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I haven't written in awhile, I guess my excuse is that I've been too busy..

I feel that I've been on overload lately..

I have and have had so many changes going on these last couple of months, I don't know where to begin..

My thoughts have been so boggled.. People say that I multi-task too much, I know this, but never wanted to admit it..

When you try to help those around you, you tend to forget about yourself..

I need to write more, it helps let out everything that hides within me..

You need to let it out once in awhile or you'll go crazy!! I have found this out the hard way.. I used to think that I will always causing some kind of trouble by letting her out, because that's exactly what would happen when I did.. Then I finally realized I always got in some kind of trouble,because I would always wait sooo long to let her out..

I guess I waited so long, because I was always worried about what people would think of me.. Now I know, who cares??

I have always tried to follow the motto: You can't help anyone else until you help yourself.. I've always put this into text of emotional,financial, and spiritual help.. Never into perspective of my emotional & sexual feelings, for in fear of being considered as a freak.. I now know that I'm not alone and there are many who think this way..

After so long of bottling up the wild side will get me into some trouble at first, but no more bottling up for that long of a period!!

There are 2 kinds of pain. 1 that feels so good:like being bitten,spanked, whipped, or whatever your fetish is. The pain you indure because you wanted it.. Then there's the other pain that hurts so much & nobody should have to go through. The pain that was brought upon you by others that you don't want or never asked for.Who gives these people the right to hurt us because it makes them feel good??

They do not realize how that impacts our lives, our judgement.