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You said you loved me.

you said you cared.

is that the truth?

is that a lie?

you hold me close,

you say cause you love me

more than i do you.

Truth? Lie?

you kiss my lips

you say to prove your love.

Truth or Lie?:'(

She has been

slowly fading away

for years.



she is

loosing herself

breaking down,

becoming weak



She let him have

everything and

He destroyed her.



He took everything

away, made life

meaningless, left her

broken and alone

I sit at the edge of the bed

As darkness begins to appear

How did my life turn into this

Why am I still here

I can't live everyday like this

As I put my head into my hands

I'm hoping one day when your older

That you'll finally understand

He's not a good guy

But I don't know what to do

I won't be able to live with myself

If I find out he did this to you

You're still just a child

And you deserve to live

But I'm not sure how much more

Of my life I can possibly give

You're little body is so warm

And you're smile still real

I hope someday I can tell you

Just how he made me feel

I know he'll say I was crazy

That I was the one that walked out

But I hope at some point

I can explain what it was about

I don't feel right leaving you

But I can't take much more

I just hope he never ever

Puts you behind this door

I have to leave,

I have to get away

I hope you understand

Not now, but someday

I wish I could help you

I wish for you I could stay

I wish I could take your burden

And tell you it will all be okay

But I must go now

Forgive me for my mistake

But I'm not sure how much

More abuse I can take

Please find me at some point

And I will do what I can

Trust me, I've been there

I'll understand

I can't do it now,

But in the future I'll try

Please just don't give up

Don't say you want to die

Because your life is so precious

I held it once so dear

I may not be with you now

But know I was here

You can come to me any time

I won't turn you away

Just know I'm sorry for leaving

And I hope you're okay...

I had a dream that I fell in love,



Through the maze there was but one ending.



Rows of pink, purple, blue, red roses with no thorns.



A sun that never ceased to shine.



Walking on a perfect white sand beach hand in hand.



In my lover's eyes were the world.



And as my mind rose to the surface,



the smoke cleared, the clouds faded,



I found I was mistaken.



As I awakened,



my pulse quickened,



mind racing,



breathing shakily.



No longer a dream where I fell in love,



but a nightmare of disaster.



True life is no fantasy.

You took my heart,

And broke it right in two.

My world has fallen apart;

I don't know what to do.

Do you see these tears,

Streaming down my face?

I'm overcome with fears;

Happiness left without a trace.

I'm in a lot of pain,

And getting worse every day.

It's driving me insane;

I hate feeling this way.

I love you more than anything,

Why couldn't you see?

The whole time I wanted one thing:

You to fall in love with me...

Taken.

That's what you are.

I've waited my whole life for

someone like you and you're

taken.

You're everything I've ever wanted.

You're sweet, funny, athletic, caring, and kind.

Why can't you be mine?

I know we are good friends, but I

wish it could be more. Why can't you

wrap your arms around me instead of her?



I'm really falling for you,

but you're

taken.



Why can't you simply just be free,

instead of

taken?

COMMENTS

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Angelus
00:05 Sep 05 2011

I do like this. unfortunately, it invokes a lotta memories for me.

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Confuse me,

And use me,

and just let me be.



Hold my heart captive,

never let it free.

Give me the lock,

lets throw away the key.



I know as well as you do,

were both ment to be.



I love you, i hate you.

I want to get out.

I need to cry,

but we talk through shouts.



I need you, you dont.

I cant help it, even at my best.



lets thicken the plot,

and give this a twist.



Im quite a liar, if i dont get i love

you off my chest.

So lets stop at the denying and

give us a chance, it might be best.

You were made from the master of all creators as a beautiful rose for me to care for,water and cherish.for the love God has for you,after rested he cultured you from my ribs.my love you are my missing rib.come to me for you are the antidote to my pain.love for ever

When i look in your eyes i see great pain

i feel your hurt and it brings tears to my eyes

knowing the man im in love with has endured such heartache

brings me to my knees

i want so bad to steal your pain

and suffer for you

but since im unable i will kiss the bruises

i will clean the wounds

and i will stitch up your heart



my love for you is beyond the clouds

if i had a star for everytime you put a smile on my face

i would have the entire nite sky in the palm of my hand

i thank God for allowing me to be blessed with such greatness

and i pray that you never leave my side



when you touched my skin, you touched my heart

when you kissed my lips, you kissed my soul

never in my life have i felt such a love

so amazing, so true, so real, and so beautiful

you snatched me out of the darkness and introduced me to light

and together, forever, we will stand in the sunshine.

I must admit you weren't a part of my book

but now if you open it and take a look



You're the beginning and end of every chapter

you filled my world with joy and laughter



You changed my world and made me feel alright

and thinking of you keeps me up all night



Baby i'm thankful for having you here

I'll always love you and be sincere

In the presence of love

All the beating hearts stop

To bow in front of its magic

And hope it will rise up





In the presence of hate

Darkness runs in your veins

It takes over who you are

Until nothing of your soul remains





In the presence of life

Those wondering the earth

Trying to find a purpose to live

Searching for it since their birth





In the presence of death

Surrounded by blood and guns

You try to escape, but all you see

Is the reflection of your loved ones





In the presence of happiness

You always loose track of time

Trying to capture those moments

You look for them; for a lifetime





In the presence of depression

Time stops for a little while

When you take a step forward

You are actually going back a mile

Endless waves of turmoil

crash against the cliff side -

thoughts dangling over the edge

in an effort to screech my last attempt

to solve the crises surrounding me.



Waters darken below me,

twisting ruthlessly, uninviting

a perfect pool of pity proves itself

a dampened victory beneath my feet,

fate not yet entwined with reality.



Rain slaps sideways,

bringing me into focus

flirting along the lines of destruction

and suicide, metaphorically speaking,

my laugh throws echos on the caves.



The stirring in my mind causes havoc,

as I awake from my sweaty nightmare.

Death is my life

Death is easy

But life is complicated

When you look at death it seems frightening

But if you see death threw my eyes it seems welcoming

You afterlife is ball of joy

You have it easy

So life its self is complex

But death is easy

My name is DEATH

I live in a world where nothing seems real.

I live in a world where all I want is to feel.

I don't want to hurt.

I want to feel love.

I want my own angel sent from above.

I want to see.

I want to be me.

But most of all I want to be free.

Free from the numbness I'm feeling inside

Free from the rocks that are hiding my pride.

Free from the tears and the fears and the pain.

Free from entering that place again.

Stealing away underneath this sky,

the horizon blurring out of focus,

it takes me to another dimension,

where chaos transforms into this being.

leaking through the clouds above,

to rain down over my minds chateau,

penetrating its fortress with harshness unknown,

the emptiness travels through my veins.

nerve endings take hold on this numbness,

paralyzing my body with nothingness,

a phobia deeply dwelled to apprehend,

yet the alter ego sought after like a mother to child...

two different entities transpire as one,

though at war for the alpha inhabitant,

which one will win no one knows,

it's a waging battle that ensues only time will tell.

Look behind you

Every day

Check the doors

All the way

They will never

Leave you alone

Do not ever

Answer the phone

Don’t you know

They are waiting

One mistake

Anticipating

Feel the fear

Go back to bed

Move or run away

Instead

Silence,

how easily the quiet

wraps itself around you,

eerily creeping around the darkened

shadows, enveloping the faulty

crevices that were searched out,

filling the void

you didn't know was there.



What once was a life of

harmony and happiness,

becomes a dampened basement

full of insects riddled with

bacteria, focusing on your flesh -

breeding itself within the mind,

searching out the corners

for a permanent residency.



Ignorance shields itself,

hides under a cloak of mystery

delicately placed under

an eclipsed moon,

developing beyond the darkness -

realizing you are all alone.

She lays there

In the darkness of the night

Silent

Upon these four walls

Do her secrets hide

While awaiting evil to return

She holds her teddy tight

Watching the shadow of

Her closets monster creep

And just like that

Darkness has overwhelmed

Her body

Only allowing her to release

A peep

Never been so afraid

Felt so vile

She closes her eyes

As the tears slowly run

Down her cheeks

She lays there still

Awaiting for the pain to cease

She prays for morning to come

But dreads what the night

May bring, she can’t help but cry

He looks her straight

In the eye

As he lifts his finger to her lips

Shh, he says

This secret is between you and I.

The sharp edge of the razor cuts my skin easily.

I'm numb to the pain,

numb to the blood,

too numb to realize whats happing,

to realize what I'm doing.

one cut follows another,

and another,

till i cant stop.

The razor falls from my hand

tears drip down my cheeks.

WHAT HAVE I DONE?

I am the shadows that crawl up the wall when you turn out the lights,

I am the bat that cannot see, but only hear its prey,

I am the glowing red eyes of the mysterious creature in your dreams,

I am the blood freezing screams that awaken you in the night,

I am the monsters that hide under your bed and in your closet,

I am the thoughts that only the sickest of minds can have,

I am the bullets shot into the hearts of the innocent,

I am the Demons that only Satan himself can conjure,

I am the homesick abortion that just wanted a chance,

I am the moon that not only hides the ugly, but illuminates the beautiful,

I Am The Night.

The Mask, everyone wears at one point,

It's bad, it's hard to ever put away.

The Mask shields our face

From the pain and sorrow that we have to face,

The Mask may lay upon your face weather

You like it or not, at one point in your life.

The Mask covers pain, the weakness in your eyes,

The breaks in your heart and the look on your face.

The Mask you will wear at one point in time,

Weather it be now, or ten years from now.

The Mask has no escape.

The Mask covers everything.

The Mask will be a part of your life.

The Mask is a killer.

I bleed to forget your words

I bleed for you

I bleed so I can feel a different pain

I bleed for you

I cut my skin so I can forget my sins

I cut myself for you

I cut so I can see clearly

I cut myself for you

I bleed this red red blood for the one i call beloved

I do this for my one and only

Life is hollow

Don’t wanna see tomorrow

Words hurt my soul

Wanna fly

Need to die

Gotta leave

I’m so naive

I won’t be loved

Never ever

Alone forever

Only causing hurt

God I feel like dirt