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so yeah i'm pissed off because i went to school today (and well if you don't know me,i haven't been to school for a while cause i got kicked out)so they called my dad yesterday saying that i had to go see some psychologist at the school which i think is stupid because i got kicked out that fucking school like 7 or 8 months ago but my dad had to go to and well i just went so that i wouldn't here my dad bitch but sure enough he did.so anyways the fucking psychologist was asking me questions he told me 'are you gay? ' i said not i'm bi' then he said 'how do you know if your bi?' and i told him i've knew since i was small so anyways the point was that he was fucking rude and he pretty much just said if your gay it's a disease that you have that goes around like a cold fuck him

so yeah lately i haven't been feeling good i've been having mixed emotions which sucks but the part that sucks more is that i'm starting to feel like i did before i started counseling. i'm letting people walk all over me again and i don't want to talk to anyone anymore. i'm tired of it. i can't think of anything .i have no emotions once again.i'm empty and i hope i don't start feeling suicidal again.the inner darkness inside of me is starting to take over my life once again and i can't do anything about it besides wait until it comsumes me once again and once that darkness comes back it's going to destroy my life as it has before but i can't wait until it does because the evil butterfly inside me is going to come and be one of the evil sides of me that i haven't seen for a long time.i'm not in school anymore and i don't have anything to live for. all my life has been a waste of time as i always pictured .







but anyways this is all i'm going to write right now