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Tonight I got into a conversation with my brother about this stuff. I have not talked to many about these things, I scared off an ex by doing so. When it comes right down to it, I enjoy pain. If it's done right, I like what some would call extreme pain. I like causing pain too, I get satisfaction hearing someone gasp in pain, I don't need to go beyond that though (if someone wanted me to I would not mind it) I also get pleasure from drinking blood (it isn't a need), I have had someone drink mine before and enjoyed that as well. I like to watch myself bleed.

Not trying to get to personal, but I like to be aggressive and rough during sex, I REALLY like it if the girl is equally aggressive and rough.

I am frustrated by the lack of aility to express this. I have no outlet, I wish I could find someone like minded. Now here's the catch on that, I don't want a "fuck buddy," I want have a relationship with this person. I know this is weird for a guy, but I want a mental/emotional/physical connection. hhhhhhhh, alas, I do not know how or where to find this.