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I am a woman who would back you up, if you are my friend,lover, you would know you can count on me. I freely show who I am as I am not ashamed to be me. I do ? my sanity, though on a regular basis. Why would a woman who has her whole life pretty together. I am a homeowner, I have an educated job, where I make a good living. So how, why do I choose this man who so selfishly with my help constantly needs to yell at me about my verb-age or mannerisms. I must answer yes/no. Don't try to justify why for anything ever. Just answer the ? I have a hard time keeping myself together, when I am feeling attacked by the man who says he loves me. I feel I deserve better treatment than this. I however also feel I ask for it, I choose to be his slave in the bedroom only people. The rest of the time, No. I will not be a doormat,however. I will be treated with respect even as a willing all true personal slave. Why can't he see his selfishness? I don't understand. I believe due to his 4 year prison stint and being under such abhorrent control. He, with my O.K. can't help himself, did I create this monster. I gave him supreme control over me sexually. I play any way he likes and probably more than he can imagine a woman would ever want. He tells me he is jealous of my lust for sex. I am constantly stifled, I must not caress his skin. This is only allowed if he has on clothes, as my touch on his skin is irritating, he tells me. I don't understand how can a caress of Love be irritating, I am not in his skin so try not to tAke it as a personal attack. It makes me extremely sad. I when I come to him after he finally wakes from his all night of staying awake, and sleeping until usually 3:00. I must lie still, hold him only no caressing, no movement, he is a bear upon waking. So I never want to wake him up. I am an aries a little ball of fire. I have immense energy and during sexual escapades, I will gladly do the work, I love to be on top, no problem. So why am I to be made to feel like I'm overbearing and demanding sex. I thought most guys want a woman who wants it more. I have a man who seems annoyed that I want it more. I am confused at this turn of events. Is it because he was in prison for 4 years. Do they give you salt peter. I don't know? I only know I feel I deserve to have a good life after all I've been through. I need to be appreciated. I need to be told I'm a beautiful human being. So I guess I must be the one to tell myself. I am beautiful and I deserve to be happy and I deserve a good Life. Lord please give me the skill I need to share a life with a man who seems to need minimal sex and who has a way of making me feel shame for wanting sex too much!