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There isn't a holiday she can't ruin or a heart she can't break. She's beauty at its peak and yet her wickedness is so concentrated it's imprinted in everything she touches, with one glance a city can crumble and with one word she can convince an angel to kill a mortal... She's invincible, undestructable & I love her so. Inside my organs are grinding, my brain is rebelling and my emotions are running ramped amongst a sea of uncertainty. What could I do? Adoring her is my greatest sin, and this agony is the punishment...Is it worth it? Oh yes...Because the suffering is the same with or without her grinning at me in this ambivalence moment. Why won't she kiss me just once, is she afraid my blood-pumper will bust? Does she fancy making me her prey, her slave? Is there another way I must behave? My tears are burning my flesh, my cheek look lashed and I've become so complicated that I hardly recognize my reflection in the mirror. My skin has all but paled, my weight is lost and appetite seems gone too, everything I do I do for her to spread her fingers astray and scream "go away from here". The villain of my fantasies is slowly squeezing my soul to dust...



Still I can't escape, my face in my hands 'this is fate!' for all the persons you've wronged or hated, that the one you adore is bound to reject you with such passion it makes you shiver down to the core. The sickness within me can't be purged, no matter how many times I fall ill, throwing up memories of what joy and happiness felt like. I can't even recall a true love-story its been so long that I can't describe what human touch feels like because it seems I do not know. Am I suppose to what for a savior, another love...or will someday this monster return the favor I have been begging of her and allow me a warm embrace? The girl who causes my head to spin around like an owl.

Another 2am & I'm bored out my mind, guess I could just start with your body as long as you don't say anything at all. The strobe lights make every breath you take that much sexier. I hadn't planned on keeping you this long & something in the air makes the timing just right to commit a crime.

The gag your choking on, the tears that have been gingerly flowing since this masquerade has begun; I never wanted to make you into this, in fact I tried so hard to push you away. Now that you're shivering I can't do anything at all, the point of no return is long gone. How many times have I punctured your flesh with this needle just to hear you attacking the chains again? You'd be such a good lover if all your love hadn't I spent.

I'm not sorry, but perhaps I should be. Would you love me any less if I hurt you more?

Starring out this window for hours watching the moon grin at me in this pain, my only friend and yet the one i blame. My lips have gone blue and my mind is fading into some surreal world where perhaps i've never met you. i fell for you like a disease, it wouldn't regress and wouldn't pass, i coudn't get over it. i've never hurt so much in the dark though i figured out i can live without you i still want you to be my cure. take this sickness out of my brain, stop these foolish thoughts, i swear i can hear you whisper ily to someone else and its making my insides curl, my head is throbbing and spinning in directions i just might hurl. toss me under the ice of a great lake otherwise come hold me like a fatal secret that you're unable to keep. With every minute that passes i die just a little more on the inside, human suffering at its peak. why can't you hear me?