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And what of our not so broad minds. Always we seek the truth of life, and God, and any question that may arrive in our not so perfect world. People forget to dream of the impossible that goes unexplained in every day occurrences, but search to prove it reliable or a figment of one persons warped mind. For if we knew the answers to all of lies questions what would that make us. All robots, identical in every aspect of life, for no one could surpass another for we all would do the same job, make love the same way, and even dress the same way. In this case no matter where you looked in a vast open space you would initially see yourself. How far can a mind go gaining knowledge that it eventually shuts down like a computer that is surged with too much electricity, or before the human mind falters causing the human race to go insane in a not so insane world.

Death among all other acts that we encounter in life is the one that we all fear the most. Why, for we do not understand its purpose or meaning that holds on us. Death is always been dark, cruel and the very potential of all evil. Death is always around no matter where you look. For it covers the pages of our newspapers, television sets, or even the loved one’s that our dear to our hearts. We try to come to grasps with this act of god, but yet we are still uneasy and turn away to the talking of death. Death should be realized as a possible new beginning in our lives. For we believe that heaven does exist, or another plane were our souls venture too live out our lives once more. Yet we are all afraid to die for we do not know what lies behind that total black obis. I have come to terms with death, for I have seen its face and the many aspects of it’s coat. Working in a cemetery and morgue has given me a sight which I hold within myself For in fact, I to am scared of the face of death yet come to except it on it’s terms. But as long as I breathe and live my life, I will try to do everything that I possibly can. For as when I sit at 90 years old in my rocking chair and look back at the life that I have done; I don’t want to ever hear me say “I wish I would have done this or done it different.”

But these are my feelings of how they may come to pass. For within my soul I’m a very emotional person, and I’m here to help those that I hold dear to me, Yet in my life, I have met with bouts of all of this and come to realize that this not a perfect world.. Yet I push on with my life trying to make it the best I could possibly do., No matter the tragedy that has come to pass, I have dealt with it and moved on to the new tomorrow. I have crawled within myself many times for this outside world scares me and makes me feel less than human sometimes. Yet I try to hold my head high and dream of a perfect life in the near future.

How can so much love also bring the hurt within our souls? This has always baffled me in the sense of no acknowledgement. For are we puzzled by the way the other is treated in the fact of more friends, better job, or just ethically correct in society. For not every person is created equal and they do have flaws. That’s what makes us so unique among the others. Few shall achieve stature or riches that others may never obtain. So do we ridicule these individuals or do we except them the way they are. Some have hidden troubles within their minds and can’t cope with situations that may arise. I have been told that since me and my mother had shared no love between us that my idea of women will always be compounded for I don’t respect them, or show the anger of my mother at them. This has confused me several times that I was told this, Yet in my mind, I feel that this is right to a certain point. For I am very protective of my emotions towards the opposite sex and they have to prove the love in their soul is the love that they say is there. For I don’t trust them totally by the words that are spoke only the love that they show me. I felt if I was never truly loved as a child and my idea of a strong relationship is filled with the love of the centuries that nothing in this green earth would ever destroy. By this I mean the closeness of the family, doing things together, Love when we are together