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I'm hurt all the time

I just want someone to hold me .

I'm alone in the dark,

If no one cares I don't see the point going on.

I just don't want to be alone anymore,

I'm scared, can no one hear me ?

Is there anyone out there who cares?

I just want someone to take me away from all this misery

and put all the pain away .

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Loki1313
22:01 Nov 03 2011

Pain let's you know you are alive. But no one needs misery. I'm around if you want to talk.

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As I was walking down a street

through the broken slums.

I begin to hear some horrible sounds,

Coming from a crumbled home.

I didn't want to venture there,

But the sounds drew me in.

Where I saw something so evil,it must have been sin.

Its face was a jumble of freakish teeth,

With a black tongue that silvered.

Over two blank red eyes beneath,

Then the red eyes became alive.

And somehow forced me to stare at them,



In those eyes I saw unbearable things.

Of people being ripped apart,

Of drinking blood and eating of gore.

Then I was thrown into it's jaws,

By some unknown force.

That felt like gnarled claws,

After much pain and ripping sounds.

I was cast into the cold abyss,

Alone and forgotten mold.

I think I know what gave me fright,

What killed and tortured I think

that fear it's self murdered me tonight.

Do you know how much you mean to me ?

How special you are?

I care about you so much

You are the reason I breathe.

I can't imagine my life without you

You ease my pain.

Without you I have nothing

The truth is that I love you and I always will.

If you did not exist life would have no meaning

there would be no reason for me to live.

You mean everything to me

You're the only good thing in my life.

I was taught never to love.

But how can I ?

How can I resist?

When your right there

Caressing me in your arms?

Even though I know it'll never last

But I want to love you.

And I won't let myself

And it scares me half to death.

We look upon the canvas

Them peering over my shoulders

With their beady judgmental eyes.

Judgmental eyes they stare.

Blue,brown and green they are all black to me.

At the white of my work.

Not seeing what I see on that easel there.

Those eyes dark and glowing they scoff

With their narrow minded owners.

Can not grasp the meaning

Can not reach this understanding.

The impossibility of them getting there

Seems too much for those eyes.

Eyes black they glare

Wonder why the white is there.

Why the blank that is here ?

Not to grasp, not to understand

As they try to place the blame

White and blank are not one and the same.

Who are you ?

Who lies behind your cold vacant stare?

They stare you reserve for me

the glances you give me

that last a second

but could speak volumes.

Words not dared to be spoken

word furiously denied

I need a glimpse of something

a flicker of hope

that I won't

be running into this brick wall

forever

Because I am tired

of the treadmill

I'm tired

of giving so much

and getting so little

I'm tired of you

and terrified of becoming

you

who you think I am

you will not define me

you will not box me in

Because putting me down

is all you have

stifling my light

doesn't make you brighter

it makes you small

and pathetic

and weak

I will shine in spite of you

I will not let your plague

spread to me

corrupt me

I will not treat others

the way you treated me

because you have gone down a path

that I choose not to take

You got to choose

light or

darkness

and during some cold night

you decided that life

wasn't worth the fight

you succumbed to the darkness

folded into the night

I am the light

and I scare you



For I will only know I will not become you.