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.....never mind.....

I hate english. My friends and I put in over 20hrs on a project and our class didn't even understand it. It wasn't that hard to grasp it was damn 8 minute movie. Hell, a sixth grader understood it when I showed it to her. Oh well it was my dumb idea. Maybe I should have explained it to the class more. Great now I'm depressed. ah well back to Full Metal Alchemist. ^__^

Just though you'd like to know, my parent's left me at an Exxon station Saturday. They didn't realize I had gotten out of the car. I guess I really am not that noticable. *sigh* Not the best thing to do to a girl who already has severe psychological problems. ah well that's my parents for ya. They did come back and get me obviously after the manager called them. *sigh* wouldn't have even noticed I was gone if not for him. I owe him much that I do. Still life goes one and I have homework to do. Ja ne!

"That dream again." I say as I shake myself awake. I hate reoccuring dreams, they mearly point ot the fact that I have little imagination and can't think of anything new. lol Anyway, school stasrts back tomorrow and once again I've put my homework off till the last minute. "Ah well, it'll get done." I say as I go back to me web games. It's times like these I absolutely hate myself. -__- I do the same thing over and over and the work hardley ever gets done. My grades are terrible. I used to be a perfectionist. I made straight As and every thing. Sadly I was still never the top in my class and I deeply resented those above me. Course I deeply resented everything then. lol For everything I did back then I had a reason. As odd as it may seem to one person it made perfect sense to me. But anyway, telling you all this still does not get my reading list read so until next time I bid you fairwell.

My journals are always very interesting. At least the ones I keep at home are. There are always torn pages and things scribbled out where I feared someone would read it and actually get the right idea for once. For my family to realize what they truly spawned at the current time just would not be good. My journals and my mind are dark and lonely places so you have been forewarned of the things you may read here. But really, there's nothing to fear in a little darkness............or so they say........