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Aftert working the entire weekend, I have officially met the rudest, little hitler wannabe ever. This man has serious delusions of grandeur and I would love to be the person to burst that little bubble and send him huurtling down to earth where the pain of reality can bite him in the ass.



They say that paybacks a bitch and one day karma will catch up with this rude little man and deliver a heaping helping of justice.



In every bunch of roses there`s always one prick!

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darkangelsblood
18:20 Mar 14 2010

sad but true, u will will always get at least one prick

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XvickyX
17:49 Mar 30 2010

So true.. or in my opinion a fair few lol

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what do you do when life has become stagnant, when the next stage of life is round the corner waiting to wash over you, to bring an evolution to your existence but it just seems to be held back by something.



I have been told that the one constant in life is change yet I feel like my life has been unchanged forever, like I have just been standing around watching life flow around me. My mind tells me that I have to do something to move forward but what to do?



Is fear of change holding me back from the embrace of life, what an advantage a dark gift would be in this situation, a way to rise above it all and be the alpha male, the hunter, a way to leave normallacy and stagnation behind and be free.



I love my family and my friends and would do anything for them, but there is something deep inside that yearns to stand up, break free and scream for everyone to hear, a scream of defiance, of anger, of desire. There is something deep inside that wants to run and run and run and find something that will turn reality upside down, change me, better me, complete me.



Rant Over!



JEFSTER

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darkangelsblood
15:23 Mar 11 2010

let it all out. i have felt this way before.

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why does my spidey sense tingle when i think of monday mornings. I need to go shopping for some new reading material i'm thinking maybe true parnormal or something occult or even the new vampire diaries. All suggestions gladly welcomed. Otherwise i have to re read my anne rice or jim butcher collections. On the brightside there is only one month left til the new dresden files and true blood books.

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Marahlynn
00:38 Mar 08 2010

I wish I could offer some good suggestions. But from what you had pre suggested yourself i think our preferences are a bit different. I liked Bram Stokers Dracula. Or dabble a bit in some philosophy and pick up Nietzsche's Beyond Good And Evil.

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darkangelsblood
04:53 Mar 11 2010

love your choice of books!

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I have just finished work and am chilling out on the sofa waiting for my rush to die and sleep to embrace me.



I have djed at a birthday party tonight and the event absolutely rocked, I love my job it brings new challenges, a chance to entertain and meet people and provides a great oppurtunity to travel around.



The down side is that after a great gig you can`t just switch off and sleep, the adrenaline rush keeps you going.



If you have a bad gig, there is the journey home to work out what went wrong and the tiredness kicks in straight away, not good when you are miles away from home..



I have just poured myself a cup of tea, relaxed on the sofa, streched out and switched on the box.



There is a really cheesy vampire movie on tv and it is so bad it is good, sleep calls but this movie must be watched for the greater good of humanity, well for the greater good of keeping me amused for a while. Late night b movies are made for djs entertainment.



Finally the film ends and the tv gets switched off.



The house is silent, I take a minute to savour it.



My eyelids start to close, I head towards the stairs wearily.



sleep is god, i must go worship



A new dawn beckons



Roll on tomorrow and let`s see what trials and tribulations the new day brings.



Goodnight all vamps.

"OH SWEET SILENCE, WHERE IS THY STING

I AM NO IDOL, NO CRIMSON KING

I`M THE IMPOSTOR THE WORLD HAS SEEN

MY FATHER WAS THE IDOL IT WAS NEVER ME...."

(Blackie Lawless - The Crimson Idol)



Music has played a great part in my life it has lifted me through bad times and amplified the good times.



The words above are from My Favourite Album, today they have never seemed so true.



I have been angered, annoyed, stepped on , mistreated and expected to take it and like my situation.



My father would have known how to deal with the things in my life which anger me, seek to put me under their heel and keep me down, he would have known the way to correct my path.



Since my father died I have realised that I am not the golden child he wanted, My life has deviated from the path he laid out for me, I am not the Crimson Idol, I am angry, I am low, I have sought approval from others and been stamped on, my dreams mocked and hindered but most importantly I have had enough!



My father WAS the crimson idol and I did not listen to his wisdom, I was too consumed in being the best, burning the brightest and being better than everyone else, so short sighted that i did not see the fall in front of me or the darkness which enshrouded me.



It is time to stand on my own two feet and Seek Approval from no one but myself, To find the spark inside myself and strive to use the darkness around me and better myself, to rise above the world i find myself in.



Sometimes I think that although help and support is available, although family and friends will be right behind me, the best way is to stand tall, scream aloud and emerge a better, stronger, wiser person.



This was not my destiny and i will not go quietly and embrace it, My fate is my own and I will make it alone.



Jefster