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"Why don't you think 

the way you should?" 

Even if I was able

I'm not sure I would. 



The mind of a dreamer 

is the one I've got 

I'd rather be me 

than a social robot 



"Why you gotta be this way?" 

"Why you gotta read that book?" 

"Why you gotta write that story?"

"Why you gotta get that look...?" 



"You get that look in your eyes 

like you're not even here. 

It's like you've be in dreamland 

this entire year!" 



That's because I have 

been in a whole differant place. 

With no map to follow. 

No tracks to trace. 



You can't find me there 

and you never will 

You're too attached to this world 

and never sit still. 



Honestly, I don't want you there 

You'd be in my way

saying, "Stop using your mind!" 

"it's nerdy and gay!" 



But I don't care what you think 

'Cause I'll always know 

In the back of my mind 

there's a place I can go. 



I pity you, really.

You're stuck to the ground 

as I float in the air 

never to be found.

This dark shadow,

that blocks the light.

This dark veil,

the shields the night.



My emotions a drape,

that hides my soul.

My dark deep thoughts,

stay un-told.



The tear that streaks,

down my face.

All alone,

crying in this dark place.



Must you lie,

in whispers in my ear?

I want to die,

as I sit here.

Drama;

Silence;

Who wants violence?

Dark dreams;

Evil screams.

Hold on strong.

The fight is nearly gone.

Fighting to breath. 

Fighting to see.

It's hard to believe this is me.



I never saw myself falling to the blade,

But in the end this is how I'm paid.

Suffering from tears.

Torn from fears.

All I know,

I'm not sure why I'm here.



Told to live, 

But living a lie.

Stuck in a place were everyone wants me to die.

Hurt and confused.

Broken and bruised,

Not sure what to do,

But I will fight till I can't move.

This is what I must do

Glaring into my eyes 

That devilish grin 

I'll wipe it off your face  Committing 

my first sin 

Dragged into the tower 

The place where you'll rot 

I tighten the noose 

And as you struggle, I'll watch 

I am your nightmare 

Finding the fortunes that I sought 

I've been in your head for days 

You wouldn't believe the dreams that I've caught 



I am the end of you 

There is nothing worse than me 

Fear me 

How dare you pick the fruit from my tree 

I don't want much 

I only want to see you die 

Your mouth sewn shut 

I send you to Hell with a lie 



Forcing myself into your head 

I have all possession 

What's a funeral with no body? 

You are my possession 



You say I'm doing wrong 

But I'm only dealing what you deserve 

I may attend your funeral 

But I won't say a word 



While the foolish ones speak of how you turned darkness into day 

I'll reach to my heart and remember this pain 

The pain you've given me 

The way you haunt my dreams 

The way you've drained my pride and all self-esteem 

Dancing on your grave 

Endure the affliction 

I've buried you three feet 

You're not worth the tradition so stop hatin on me

I rather hurt myself than hurt you... 



There's so much I could do 

There's so much I coud say 

But it won't turn back time 

I wish it worked that way 



I feel so undefined 

I feel unaccomplished 

I wanted to make you proud 

That's the only thing I wished 



I feel nobody knows me 

I lie about the things I do 

I'm so ashamed 

I wish they weren't true 



I rather hurt myself 

than hurt you 



If I told you the truth 

Would you accept me with open arms? 

Hold me like you used to? 

As if I had done no harm? 



It hurts so much 

Hiding from me 

Trying to be something 

I know I cannot be 



There's so much I could tell you 

But it just wouldn't feel right 

I'd rather deal with all the shame 

And cry myself to sleep at night 



I rather hurt myself 

than hurt you...