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Your words are so delicate

So beautiful

So sweet.

They cover my heart in a warm blanket

That somehow seeps through the iron walls surrounding.

I don't want this

I don't want this.

After that day all I had was myself

But I don't want it to be that way.

I don't want to be alone.

But do I want you?

Yes, I do.

But I can't risk another broken heart.

I'm afraid to give you a second chance.

I don't want this

I don't want this.

My heart screams inside

The pain pounding in my ears

Ringing in my skull.

I pretend to be happy though I am dying inside.

I feel so stupid

To believe all those lies.

But each day I fall for them again and again.

I don't want this

I don't want this.

I only wish I could tell you how I feel.

But my words are forbidden

A burden they would be on your soul.

On your mind.

On your heart.

I don't want this

I don't want this.

I only wish you would tell me how you feel.

You confuse me each day with your words.

You have another

Yet you confess these things day by day.

I wonder if you miss me.

I wonder if you even care for me like you used to.

But I think no, you don't.

If you did, would you ever have left in the first place?

Would you ever have found another.

I don't want this

I don't want this.

I want to say

Make your choice

But I could never do that to you.

I want to say

I love you

I love you

But I could never do that to you.

I want to tell you

That there will never be anyone like you

That you are my only one

But I could never do that to you.

And even so

I still want you to choose

But even then

I don't.

I don't need proof that I am no longer your only one.

I don't want this.

I don't want this.

i am the wallpaper

the uglyness is consuming

i cling to the only thing i've ever known

wood

people walk in

i go unnoticed

i will be painted over

i will be replaced

no one will ever know

that i was there

that wallpaper

perfect white

with small little roses

i have turned yellow

and cracked

faded

and dry

so invisible

i will be painted over

i will be replaced

no one will ever know

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BadMoonRising
04:24 Dec 14 2010

being invisible....is that a good thing or a bad thing??

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a heart whole

is a heart anonymous

looking through windows

cracks

openings

eyes wide open

though never quite seeing



a heart whole

is a heart stationary

standing in a park

museum

monument

watching people pass by

though never passing with them



a heart whole

is a heart untouched

no scratches

fingerprints

cracks

available to touch

though never being handled



a heart whole

is a heart light

nothing heavy

burdensome

weighting

made of feathers

though never flying



a heart broken

cracked

shattered

shot

is a heart real

looking and always seeing

watching and always passing with others

available and always handled

made of feathers and always strong as stone



a heart such as this

is always fixed

though never whole

and it is always the cracks

holes

scratches

that remain when repaired



a heart fixed

is a heart renewed

looking for new things to see

watching for new people to pass with

available to new touch

light and heavy at the same time.