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the house wants to focus on our status... which is good, cause i hate not being number one... lol, but that's part of the reason i'm trying to be humble, right? yeah, right.



anyway, i'm thinking about writing an article for the database, well actually a series of them. about writing fiction. you know what they say, if you can't do it, teach it. it's true. i taught lilly a lot of stuff and she's a lot closer to getting published than i am. hell she's been published for her poetry, in the newspaper once, and something her church published too.



lilly said i get to choose. either i get to bath precious, or i can clip her nails. either way i'm getting messed up. so i choose to bath her, so i could at least make the little wench suffer a bit... hehehe, not really. i felt bad, she looked so pathetic... i should have taken a picture.



but she caught my skin. hooked in so deep that i couldn't even rip it out. i had to put her on the floor so she'd retract her claws and try to run. now there's a teeny tiny little pinhole in my arm, surrounded by brusiing. i'm lucky no one thinks i just got a shot or something like that.

i've been working on bringing my name up on the list of House members. i started off right below TornPseudonym and have already made it to right below jez... it'll take a while, playing only hangman... but hopefully Cancer will come up with another new game for favor.

lilly and bulldog are celebrating one year together today. good for them. their going to a carnival... without me :-(

i went through and took the time to chase every single RIA'ed forum post out of the front page of the general discussions. just when i thought i finished, some idiot got something RIA'd right at the top.



i can't believe how far back the pages go. on and on, topic after topic and so many of them sound exactly the same in their headlines. VAMPIRES... VAMPIRES AND DEATH.... VAMPIRES AND SEXUALITY... VAMPIRES AND THE SUN. ... VAMPIRES AND SUICIDE... on and on it goes... lol

i just spent about 13 hours and solved a matrix... and i didn't figure out a formula or anything. i just sat there and put together all the combos and with the help of a dictionary i found all the words.



everytime i thought i had it, i didn't... kept having to figure out alternative combonations.



then i got back online, because at this point i was doing it paper and pencil... and someone either solved the stupid thing, or i just plump ran out of time.



that really sucks. i understand it's part of the rules, and that anyone who can do them is laughing as they read this... well then again, so are the people who can't do them... sigh..



i'm one of those people who grew up afraid to do anything for fear of failure... and as a result have been told to just do my best. nine times out of ten, doing my best means that i'm not going to fail... but what about that tenth time? why didn't anyone ever warn me that sometimes even your best isn't enough?