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Alone again

But what is new

It's all pretend

For me and you



My heart bleeds

My heart breaks

As it screams

And it aches



I wonder now

Who am I

And I wonder

Why I cry



Everyday for life to end

But each morning a new day begins

I cannot trust in anyone

Not even in my dearest friends



Why me why me

I scream aloud

But no one hears me

In this crowd



These thoughts I keep

Are not my own

So I keep them locked

Behind a stone



But now it starts

To chip and shatter

I cannnot stop it

Does it even matter



Soon the stone

Crumbles away

And so begins

A very bad day



A day when I

Have thoughts of harm

A day when I

Could use some charm



To clear my head

Of thoughts so cruel

But my mind

Is like a mule



Stubborn Stubborn

It will not sway

And so begins

My last day



First I think about

My life

Then I reach

For a knife



With the blade

I cut deep

And as the blood

Begins to seep



I think about

My failed exhistence

To live this long

Took such persistence



Now it runs

Almost black

So thick now

No turning back



I reach for the wall

And make my mark

As I fall to the floor

I see a quick spark



It's my life

In high speed

But to look back

There is no need



I've done nothing

With this chance

And so I've danced

My last dance



Heart slowing down

Eyes getting blurry

But I myself

Am in no hurry



This one moment

I want to last

I've finally accomplished

What I couldn't in the past



To do something right

Was all I wanted

But in this triumph

My life is severely stunted



I breathe in

One last breath

As I begin

To face my death



Ryan Pery

10/01/10

As i sit here in the dark

Contemplating past and present

Do I even have a future



I hope I do

But I can't tell

So I sit and wait



Waiting waiting

It's all a game

And I play it well



At least I think I do

How would I know

I am not God



Only God can judge me

I've said before

But does he see me anymore



All this time I've waited

Not knowing why

I'll wait no more



Hurried now

I'm in a rush

As I stand



Then I run

But to where

I cannot say



Now I'm here

But where am I

This place unfamiliar



And strangely enough

I know this tree

That stands before me



I see the rope swinging

Gentle breeze blowing

The stool beckoning



So here I stand

Rope sinched tight

Again I wait



But wait again

I will not

Kicking slightly



The stool falls

And so do I

Without a sound



Without a cry

Only a crack

As my neck breaks



Wait no more

Will I will I

For now it is



My time to die

And end this game

I play everyday