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DIMINISHING THOUGHTS



Between ideas

and reality



between motions

and action



there is a line



a clear wall of

sudden thoughts

or human reaction

reacting in inhumane ways



of a shot, or a grab

of a truly despicable fight



one of which all die

where there is

left no existence

for life





where all suffer

from such a dear pain

all cry out

to start their demise



why is it

the way of our kind

why is it

that they swarm to the bright





flames . . .



as if it held

such a great power



that could bring back

all the past

and revive the dead



that will never be

we shall always lay

here in the dust

in till we are sand its-self



that is the end of our path.



sand floating

beyond the horizon

for all eternity.

EVERY OTHER



A void ...



A hole ...



An emptiness unknown



hollow from the inside



As I try to learn



As My voice dries



I whisper mere thoughts



but quiet and



meaningless



words make it



Am I just a shape without form?



Is it likely to be a shade without color?



Where do I come from . .



Please answer me!!

As I feel the tears

streak down my face

As I feel the pain fill in

the void you have made



I wonder why you let me go

I wonder why you

betrayed my soul



I cry in shame

I cry in blame?



Why have you left me alone

why have you let me go



can't you feel the agony I am in

can't you feel my heart breaking

piece by piece



As I sit here in wonder

As I sit here in shame

As I feel such pain



I reach out for a kind face

Only to see lies spit my way.



I should hate you I know

But all I feel is shame to dis-honor you



all I feel is shame

to be thrown out

to be looked at as nothing

to be forgotten

to be know as no-one



What am I now if I have no place as before

What am I now if I have no home to go to



I turn my back on all

and may my soul be burned

for I have now noticed

the old is what I should become

the one who fought and pushed

the one who was more demanding of life



I will be the old me

and i will cry for eternity



To run for place to place

to trust in ones faith



to be thrown to the ground in hate



I cry for I feel much shame.

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To scream out

and try to find that

one that i truly am inside



but do I really know who i am

NO

I don't know anything

all these lies that fill my head

are they the realness or

are they just a fantasy



I see myself in the mirror

but do i know who i really am?



no i think not

i will never know

as i cry here

wishing it would rain

and

clean away all my tears



because

I don't know what to do

sitting here thinking

of all the things i could do

I know nothing to do



but cry here screaming for joy.

Ring Ring Ring Ring



What do you want?

What do you need?



Leave me alone!

I said 'let me be!'



we chat all the time,

we talk all night



We are a we even

though we shouldn't be



Don't you know that

I love another



Don't you know

we must not see each other!



She's watching me as we speak,

leave me alone

let me have peace.







I want you

I need you



I want to craw

into your skin

I want to feel you

in me



we do more than talk

we do more at night



we are a we because

you wanted to be



don't you know

I love no other!



don't you know we

must see each other?



Let her be, and come (home) with me

I watch you from a far

I see you form the corner of my eye



I feel your presence all the time

I know your time as if it were mine



I pass you awkwardly in the hall

Or bump into you before you go



I watch you sleep in class

I notice how your shirt goes up

how your pants are undone



Oh how I wish for you

Oh how much i wish for you



Sleeping peacefully but not alone,

Skipping classes but not alone



I will always be here

Even if you walk by

Even if you say goodbye

Even if you don't turn

as I wave my final words.

desperation fills the air

moon light illuminates the sky



golden orbs of desire

smooth hands that

do more than one might



small bites and kisses



long moans and wishes



how I wish for you every night

how I dream of you every night



know is how you love another

know is how you never wonder



You are what I want

She is not what I am

In the end I lay alone at night



dripping with sweat

in a wish for a night

in your hands

A sudden pain in my chest

A sudden lapse in my breath



Unknown hands riping at my back

Twisting my organs inside



My breathing is harsh

My heartbeat is high



I reach for a stand

I stumble fearing death



I crawl on my hands

I try to catch my breath



Too many though in my head

Too many fails at this life



I turn to watch you laugh

I turn you see your happiness



I'm suffocating!!!



Why don't you stand!?

Why don't you come

to my side!?



As I lay to die I watch you smile an say 'goodbye'.

COMMENTS

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Amaltheia
13:56 Apr 09 2008

You are good

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krave
18:42 Apr 10 2008

Thanks :D

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Let us fly

to another world



let us fly

next door



let us fly

into space



let us fly

far far

away



why do you hesitate?

Why do you smirk in my face?



why do I know how you really feel?



We will never fly,

because thats life



not being able to go beyond

into the sky



fly with me?

fly with me?



please!?





D:

A feeing of such pain

A feeling of wetness between my legs



Butterflies Roam the sparkled Sky

Chattering fills the other room



I image my mother sweeping,

my teachers speaking,

friends waiting. .



As I look into your eyes I know

I won't fly off



I won't leave your side,

or wish to be in the other room





:3

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cadrewolf
20:54 Apr 07 2008

nicely done.

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krave
19:01 Apr 10 2008

thanks :D

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