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You know those days that you wish you did not move out of bed and said heck I am not moving? Xmas was not that day.



Thursday I got to see Sallye and John who moved to Ohio three years ago. I was in shock it was so long and that we had not kept in touch with the better. However Shauna and Kevin were worse and fell off the face of the earth for they are having another child and have one. Too which I got baby cooties holding Katherine for most of the night and the fact she wanted to remain with me was odd so I had to give her back to her mom and dad.

I got sick no shit a day later. Which was xmas. I was like ewwwwww. I touched a baby and got sick. I mean all kinds of icky sick. Sore throat, lung cookies, and sneezing like mad. It is really gross to get sick but I am working through it and making the best of it.

I was in total shock I got sick but I guess my body was going through a lot at that point. Watching Shauna and Sallye go back and forth and John and Kevin go back and forth on their houses on cars and on animals that were dead. Whose died worse. And all I could think is wow thank you GOD for not going through this and such. They knew a year ago Max died and then Boowie my cat in my arms but none of that seemed to matter while they were catching up with the jones it looked like to me. I hung in and was like ah look at the time. I am calling Marilyn to get me the freak out of here. BUT nooooooooo they both had a cow and said who would drive me home and all. I was unamused and thought I would get out of that one but nope I did not. Then we all had to go to the house and see all the reventions that Kevin did to the house and see how all he did on his own with his father. That took another hour. In the midst of all this Shauna and I were playing with Katherine and she realized she did not say or ask how I was doing. Out of three hours of them bantering back and forth and me not caring much to get involved in it. I said I was okay and looking forward to him showing. She was in shock for she had no clue he got out of the icu. I said it is okay how would you know it was recently he finally got out..

Her eyes got big and she was amazed he got out of bed at all.  I was not. However, his dr’s later before xmas said eheh you are staying here till your head can handle it.  SO I was like okay this is different I can deal yet again with Marilyn and her family. I was sick and got baby cooties from Katherine the night before. Xmas morning I was sick as a dog and did not want to get out of bed. For one I did not get to see Jason and knew this before they told me. Then I was told by Marilyn that she wanted me to wear her gift. So I did and I was sweating to death in it for the house was huge full of people and babies. And All I wanted to do was crash in my bed. So 500 pm came and I was like time for me to go to bed and home.  Marilyn took me home and asked if I wanted to get a plate. I said no thank you but it was a pleasure to be there. I hugged everyone and left soaked in a herbal bath took meds for cold and soaked in my bath not wanting to move but closing my eyes I saw when I opened them my cat meowing at me and the water was grey. So it took some of the garbage and toxins out of me.

Went to bed woke up at 1200 am and then went to bed again. Had dreams but could not remember anything but fragments like little Jason upset. Leo and I were in bed most of the weekend.

He was protecting me from the ninja kitty moshe. Hehe

Ehh at work on break the joys of internet

moon

Well as my luck would have it the internet is out for the count.  Ehhhhh so I write on my breaks blah blah blah Work is the same nothing new lol



Jason is coming home for the holidays if his dr’s approve it and if his body can handle it. For he has been through so much they are not sure if he can take in the airplane trip to us for they may have to go to CA rather then NY for the weather over there is bad filled with snow. Per Bernard his brother. So there might be a slim chance he might be able to come over. Or might not for he waited till the last minute. (slits eyes) the doctors best let him leave for I will through down on that one. It has been six freakin months and I am over the waiting game. If they are going to move me over there in march without me seeing him before hand I am not going to go. For there is no way I am going without some talking and communicating to him directly.

Things I am thankful for in him



He inspires me to be a better woman

He inspires me to smile and feel joy when I feel him.

He is emotionally supportive

He is funny and makes me laugh

He is a masterpiece of god’s expression

He is in good health

He is a wild child (a gentleman but frisky in the right ways)

He is intelligent and stimulates me to think and be who I am

He is open minded

He is spiritually aware

He inspires me for a happy life in dreams (when talking about the future)

He is playful

He is sensual

He helps me over come my fears

He challenges me to move beyond the fear and feel it in dreams

He loves me for me

He is romantic in nature

He is balanced with dark and light

He is caring for others giving to them even though he has been thru so much.

He is creative

He is inventive

He is a tall as a giant and adorable as a cat

He is feline divine

He and I have a 50/50 relationship ( give and take)

He is my spiritual, emotional, and soulful mate (one day physical)

He is a snuggler like I am

He knows he is beautiful and takes care of that beauty

He is animalistic and disarming at the same time

He does not make fun of me for my dyslexia

He is charming

He is willing to take a risk

He is animal friendly

He is imaginative

He does not make fun of my body but adores it like a goddess.

He is a gentleman in the sense of his manners.

He is an architect and created a house.

He worked on the new twin towers for his family he lost

He is a father with a son that is adorable just like him

He is a flirt

He is athletic

He is sings

He dances

He roller skates

He has been humbled by accidents that he has had ; and for this he has changed his mind set

For in the reactions , he has actions that say things without saying a word .

The fact that my repair people never showed to fix my fans and floors and such and now than the other one did not have the part he needed to fix my frickin dryer.I wait two months and the mother fookers made me wait this morning to both to be here am sharp. Yeah it is raining yeah I get that. But why would you drive all the way over here .

On top of this I went to get my warriors done but the sixto is making my warriors for me by hand. I did not go through a ceremony for it was more like a reading of the warriors and actually there are four not three like I thought for some reason. Ogun and Oscshi are the two that work together and well it weird to have two together and such. But according to him they work well together as one which is different than the other two. So I got a little learning and taste of what tori studies and we shall see how it works. All I know is I fell out. After the talk I had with Marilyn. I said I think I am different to him for he wont share information with me more so show it to me and that is it. I think he sees things like I do. I thanked him for helping Jason for between what Bernard and I were doing it was helping but it was of a different faith and so I was annoyed but than realized it has to be his faith and he has to be based off his faith. We for sixto and there was the answer. Two weeks later Jason is out ICU and in rehab completely healed and he is coming home.

So I slept 12 hours straight and saw weird dreams like going to work but in an office that was a maze of weird the most weird things like a multi colored carpet you might see in a magic movie and chairs and shoes that did not match up and I was not liking that process at all. Then I saw Christy and she was thrilled I was there. She was amazed. She said you are glowing. I said huh? She said you are glowing looking in the mirror. I said yeah that normally happens when I am in astral form.

Then I saw a really weird sight. Batman being depressed to the point he made his on little island in gotham. Since his normal servant was annoyed at him and he said I am going on vacation here are instructions on how to take care of him looking at me like I was to help him. Then he gave him a letter and that was the end of story batman drank himself into a stupor. I wiped out all the alcohol and drinks I could find which was a lot around the house and when he was out and about looking for drinks. He could not find and screamed my name. I looked a him. He said where is it? I said where is what? He got up in my face and the man said the alcohol all of it is gone. I looked at him and said you need to lay of the shit and snap out of your depression. Yes you lost a love of your life but hell man you need to move on and get back in the swing of things. Aflred left for he could not bare to see you like this. He chose me for he knows I wont take shit from you plus you are going to deal with something you never had to do. He said what is that? Get a touch of reality. He looked at me like I was lieing to him or something. I said with all your money and all your power and such you are not happy. Why for you decided batman was not good enough for he could not save the one he loved. She believed in you. And what you stood for. Get over it and snap out of it. He said you are a bitch. I laughed and said no I am me. Fook off and get into a shower you smell like crap. Or do I need to do that too? He looked at me like he missed Alfred badly. I am sorry for your loss sir but Alfred knows I wont take your shit and he also knows I am the only one with the balls to help you and not tell your secret. I walked up to him and said you are a man who is hurting. I held his chin to make sure he was looking in my eyes. I know the death of a loved one. It hurts like hell and you barely can believe the crap you thinking. From suicide and if I can get more. But if I can get through it you can too. He grabbed me and hugged me. And said thank you for understanding and asked when Alfred would be home. I smiled when you are back to the man he knows and loves. Exercise and build your self and slowly get back on you feet. I laughed and said it is a baby step at a time so take a damn shower an sleep in your bed for a few hours I will make you some lunch after your catnap. He knoded his head and I smiled. It took one week to get him working out again and then he was on track seeking out the evil people of gotham. I laughed and smiled and said getting better huh? I brought him his food to him and smiled. Alfred came up to him and I left. Alfred was thrilled to see him back on track and thanked me. I smiled and said all in a days work my friend. He said how did you do it? I said take all the alcohol away and make him show out and bitch about it. I laughed so see to your friend and be well mr man. He said wait and asked if I would stay and I said uncle Alfred would not want that. Alfred said liar ! You are more than welcome to stay my dear. I said yeah I can keep an eye on my uncle and such.

He asked what other skills I had and became his personal assistant and I smiled for this was brilliant

Woke up sweating and thinking spells on me? My warriors put me out??? I wasted a day damn it… I slept for 11 hours straight it was weird and disorienting. My balance is off. So much so I was dead to feeling my back being on fire.

Speaking of which I have to get witchy.



purrs

moon

Well most people would have an ordinary day at work however; I was not the one who was so fortunate. Work was a bloody mess in the sense we have been working with a company that cannot tell a 12 volt battery from a aa battery.

On top of this an old coworker comes out of no where and asked if I missed him .I said no for I thought he was in the hospital. He got a new job and lied saying he was not going anywhere. So basically I felt like a fool and said uh yeah got to go and left it at that.

On top of that I was thinking the women in my area were joking about a rat until I got hold of my pita chips and thought mouse trap and kill it nowwwwwww. I did not say ratatoui of our area was there for well they would have gone on it for months again as they have. The mouse or rat is not going to be a happy camper when I am done with my draw. I shall set a piece of bait and catch him. Then he will be a rat that is dead.

If that was not bad enough I had system issues and was out for an hour working on paper claims fun stuff there let me tell you.

Then one of my friends got fired and they asked if I knew and I said yes she had a lot going on and I told her get fmla but no she forgot but is happy to be free of our company. I was like uh okay. I am glad she is happy but I am also not leaving my job for I would like to be not to have a resume to say 6 years and stable instead of leaving for better pay.

On top of that? My system when down had a lot of intake calls for some reason there was not enough coverage and it was really not fun and I was like squweek… Call after call and finally they took me out of the quite a moment for me.

I got off working thinking he new moon was out. But no Marilyn being positive is scarier than her being normal cynical self. Her child has now made it her business to get her mother back to the dark side and she is acting out worse on top of that she got a b and freaked out and such. She does not see as American and she does not see me as white girl. She sees me as a Irish Native Indian woman with Russian and Italian in her. However, not noting the melting pot that I looked at her and her mother and back at her cousin and she just looked at me like she has been like this all day. I dropped my jaw and was like okay so you don’t see me as American and white you see me as what now? Not one of the Floridians. She said you are a melting pot. I said as is the USA and I am American thanks for caring and such. I kept to myself and Marilyn called her sister sweet plums and I looked at Marilyn like wow white light is not you. It sounded very off like she was going to dodge something or hurt someone not too sure which but I was extremely happy to get home. I got out of the car and said uh thanks have a good night. Dezzy runs up to me I said get back to your mother and leave me alone you are dark and she is light the world has just died in a hand basket of doom. She wanted me to look at her and all I was thinking was get me the frick away from the brain snatchers. She was so weird like her mother I did not know who was worse.

Then I pondered. If I marry Jason I am going o have drama all my life. Do I feel Jason and his son are worth it? Right now I am thinking uh no. I love him and his son very much but the family and such are a tad odd right now and if it continues I may call another cab company for I am not liking being in the middle of white light and dark light. I thought to myself how the heck can I marry Jason and have just his son no one else? I don’t think I can marry him honesty and the sincere reason if I do I am in drama vampire land and looney tunes in one. I really think I would loose it between them calling me not white and not liking Americans I am a bit taken back by it,

Then I thought living in Italy could I hack that? I pondered that and thought uh no for I am not working and a mother all of the sudden? Yeah something is not right with the picture at all. I am not sure I am strong enough for it and not sure that I can handle the fact if they are so rich why she cannot pay me back the 160.00 she said she would pay me last month and made excuses about that. I do not need that. Hell she does not pay my bills nor does he. SO where does Marilyn come off with not paying me and struggling on top of it.

When she heard I was going to do my warriors this weekend so I can clarify my life she was jealous and mad for I could see it in her eyes she was not happy and her voice sounded different. I told her I was needing a ride on Saturday instead of Friday and she was like oh. She was not getting her warriors done and on top of that she said it would probably be cheapier for there is another one going to be there for that as well. So me and this stranger are going to look deep into the heart of my world. I had Ogun as my halo as Tori did. Usual for a woman. So Saturday I get to find out my path and have three women tell me something of my path and where I need to go and what I need to do. Which in a sense I am not sure what to expect. I am expecting something positive for he is going to talk to his daughter about the Egyptian views on it for there are African, Egyptian and Spanish views on IFA. So I get to learn something new about my gods on a multicultural one. Which is going to be cool I think. Or so I hope.

The Sixto did not realize that I can speak to gods, spirits, and more. Until the day I called worried about Marilyn. So I think he was surprised when he heard I talk to my gods. For white people don’t believe in it. Supposably I guess. He also realized I am closer to Marilyn then I was. She told him more about my gift or ability and she liked the fact that I have a natural gift of sight. She takes it and changes her future that way. I was told by him not to tell her so I have not and I have kept it to myself. I am not sure what to think of the dreams that turn to reality and so I feel that I am going to have to wonder about that. But lately they have been vivid and rare form.

Waiting to see what happens next…

Gina came over we had a long talk about life in general since she is not in the company world caught her up on that . lol and made her watch saved …. She never saw it and it was funny as all hell . For it makes fun of every religion and a lot of people could not watch it for it was banded from the bible belt as I call it. Snickers another one comes into the flood of weirdness muahahahaha/

Strange gifting happened at work from a 22 year old and I looked at him like why did he do it until he said listen to 6. I do not listen to rap often and when I do it is not uh like the number six song

The first line in the song” I come alive when I see the moon shine. “ Not even sure what the song is about but it sounds like a vampire or werewolf song. I said interesting cd. Kinda of walked away and left it to the four winds for why would a mundane give me a cd like that. He did not realize I was Jewish and Catholic and lol I am Gnostic so it makes him think further. But a lot of women when I got into the company thought because I wore black a lot that I was a vampire. Or a goth. I laugh at it still. Why? Not a vampire not a goth not light not dark just me.

So I asked gina looked at me and said uh okay the rich kid made you a cd and this song is what he told you to listen to. Um okay ……….. She said it sounds like it is about the were wolfish. So how would you take this song? She said he sees the beast in you maybe. Sounded better than what Marilyn said. I was like hmmm she said he was hitting on me and that it was a mating song of seduction. I looked at Marilyn and looked at dezzy a 22 year old is hitting me? He has a daughter and he has his whole world of wealth and such sundries. I was like he is not hitting on me he could not be. I almost got sick to my stomach and threw up and I was that sick to my stomach… He is a child and has a job for this was punishment for him. So hitting on me? A 22 year old hitting on a 38 year old. Blinks uh almost as bad as Zack. He was 24 and well he moved to a different company. Thank the gods one less person to worry about.



pardon me while I burn into flames? suck what? I have no freakin clue how that could be a mating son. LOL however I thought of Jason when it played and he is vampire lol...



counting down the days for him to get his ass here . I never liked christmas for Jesus was not born in december but this year it brings him home and little Jason too muhahaha

I bought a skate board and helmet.

have to protect his head..

Marilyn looked at me like what??? You got him a skateboard. He can break a leg. I looked at her and said do what???? He is not going to break a leg don't say that. She said with our family you get him a skate board? I said and a helmet I need to wait till he gets here so we can size him for pads for the knees and elbows.

Heck the boy roller blades. ( I cannot do that roller skate I can) She is more worried about a skate board???? what the blank....

I LOOKED AT HER LIKE SHE WAS MAD

For she is the one saying it and she is supposed to be positive and the statement was not positive.



I got to take a nap for today is a big day of fixing my apartment in the morning and in the afternoon I am going to get my three warriors on and get to know them from an eygptain point of view so looking forward to that.

Shivers

MOon

Pink paper

Get seven sage leaves

seven basil leaves

and seven mint leaves.

Seven day black candle

Form a heart with the sage leaves fill in the heart with basil, surround the heart with mint place this on a pink piece of paper seeing your heart being cleansed of any family issues , or generational issues. Then burn seven day candle and put a little banishing oil into he candle and ask the ancestors to let it go and move on. I cleanse the things that bind me from the past and have the love come forward and blast.

Well yesterday I did a releasing of negative thought path stuff as terns and such of heritage. Why am I afraid of Jason being rich? I think that my parents always struggled and I have too. The thought of being well to do, freaks me out. It is like a control thing. I wont need a job so what will I do with my time? Educate classes of how one represents themselves and learning Italian and Spanish On top of that I get to relearn sword fighting. WEG. And horseback ride and such. That would be cool sort of. I mean the sword fighting again. I am going to have to learn classic stuff. (hacks a hairball)

They way I learned this was through a dream that was on last night after doing the spell of releasing the crap from the past for there is a lot of crazy crap in our past. Along time ago our people were rich. Some did not like the fact they were well known and so they became nomadic. Others saw it as a blessing. So it was a mixed view. Somehow when it came to my parents it was known as the rich people use it against you and the ones that have it who were poor spend t before they do have it. I have learned from this dream. A guy at high school gave me a check to get a gown for prom. I looked at him like what the fook do you think I am going to take the blank check and use it? He signed it and left it opened to whatever I was wanting. I said I do not want to go to prom on a boat with people I do not like. I looked at him and ripped the check up and left the bus thinking this man is on crack. I went to work and moved on. But that experience embrassed me highly. For people on the bus laughed and I looked at this man like you are truly fucked up. Not that what he seemed in school until that day. I looked at him with hate and malice. I did not take the check and use it for the food I needed and or rent or cash. I could have used that check on many things but I was like what the fook dude? I never let good and thought I do not want to be rich if people are like that. Hell I thought about it most men I have met were rich and wanted to take care of me and well I am not like that. Hell now here it is Jason wants to take care of me and I want him to just be okay so he and I can enjoy our lives for the time being, I am realizing at this point Jason is different on a lot of levels but that has been nawing at my subconscious. Where it came out of a dream and I was like damn I forgot about that.

So I have to accept Jason for being who he is and with him comes one huge family and money . Or I will see it as a threat and push him away as I have countless times.

Heck what a day! It rained and it was seriously beautiful. Woke up to Marilyn calling me at 8:00am (I don't try and get out of bed until 12:00pm on weekends, for I catch up on sleep.)

So she calls me and tells me of a cabbie that threatened her life for she got him fired. He was driving with a cabbie that still worked there. He actually pissed her off and she fought him. He fell short of a few sandwiches out of the picnic basket. He picked on her? She owns the company and she is not something to be messed with. She had to calm down and so she asked me to talk to her and I did. Half asleep to the world but I did. She said she does not know what she did will have consquences or not. If it does it does. She had no choice in my eyes if a man comes right in your face threatening you do you just take it or push the mother fooker away from you? I would have pushed him down and she literally knocked him out and I was like okay. She is supposed to be nice and calm she is going through an awakening and she has a whole bunch of other things. So I calmed her down and she was calm by the end of an hour.

So I did that and some laudrey. And could not get my catnap on it was annoying but okay had no choice for the most part.

Eh the rain was so relaxing in which I think Moshe, Leo and I were like okay calm and peaceful it was nice.

Well today was productive in pissing me off to the level of I had to get red meat in me right the fook away.

One I was late to work that was fun I woke up in flames

Two my back was freaking killing me

so I was at work and than thought damn I am not wanting to work so I left at 1047 am I was hurting that bad and I was not in the mood for the crap I will be going through the new shit and then leave and that is what I did

Three Marilyn told me about her dream and she was trying to keep me calm about killing him slowly

and then took his heart and bite into it and the man died to see it.

Then reminded me about how much I really am pissed of at cisco.. He left my friend and was not on the right side of things and then I spent money that was to help little Jason and Jason. I was so pissed off my skin turned pink and then red. She was trying to calm me down for she realized I thought her dream sounded good at the moment.



Four my frickin rental place took two checks from me and I was like son of a bitch where the fook do they think they are doing? So I confronted them and they said they would send me a check for the extra money oh yeah you better. I have been frickin eating rice and butter for the past week wondering why the fuck my money was down. I thought it was the irs and well it was not. I was like son bitch..

I come to realize after eating meal I had to shop for stuff so I can do something tonight since it is the oak moon. For I am not freakin scared I am raving mad for cisco, I want him to be gone.He took a lot of money to fix Jason and little Jason and then this shit. I was just like all you mother fuckers. All of them can suck my imaginary dick. Marilyn saw that I was not in a good mood .



So I saw why. My dragon's blood incesne block broke so I had to get a new one. It is sealed with gold for a reason.

Someone thinks they can fook with me? Bring it! You really donot know who I am and you never will till it is too late. For my father is a judgment God and his father can bring you death in a heart beat. So if you think I am fookin scared of you I am not. Hell have no fury like a goddess either and my mother will kill you for sport.

Yes my gods are interesting. But it is in my blood that and my birthrite; that can make even the biggest fish be scared.

If you are fooking with my skin, you will see who my kin is really fast, it is funny actually. I have seen people go down faster for fooking with me than spells work.

I truly believe and trust in my gods for I have seen all of it in a flick of an eye. For they are with me when no one else is. (smiles)



On a different note

took a healing bath and purified my skin big time. The water was dark grey. And it is raining thank you for raining so hard now if it could do it all day and night that would be lovely.

I have to go and do some spells muhahahaha

happy oak moon to all



Moon

Well today has been a day of days



work seriously went fast but that is okay. I did alright in the sense of catching up and so I have to say I am proud of myself for catching up and such. Also have to give that up to god for I know he helped.

For it seemed like time flied and I was not having fun.( had a migraine like no other today) But hey I got through it and that is all that matters.



Jason is doing well with walking but talking not so much. The stubborn man did a number on his vocal cords so I am going to mail him a book I hold sacred and well I hope it will help him with his voice. He took the tubes out himself so they are reeducating his voice. I have a book for singers that I am going to send him for when singing you must educate your vocal cords and really work at it. A good singer can do some things. A great singer can do a lot more. I used to be a manager of tray forte then it turned into bled in the which they politely let me go for I would not do drugs. I would not party and I was serious about managing. They got a contract and then they fell. For they did get busted for drugs. I told them dont and well they did not listen and no they are not anyone of consequence for they did not want to train and they did not believe singing in a band would be work . So as a whole I am not even sure if they are alive for they did some serious drugs when I tried to get them off them. Sooo if they are alive they are lucky to be alive. But to be a singer or a group it is work it is practice and it is everyday if you don't do that you might as well quit. For the music not only has to be inspiring to people it has to be seemless. When it comes to certain types of music. Rock, rap, and country. Even heavy metal. You want to be the best you have to put it to the test and be diligent and never stop striving to be the best. That is how people get somewhere. Simple as that.

So for all you singers out there. Get your asses off the couch and do something. For the ones that are out there some really freakin suck. Now on with my babbling of my day..





Marilyn called me upset shaken and worried. I told her something is wrong and she needs to be more careful. Today she was at the bp station where an hour later a shotter killed a fireman that got his dream and then died. For some stupid human out there thought let's take a car and run. She knew the fireman and well she was scared finally. I told her she needs to be bless and go to church and or whatever her true belief system is. For she keeps playing with fate and date will catch up to her. I asked her to be more careful for someone actually screwed with her cab and ruined a tire. I asked if her uncle was getting security and such and she said yes. Like I was the mother or something????

So as life would have it with her she is scaring me for I really feel like death is after her and she does not believe so. Uh okay whatever.. I will say a prayer and hope she will be okay.



Got a new customer for Mary Kay which was an awesome feeling for I have had some recent cancellations that seriously bummed me out for I just want to make them feel their skin and see how beautiful they are. For a lot of them don't realize they are beautiful. I love the products for they have made me look like a 25 year old and I am 38. Never did a dye job have a few greys but still get carded . So I know my skin looks damn good okay???? When I tell people my age they look at me like how the hell did you do that? Mary kay is all I have to say. I wear two layers of make up for I have seborric skin disease and well I have to blend coverage everyday. I was told it does not look like I wear make up. Oh but I do and modeling showed me how to make your eyes look awesome and face too. Hell I would freak people out with my skin.They would be like uh okay yeah take the red stapler and leave. So I believe in it for I see it and know it. I ooze that everyday and know I look a lot younger then most managers who are younger than I. Yes I know it and own it. I am a BBW and I know it. I can walk a cat walk like no other if given the chance and well I did that years ago so I still am going to be growing gracefully with my age thank you.. When everyone is 30 I will look 30 but be 50 . God is good. (smiles) So for all you people out there be proud of your age but do it with flair or at least take care of the skin you are in. For it feels fabulous at 38 and it still is more soft and silky and of course divine intervention does take a part of it. I look younger than my sister and she has a cow every time I see her.

She is like how do you look so young and I have grey hair and dye it and your skin is so damn soft. I was like uh Mary kay . No you have better genes than I is her response. Better genes????

Um I have pcos with cysts that are cancerous at times some how my last test said I donot have a trace of cancer so they are testing me again, two bludging discs and bone spurs up my spine and than I have seborric skin disorder , fat cells that never goaway for I have to take meds that would not let me loose weight and then I have arthitis. Better genes no not at all. I would not wish anyone the pain I am in day in and day out. Less alone my worst enemy Do I want kids yes but my genes are screwed. So I plan to adopt someday.. I see results and know I look average at work. But that is okay. Outside men drive into other cars, some even their girlfriends cars and men always look at me like damn.(baby got back lol) and in riverside honey they are mostly gay in riverside. So I know I look goodoutside of cubical hell. (Smiles) my jeans make women who want asses look and same okay where can I buy that? .Heck Jason claims I have black somewhere in me for I am built in the back and front and he has never seen a white girl not pay for my assets. Hehehe

other then that folks I am off to read...

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