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last nite was the worst night of my life I had a cousin that was trying to runa way from home and freind going to kill his self over me and ready to tear his realationship up with his be with me. So what am I to do either way I lose and I can't give up so if this is what a therapist has to live with day from day I don't know if I can handle it. Maybe because I care to much but you never know maybe this is the pourpose of me being put on the Earth to help these people.

do u ever think ur not meant to be with someone ur suppost to be alone thats how i feel today every time i fall in love something goes wrong

here lately I've been thinking and looking back on my life and who I am and for some reason I feel like something is missing and all the time I feel like something is in my throat that wants to comje out put I keep choakin on it I just want to be alone I feel crowded I don't know why or whats wrong with me my chest feels heavy all the time I'm going through changes and hopefully for the better either way everything happens for a reason its just a scary feeling

tonight im going to play playstation I haven't played in years (except when I palyed with my boyfreind) I really haven't had time to just sit down and relax but today I'm going to make sure I take the time to do what I wnt to do. I don't know what I'm going to play maybe tomeraider (the newst one) (chris ur so gonna play with me and Jacob if your staying the night which you are cuz I said so...lol) But tonight is going to be fun

hear lately I have been super lazy (not really lazy but tired) of school I'm used to doing everything early and I went from straight A's to B's and C's and I know most would say thats still good but try saying that to my mother who knows I'm smart enough to make straight A's I guess I need to try harder.

it seems like every time I look around someone else is wanting me to help them even people who has never seen me before. I don't get why people think I have the soultions to every problem out there. I mean I don't mind helping people I actaully like helping people. But some of the problems they could fix their selfs. I guess I'm put on Earth to help people. Like I always say everything happens for a purpose.

today my freind that wants to hurt hisself found out that he isn't the daddy of some girl's bay who he thought he was. That is good news to him but also to me because thats one less thing on his worried mind. So yea yea yea

i got this friend who wants to end his life but i'm trying o help him for the simple fact he says im the only one he trust (includin chris) but sometimes im scared I might say or do the wrong thing and miss things up. I feel like his life is in my hands and i have to make the calls to save it like im in a game or something. I guess this chapter in my life will teach my something as everything does because i believe everything happens for a reason even if it seems horriable at 1st it really happen to teach us soemthing or give us something out of it. So all i can do is try to be his freind and be truthful to him and maybe he'll get rhe bigger picture in life.

well let me see where to get started last night i put a hole n my foot so now i have to wobble everywhere n i stayed up talking to a friend who really needs to understand he has a purpose in this world. Then I wake up to find my ex is pouring posion in my lover's ears (even though I know he believes me i still sucks) I hate school and hated it more when i have no sleep to go on. Then my freind breaks up with my cousin and they said mean things to each other and my friend got upset n he is known to 4 hurtin hiself n i lost contact with him(I finally got a hold of him) I guess these bad things that happen to us is a test of character and makes us stronger. Im just gratful at the end of the day I still have my Booboo(or mr patoto head) Any i ahve my health and a loving caring family(who get on my nerves somethimes) thats all I need in this liofe

my cousin has a stalker person on here that thinks they go out and since i just got her hooked up with a real person i think she needs to break up with him. But she is scared of hurting his feelings and i think the truth needs to be told no matter what the outcome is. So i took the matter in my own hands and told him she needed to talk to him and made her tell him. A mater of fact as I write this she is typing her farewell letter to him now. I might be wrong but I think it s hurts more then when ur played for a fool and lied too. What do u think?

yeaterday i got to play match maker with my beloved lil sissy and my cousin i got them hooked up with 2 of chris's freinds. But the question is how long will they survive? I guess will find out won't we.

me and my boyfiend(who is probaly reading this) have made it past a MONTH NOW and have only fought once and that for me is a super good thing. I don't know what it is about him but I feel safe with him and i could see myself with him for a very long time (You know wut i mean chris) And I thought i was the kind of person who couldn't do relationshops. But I guess I just didn't find the right person until now.