of the art "repeditive design" picture I drew and colored and yea... but I guess that that is all for today? byez

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Greetings all. I stayed home again today. I am going to school tomorrow though. I just felt kinda weak today ... I think mom is taking me walking to get some flowers and stuff for my recipes in Wicca today. If she does I will prolly write about it tomorrow. I feel really heavy and tired today and I am gonna have so much make up work tomorrow.... GRR!!! But I can handle it. I dont think that I can handle my brother though. But whatever. Me and Jeff are going through a lot. I started likeing him and he started likeing him...which sux because I am going out with Anthony but I am staying with Anthony...Jeff wants to stop talking to me so that he dosnt interfere with me and Anthony, but I need to talk to Jeff to keep me from doing stupid shit... Randy is still in love with me and I really dont know what to do about him... but I guess that time will tell.

-+NiBbLeZ n BiTeZ+-

Hey all. I stayed home from school today so I didnt have to see Anthony... I cut my wrists and I kinda accedently told him... and he was very upset...he didnt break up with me or anything but he punished me... he said that I couldnt take contact with him for one day and I have to earn his trust back... sux. But yea, I faked being sick today and probably wont go tomorrow ... I went and over dosed on a bunch of pills... I was all torn up. but I guess that I am kinda okay ... I can barely stay awake... but yea... Anthony is sick too and he's prolly not going to school tomorrow either so I prolly wont too. but yea.... talk to ya soon bye

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Yesterday was awesome... Im kinda sore though because Anthony came home but he came to see me and he bit me like 4 times... but I asked him to! lol... Im kinda tired today... he didnt come to school but its all cool. My dumbass brother wouldnt leave us alone so I just made out with him anyway then my lil bro ran off somewhere, lol. but today went by so totally slow... I want to finish my damn insence burner that I made in art class, my teacher said I should get to paint/glaze it by the end of the week along with my pot that I made (all out of clay btw...) I will take a picture with them when I finish them and get to bring them home... they are so awesome... my grandma took me out Sat. to go shopping, spent over 100 dollars on me... but yea, I didnt complain hell lol. I added some new pics in my Portfolio today also, I hope that you all go and check those out... I think that India is mad at me, I dont know, just, everything was too quiet in school today... something really bad is going to happen before the end of the week... I feel it. I found 2 websites that I have to update my profliles on, so I kinda have like 5 profiles now. lol, no not all on one site, each one is on a different site from being member and all... well, Imma go, kinda tired of typing and you guys probably never read these but w.e.... byez

-+NiBbLeZ n BiTeZ+-

Last night suxed ass. I went skating and a bunch of black people were fucking around with me and made me fall and crack my ass on the floor. I tore up my foot... man it hurts... but yea... today rox. I got up, I might be in excrutiating pain...I went to the mall with my grandma and spent over 100 dollars but it was so much fun... I got mom to at least agree to allow Anthony to come and see me tomorrow since I cant go to his house and see him because according to her, he has to win back her respect for dumping me and causing me to have a nervous break down at school and all... but yea, thats all that I feel like typing 2day. byez