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The honest answer is I don't know... Now why don't I know??? well---





Its kinda hard to know what the hell I am feeling, cause I am not feeling...... I know that I love you cause I care for you, and there are damn few people that I care about... better example.... Look through a thick fog... I can make out the outlines of only a few emotions, I cant actually see/feel them.... And I am pretty much guessing at what they are.... but there is a difference...



But no... right now I dont care. I really don't give a damn about much of anything right now... School... fuck it... eating.... fuck it... work... well I need to work and I want to work but all in all, fuck it, I don't care where I work or what I am doing.... video games... great distraction, but I don't give a damn, a game is a game is a game...



about the only thing that I can actually feel right now is frustration and anger... I'm not sure why, but I would guess its cause anger is in the core of my being, and frustrating is extremely mild anger... But no happy, no sad, no pain (emotional),no fear, no anxiety....



So yeah... there is my state of mind in a nut shell....







Told you guys I was gonna be an ass.... Now you know why

Hey guys, sorry its been so long since I have wrote on here. Nothing personal, I just haven't had the drive to have people know what I think like I used to. However, that is going to start to change again... I have been nice on here, I have been mean on here, and I have been silent on here. Well I think that my silent days are coming to an end again. If I start getting on here and start posting and reading and things of that nature, then people are not going to like me. In my present state of mind, I am not a nice bastard, just ask Tiff. Alot of you are gonna be wondering who the fuck I am and where did the person you all used to know go... Well, its still me, I just won't censor my type, whether that leaves me with less friends, so be it. At this point I wouldn't be suprised if I got banned from the site, kicked out of the house and had my computer smashed to pieces...



I have been hiding some masty thoughts about people. Well, I am gonna start putting them on here. I will be using fake names, or just initials, so many of you will not know who I am talking about, and I am not going to explain, just know that said individuals have seriously pissed me off...



Welcome to my dark corner of HELL

anyone have any ideas where I can get materials cheap or where I can find patterns or anything on the like... I have ideas, I am starting to do some things, but I need more, I want more..... Ahhhhhhhh