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i can feel the pressures of life weighing on my back as if it was the world itself too many questions in my head and not enough answers. will you be able to have money for your wedding? I dont know but i know just being married to the person i love will be beautiful enough for me....will i be a good wife? i cant say but i can at least love him and try...do you ever still think you're not good enough; for yourself or anyone else? i'll admit it yes because im not going to lie...lieing gets you no where till the day you die and i try not to focus on these things because when i do i feel like im starting to crack again......but i have to gather my strength i dont want to fall away to a place where no one can reach me, a place where i feel no one is really listening for my pathetic cries for help and a place so so where i felt so cold and alone even with everyone near........this time will be diffrent and i wont give in...instead of cutting myself ill write it down in ink and give the blood shed some rest....instead of being the emotionless robot ill let it out more before i just run away because i wont let the pressure get me.....no.....not again

an baby of the group with eyes that are brown and plain so many things she has seen with them that shell never be the same. her hair can be black as night and the next day change with the wind , she might be diffrent and the odd one out but still inside her heart beats just like yours. she the one thats learned her lessons and kept them with her well at times has a face so innocent can hurt you to get her first, she the one with a body thats younge but a mind and soul that seem to be old, she's the thats up for having a good time but i also more grown up then a few years ago and also she is me.....and as the seasons change my love for one man wont. as my heart still feels hurt it will never stop mending and as people around me try to act better i leave no speech, no sentence and word to slip off my tounge i leave them with only themsleves to answer their own stupid questions