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finly things are looking up im smiling more and im acculy laughing ....not the fake ones any more ...im ilove ...i have good friends by my side....ilove you kate!!!! and my poetry is doing better also........ofr once...im honestly and truly happy....

what can i do to make you see just me?? what can i do to make you want just and only me???what can i do to make you think of just me even if im away even if im not their......i will not worrie.... but what can i do to forever want need and see only me??? what can i do......will you answer this.......

love is not a toy but an emotion............its not to be played with

ive stood by your side through the good the bad and the ugly i have picked you up when you fell i soberd you up when you were drunk i took the blame for you over and over again i have tryed to make you happy i have tryd to dry your tears i have brough you the world and yet you still cant see what you mean to me what i have doe what could be and how things could be......

i writting yes i know im lame but i love to write, i also love to take pictres how i can show how gothic beautys is deepre then makeup or cloths its lyour minde and soul, black hair pal skin a yurning to love and be ste free any one can cake on make-up and put ont black cloths , it whats in the heart its whats in the mind the body the soul....whats in yours tell me id like to know........id like to know what you think what you feel what you want , and if you can heal,if life is beautiful or if its la nightmare your waiting to wake up from............

i must get some stuff off my chest i must feel alive again

to to the cold or bitterness ive felt for so long in me

my hear achs my bones are dence my blood drips fo you my love is hard my love is soft my heat is alift

i hate you people you made me miserable with in my self i cut i OD i cant see the love i can only see hate i want to stop but its all i know i know this dosent make sence but thats ok i dont think you would handle it but i need this off i need it gone but im drowing in my guilt and yet i find it pleasure so move on dont worrie about me and ill see you soon

....it wasent my fault i dident do any thing yet i feel as if i did......i fell as if i have hurt and killed what was my family....i tainted outr mother and now you paid the price ......i feel the ever lasting pain of you gone and i worrie of my future and the way things could be....you are go and i am here ...i guess in a good way to comfret andhelp mom in this bad situation ........you are gone and i know your safe and protected your in my heat your in my soul your with me every day....i write to you out of nothing but pure love and pure soul i know its not my fault but i must say it and i truly mean it .......im so sorry.....





to izekeil and little jon.......this is to my baby brothers and i miss them so.....i truly miss you and always think of you take care of mom and the familey i know your waching.....R.I.P. LITTLE JON, AND ZEKE......