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i'm tall and tiny

thin and fat

also smart and stupid

In all i'm everything

Just what i don't want

But also a person

who is what she likes.

i am the road to walk on

the stones beneath your feet

and i'm pleased to carry you

my sweet , to keep you far from dirt



i am the air you breath in

the smell as a new born day

and i'm pleased i can fill

your lungs now, fresh and clear.



i am the sun who lightened

your environment

to prefend to hurt your feet

for you no harm or scratch.

What can i write to draw your attention?

must i write sweet?

or mean?

how can i show my love.



By kissing your moth?

or kicking your ass?

what can i do

so that you see me?



Must i yell?

or whisper?

call you sweet names?

or must i be mean?



i can't forget you

even if i want it

you are in my head

i wish i had no head.

What if we could speak all the same language. If we had all the same amount of brains the same pronunciation. That all the words had the same meening. There would never be made mistakes because we don't understood each other corectly. Even when we speak the language it goes easily wrong. Therefore it is easy when we all have the same education. The same childhood. The same chances and opportunities. I even think that wars and conflics shall reduce.



But what a boring world. All the same and all equal.



So i say not all the same. But who want to be the less?

i read today in the newspaper

that a young girl

jumpt for a train

she carried a letter

she was lonely



the policeman told this

with tears in his voice

he's still dreaming

from this girl while he is retyred



i feel some shame

i live my life

and never see

the other as a human



i see some forms

and quick i live

and never are those forms

a human form



but now i read

this small story her

i stopped and feel

some shame for how i live



but i also know

that after some time

i forgot to know

what i've now said



And all you people here

remember me to love you all

and stop for you so that i see

a human form which i can meet



and when we do that

all the same then

some of us shall then be saved

from forms of air and dangerous trains

i wish that i could love you

with a love you saw

a love that you could understand

not a love what take s but gives



i wish i could write a book

what people like to read

to stay up, written so clever

that sleep evaporate



i wish i could heal the people

inside their wounded soul

that i could use some words

to make them whole again



i wish i could understand you

even i'm not agreed with you at all

that i smilded because i understand you

and love you even more



i wish i could protect the younger

against themself and the world

to understand them how to live then

and grow old with a happy soul



i wish, i wish, i wish

its not enough for all

i stop with wishes

for now its weekend

and i wand to DO for what i wish for you

to night the wind was strong

and my form was shade

not strong enough to

held against this wind



at first i choose to fight

i hit the wind

shade against the wind

but i lost



and when i was exhausted

i give up this fight

i whisperd take me then

and let me flow



the wind take me up

and brought me high

i saw the world in shadow and in night

and i rested in its arms



and it told me the story of the world

what it saw and what it heared

on its journy around the world

always going, without rest



without soul it told me

that when it saw what people

caused that it was happy to be the wind

and not a human soul



it told me that occasionally

it cleared the world

by storm and rain

that all those parts begun unused



and i was glad i lost the fight

because i learned why wind excist

it clears my head and sometimes more

and i can start as new

i’m a shade

a nothing, but still I’m there

a shadow in the sky

a wind in the air

a nothing

but it’s a process

to get more

so now I’m from "spoke" to "shadow".

almost a solid form

maybe you can’t see me, but then its dark

but in the sun and light

i'm a SHADE

i stood there, surprised

there was a daffodil alone

but with a beauty more

then I can say

it stood there, proud and perfect

and I saw, the daffodil knows

that it was a pretty one

and there was no shame at all

it stringent his stem

and coloured the grass.

When i reach the highest ranks her, does that mean that i'm immortal? That my thoughts always excist even when im gone? And is that a blessing for you? Its nice for me, but for you? Does that means that it's good that we are mortals? Imagine that every thouht, good or bad, should excist as a kind of monument. Make that a better world where we in living?

And now its 2007. what could i have done with those 100 hours in 2006. Help people or help myself (with this site). i could make soup for the old or the home-less. Work for children who has nothing.

But i need also time to learn, to think, to visit sites like this. For entertainment, for joy, for all those useless things to empty my mind.

And then, maybe, i can help others.