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I have been given a red feather for my hair and abundance and the feather no shit I almost lost twice. Since the bird feather is sacred to Jason’s faith and the sixto is high in the ranks of his faith. I took it with grace and thanked him for the feather that was 10.00 for the damn thing and the bird feather flew out of my hair and hands. So riddle me this do I not want my own business and ascension or not? I thought about it and the times I was around Marilyn. For some reason I thought about it and the fact is there is something weird between us recently. She keeps things secret and does not want me to ask about Marilyn’s reading and or Jason’s and I did not. I asked what Jason would be at this time and it is just friends so I figured myself but I wanted It confirmed and well if he loved me he would take the time to call me or write me or spiritually call and he had not for his mind and body and soul are stuck at this time and he has to focus on health. He really does and I know this so I am not meant for him and his world which in away I am glad. For frankly their world is weird. Vampires of all kinds, beings that are not of my world. Spirits that are something I never knew either. And a family I never met. Know their names and I know their energy but I will not have a child and home and husband . This is okay It was not meant for me I guess.

I am a tad disappointed and so I need to focus on me myself and I and my fuzzie babies. So I am free to think and be and do what I want to. But why do I get the impression that Marilyn was not happy with the idea. She even said her son had changed and she really seemed to think that I was meant to be there in their world. She does not like it when I mention other people. Especially men. You can see her eyes when I mentioned another.

So I stopped talking about men for I have male friends and well I cannot help that I always have had male friends.



welcome to my world

moon

So I go to the reader today and Marilyn has to do all this cleansing and such and alot of crap in plan english. Then she needs her three warriors and she is doing thie hand thing.

All I need to do is get is a feather that I have to wear in my hair everyday and do the three warriors.

( for 575.00) and go from there. Um she heard that she about died and was a tad jealous.

Ogun like my sister is my halo which I was weird but he explained you have gone through alot at she has and frankly he is unusal for a woman.

There are no female versions of this IFA god and I looked at it as an opportunity to learn for Jason is of this faith.

I asked him what will happen to him once you do what you do with the stuff for him? He said he will get out of the hosiptal and then he will need a lamp size ochsi. I looked at it and he said it would be about 500.00 for that. I blinked and looked around and such and asked questions about different things he had and he was welcoming to share them. He looked at me and was wondering why a white girl got such a protector and father as Ogun. He is a warrior and he is the god that holds the world up and he is a male god only. Other ones not so much. Like marilyn has Obtala and she has the girl version. So this would be her mother. I smiled and looked at him. Makes sense why she was jealous. I found out about my father before my mother most women find out their mothers first.

I am odd and unusal and lol a white girl confusing the heck out of a male who is defined as cubian slash sixto. Very weird for he looked at me and smiled and saw my questions were of unique thought patterns he had not seen before.

He told me my warriors already and I was really excited for not only is ogun my father he is a protector and I have an unusal one. I m to be raised up by him. Oschi every one has and so they do with eleggua however my eleggua is a guardian with a sheelllll :) Does the happy dance. I get a shell guarding me woohoo. no me killing things as a sacrfice and such. Even with ogun I am an oddity I get four horse shoes a ladder and such.

It was weird. that is all I could think of. For Marilyns sounds like a project .

I asked about what I should be to Jason since his healing comes first.

He said a friend and that is all. Let it be for he has a long road to healing and I was a tad upset but he is right. I cannot be a partner to him and I cannot be there with him so a friend I will be and start focusing on me. I agreed and he smiled for he saw it as an opportunity to grow. I did too.

Marilyn was in shock and was afraid to ask that. I had more strength then she did. So I left it alone and left it like that. She actually called me again then asked again. I smiled and said the same thing. She was disappointed actually. Like I was supposed to marry him and live with them. Now I can go anywhere and be free and not worry about it.



catfoot fancy and free

Moon

curmudgeon

a crusty irascible cantankerous old person full of stubborn ideas

Greatttttttttttttttttt love the new level ups meaning. Who choose these lol.



Well today I went to three drs

One thank god lowered my meds another upped it and then the other said I could work out slowly again woohoo!( bone spurs and all)



So okay all that was said and done I paid bills and I went to a Mary Kay meeting and I was literally happy as could be the woman made sense.

Did I loose my dreams for I work in a job I am stuck in In five years this lady became a millionare director. I was like okay I am so loosing my dreams and really not doing the MK side of things for I was lost on stuff in general. There motto is god first family second carrier third. I need to get some and really get cracking on it . I have a challenge for thirty faces in 30 days I am on it is all I am saying. I am going to do this and make it happen somehow..

She really was uplifting and omg I am in my job for 4 years and I am not close to that. So I am going to make that happen too.

I totally am not ending up in a cubical hell when I can be making my own money and fortune and be girly woohoo.

They are most beautiful too the jacket suit is divine..

next five years I am going to be a millionaire director and make it happen. :)



Jason is doing good physically but spirtually he is not since his faith is crushed at the moment. And My lion he gave me one of the eyes are not glossy so. I am over that and said to Marilyn do whatever it is your faith is about and donot tell me for I cannot harm an animal. I said I would rather strave then see him die all together because of his faith being fucked so fix it. She looked at me and did the uh okay 200.00 to get the juju off him. Do it he needs to be able to heal his mind and soul and revive my honey bunny then do it. I might strave but I will be happy knowing he is healed and such. So she is going to georgia to do something and I told her I dont want toknow. I am an animal hugger lover and could not get into the religion for the purpose they hurt animals. Tori though she is a vet sees purpose for using them as sacfrice when need be this is why she is into saintria and I am not. I am a tree loving and hugging gnostic lol .

But Jason is into it and his faith is strong and many people want to hurt him for he is so pure of heart but it does not matter that our faiths are not the same. I am inlove with a man that means the world to me and he needs to be fixed asap. The sixto that read for him told Marilyn to get it to him and she was like were the hell am I goin to get that I said to myself I am going to strave for the moment but I will do it. Good thing will come in time.



Debates back surgery or not for the back is killing at the moment..



I will make money on my MK stuff I am going to get back in the saddle again. So curmudgeon I am lol



MoonKitty

I walked outside this morning at 200 am and scaed the begzus out of my mundane new neighbor. He is a smoker and lol I wear sunglasses a hoodie and listen to my music . I carry a knife too and walked like it was normal for it is. Sunglasses protect me from the stupid rednecks who drive their cars with their beamers and I can see in the dark.

Hell the one time I did not have them So schmuck drove with all lights glaring and I walked into a cobweb that was huge and mu dog looked at me for a moment

so I think I scared the mundane

haha



Moonkitty

The song let the bodies hit the floor would be the song I would like to play at work and watch the cubical hell I work in fall. Yeah it is seriously interesting now. 4 hour training testing me after it and I dont wake up literally until 1200pm? (eyebrow raised) I am normally on auto control. 800am to 1200pm is a blur. I cannot believe they tried to make me fail on purpose. growls ( wish we had a mosh pit at work)



Jason

He is healthy sort of. No more cancer no more blood poisoning and no more heart issues. Now it is He will heal slowly but he is over the hump which is awesome.



Marilyn mother inlaw to be

told me we wont move over there for at least 7 months after she said dec? Hell I dont have a contract with my rent. So the answer to my question I had to ask Jason. One do you want me to help you through the healing process or not?

Marilyn believes her son is depressed and not himself. I looked at her and did the yes or no letter to him he has a month to tell me Italy or not. For if it is we can heal him and get to know eachother better. and his son would be great.

If not I am getting the fook out of Jax FL and going to a new job and new area of the USA.

Why? I hate Jax now that is why..

Enrique Lopez lol her stalker took her money and tried to harm Jason. AKA through Brujria. I looked at Marilyn and said do what?

She claims her new cab is cursed she made ten dollars in 7 hours she has been out on the road.

When I said I would leave if Jason does not want me there it was a I need to get my goal back 1.. 2010 I am out of Jax hell. That was the goal till he came into the picture. She knows that I hate my job and she knows I could leave in a drop of a hat all over USA. She was not happy that I would leave and that I am not into staying so she could pay for me to move over there in Italy when she left.

I have to feel the realization of my path bird in the cage lifestyle or freedom reins lifestyle?

I am not a spoiled American, I have seen other countries, I work my ass off day in and day out even though I am AKA seriously handicapped but I am in FL (so what I have can be fixed by surgery that would make it worse yeah that is great) I am not handicapped to them.



I know I am going to find my happy and get over this crappppppp with the drama of the mama.. Hell she does not call me an American for my ways are not like most she has met. I think I love her dearly as a person but I can honestly say she is a racist and I am not sure I can hanle that. I seem to be the only white chick she does not bitch about... My ancestory? Black Irish, Native Indian Choctaw, Russian and Sicilian. I am a melting pot. I believe in our countries freedoms, however I don't believe in their politics. She also sees me as a friend , sister and daughter inlaw even though Jason and I arenot married and we had to post pone it.

So he can heal not that I am afraid of commitment. I just need out of the freakin state I am in. I don't fit here.



meow hiss spat

that of this cat



Moonkitty

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TheShadowChaos
15:18 Oct 21 2009

If you ever decide to move to IL let me know!

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Jason is doing so much better

Woohoo no more cancer

no more heart issues and he is now going to have a year of healing. My pookie is doing very well.

Yeah!



VR is very welcoming. I am overwelmed with such things as sires of all kinds rating me to lol men biting me lol when I can bite back I will !!!!



Work eh cubical hell nothing new there



regards

Moonkitty