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I feel real sad tonight.. I dont wanna.. But my first boyfriend who left me for 5 months mesaged me today.. he wanted to get together again.. i told him i only wanted to b friends.. im glad i made that choice.. the jackass desided that i was makin him mad.. i was just being honest w/ my feelings.. so now he blocked me and wont have anything to do w/ me.. how evil could someone b.. he's such a backstabber.. i dont even think he realises that he's just making the same mistakes over and over again.. how can i love someone like him

It’s easier to run

Replacing this pain with something long

It’s so much easier to run

Replace all this pain here all alone



Something has been taken from deep inside of me

The secret I’ve been locked away where one could never see

Look so different, never show,

They never go away

Like moving pictures in my head

? ?



[mike’s part]

If I could change I would

Take all the pain I would

Retrace every wrong move that I made I would

If I could stand up and take the blame I would

If I could take all the shame and the pain I would

If I could change I would

Take all the pain I would

Retrace every wrong move that I made I would

If I could stand up and take the blame I would

I would take all the shame and the blame



It’s easier to run replacing this pain with something long

It’s so much easier to run

Replace all this pain here all alone



Some things I remember but thought the soul bypassed

Bringing back these memories I wish I didn’t have

Sometimes I think I’m letting go and never looking back

I never really thought so, I never realized?



[mike’s part]

If I could change I would

Take all the pain I would

Retrace every wrong move that I made I would

If I could stand up and take the blame I would

If I could take all the shame and the pain I would

If I could change I would

Take all the pain I would

Retrace every wrong move that I made I would

If I could stand up and take the blame I would

I would take all the shame and the blame



Just watch it in the sun

All of the helplessness as i’ve

Pretending I don’t feel misplaced

It’s so much simpler to change



It’s easier to run replacing this pain with something long

It’s so much easier to run

Replace all this pain here all alone



It’s easier to run



If I could change I would

Take all the pain I would

Retrace every wrong move that I made



It’s easier to run



If I could change I would

Take all the pain I would

Retrace every wrong move that I made I would

If I could stand up and take the blame I would

I would take all the shame with me

Ok i'm super bord.. I was so bord i made potato soup.. and it was amazing.. IT DIDNT BURN... yay.. ^_^ but i'm happy.. moms takin me to the mall tomaro.. I gonna get more anime.. and some new shoes for school

I've been getting flashbacks tonight.. Of when my best friend was mad at me.. THe cruel and hurtful words she said.. When my mom got married to a man that i hate.. My tears flowed becouse i knew there was nothing i could do to stop it.. When i sat in the preachers office while my mom told him how my twin siblings had died in a miscarige.. When i was three and my father got mad and punched a hole through the wall.. when my mom dropped us off at his house and he came out yelling at her.. the dogs where barking in the car. All the times i cought my father looking at porn in the basement.. not knowing that he was looking at little children my age. everytime my stepfather yelled at my brother and i for an accident.. Everytime he yelled at my mom for protecting us.. the time i desided to go ice scating w/ my friend when they were having a fight.. i came hokme to find out that my mom tried to kill herself.. the anbulance came for her.. my dog bit the parametics.. the next time she bites someone she'l be put to sleep/.. how i didnt want to talk to her afterwords and she threatend to not let me see my friends.. the only ones who were helping me survive everything.. the time my mom got mad at me just becouse i didnt want to go grocry shopping w/ her. she yelled at me and told me that she didnt think she is a good mom becouse of it.. I felt horable.