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i am ttired of where i m ........ and i am very much so ready for it all to end..... i do not want to be here do not even care if it means i have to move back into my parents house that is fine with me.....i think every one was right i am not ready for this

doing the things you promised never to do can make things hard...... it hurts and honestly makes you look at your self in a new shade of light...... the reasons behind these choices may be very good and it may just be the right thing to do but it does not change the fact that you did something that you said you would never do breaking just another silly promis that you should haver made but a promis none the less.....

well yes it was a new day...... full of all of the same shit......... work was gay i took a long drive that is really all.... but it happens to the best of us........ i learned new shit at work..... but it turns out to be what i knew before...... i hate it.... the end.... yea for me

well i know that it looks like i never do any thing other than sit and mope and whine that i am depressed...(or how ever you spell it) but i just cannot stand to sit here doing nothing for days on end...... i never write any thing cheefulland happy in here simply becuse when i am out having fun i dont even think about my computer..... i just miss every thing and eery one so much.......... i never thought movng and living by my self would be so damn bad...... i wish that i could do somethng.... i need to find anther hobbie or something........ i just...... i dont know i am to the point i have no modavation to do any thing any more.......

why is it you always hurt the one that you love? honestly i could not tll you why i do it....... one second i am as hhappy asi think i an possibablly be and have all that i ever wat and will ever need......... th next i want nothing to do with no one and nothing....... but not shorty after i have that i want back what i gave up to have it...... and it goes on and on in to a endless aybss of hurt and tears..... i just hope that one day i may be able to over come every thing..... and finally can settle down........ be happy with some one

well i really do not know what i am going to do we dont have another class to take till august....... and i can not wrok any over time because of my age........... idso not think i am going to be able to stad it...... i mean fre time is nice when you actually have some thing to go do or some one to hang out with or even the money to go do some thing but i hav nothing that is on that list above....... and the money problem is only going to be gettin worse and worse as the months rool by i am not making shit for money!!!!! and i have alot that i am going to have to pay for...... i just do not know what i am going to do ........ there is only so much that you can clea befor you sstop finding dirt!!!!! yes i gt deppressed so i cleaned.... not only did i clean i scrubbed....... the ath room the flor the kitchen the fridge the walls every thing........... i do not even know what i am going to do next........ it is only 642 where i am i have alot of time befor i am actually going to want to go to bed........ i am so tired of being alone but i moved in to a town where every one thinks that they are better than yu it makes me want to beat them down in their tracks...... s i do not for see me making a friend here or a whie!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i am so tired of being stuck in this little appart ment my myself..... i know no one so there really is not alot to go and do ....... and i do not realy want to go and eat by myself.... or any thing else like that..... i mean i some what talk to a couple of peple in my classes but that is it really it i talk to them in class or there is one that i work with but that is really it...... all i have really done for the last week is go to class or work then i come home and i sit on my computer..... wich was not that bad for the first two days but i am starting to get board with that as well.... and as far as sitting o the phone....... i just makes me feel more alone that i already do...... because every one has something new going on and i am just here....... i do not know i guess i will figure something out..... i hope so soon.....

well have finnally mmoved out of my parents house....... i guess i cant really say finnaly... i am only 16..... it is not as great as i though it would be..... it doesnt help that i moved to a town where i know no one and nothing to go to collage...... but what else is there to do when you finish highschool two yaers early right?....